"Best I Ever Had"

So you sailed away into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay, love can be so boring
And nothing's quite the same nowI just say your name now.
But it's not so badYou're only the best I ever had
You don't want me backYou're just the best I ever had.
So you stole my world, now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl leaves me down and lonely
Well send it in a letterMake yourself feel better.
But it's not so badYou're only the best I ever had
You dont want me backYou're just the best I ever had.
And it might take some time to patch me up inside
but I cant take it so I, I run away and hide
And I might find in time that you were always right
You're always right.
So you sailed away into a grey sky morning
Now, I'm here to stay, love can be so boring
Was it what you wanted?Could it be I'm haunted?
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You dont want me back
You're just the best I ever had.
You're just the best I ever had

Well todays a new day to start with.. Many things to say..
But some are personal and its not very convenience to say..
And the rest are too problematic to say and i wont say either..
Any way todays Thursday 5th 2009 time 10:31AM and 2 more
days to go before something big might happen or not,, i dont
really care cause its part of life and how times flies and how lost
i feel sometimes..And how happy i feel suddenly..I just cant
define whats this life about..Problem after problem and once
its settlled lifes resumes normal and out of the blue another
problem arises. I just dont know what to say but just follow
it and try my best to settle it..Some i cant and i just leave it
and after some times its keep bugging my mind.. like i could
have hepled it..And this keeps me low..Guess the drinks are
calling me cause its been so fucking long that i have not drank
till i droped dead..The last was almost 7 or 8 month ago.. I was
so fucking pissed that i drank the 2 or 4 bottle of quarter
without any thing..When i was at hostel..i was like a nuscience
luckily friends put me to bed,,But i kept falling,,You know no
matter how fucking drunk i am i still have conscounce,,Any
way if this Sunday plan fails,, i am planning to drink with
Dhurba one of my good freinds..Its been almost 2 years since
we had a good driink together..
Ok lets forget about drinking now..Well reading from the paper
i really dont know how bad the economy is going to fall or not..
But the other thing is that too nuch news around the world other
than economy crises..Just few days Mutinity in Bangladesh..Well
i have bangladesh freinds who are quite helpful but are shocked
at what had happened since the mitilitary rule was over ruled by
Democracy..I fear that the old rule might come back and take away
Democracy..I personally believe that it might be unstable cause of the
population and the things happenning within not forgetting
economy crises..Other than that whats happenning around the
world is making me sick too..Or is it because something really
bad is going to happen..
Like when there was a depression in the 1920s..War arose..
Luckily at that time 70% of the nation didnt suffer cause they were
either not developed or were totally not in the region yet..But nows
different if it really happens i can feel that its going to be very nasty
.. i mean especially the developing nations.. Like what had happened
in Indonesia around 1998..Or worse.. I dont know but just prepare
to go back cause it will only be stupidity to stay along..
And the other thing is the research that happenning in..i cant remember
the one thing that the universe was created by the "THE BIG BANG'
Scientist are experimenting it.. Its sounds scary.. Dont know what will
happen if the experiment goes wrong..I mean total destruction is ok..
But what if it paralyse the world..I dont know also.. i just forcasting..
Just like the weather forcaster or the economist..
Ok forget all those..Now i am more free compared to last time and
i have the time to write as much as i can (nonsense) cause sometimes
soon i dont think i will have as much freedom as this few days..It is
only when i am broke my mind works perfectly..But whan i am loaded
i do so much stupidity that i dont know what i am doing..
P.S most of the previous pages or almost entirely pages were written
when i was broke..
I was planning to write in the newspaper column about the foreigner
plight..Cause you know Malaysia totally 60% or more depends on
cheap labour for their job market..Its because they dont have much
man power or they just have too much talented people..I mean there
are more talented cheap foreigner its just that they were let down by
their country or their political..There are many reasons to it..Like me
too..Of all places i had come to Malaysia..But i dont regret,, cause
it has made me learn some important things in life and still learning..
Back to the topic..not only the foreigner are pais cheap most are
conned..i dont know what to say about this but its only best to
fight for them cause there are universal reaasons and things
happenniing. The one reason is that today morning while i was
listening the radio the government said that they can bypass the
1998 economy recession..The reason kick out the current cheap
labour and hire the local..This sounds very bad from my point of
view.. I mean what kind of thoughts..They should at least
compromise..See this are some of the things i really hate.. Any way
i dont think i will complain cause, i know my article would not be
printed cause the last time i sent,,it was not printed..cause i blamed
the local to being lazy..Any way the political situation here is getting
worse..or shall i say this is true dremocracy..I dont know but i just
read what happens next cause it will have an impact in the country..
ok so much of bullshitting and bla bla..
I knd of miss one thing that is alcohal..I am just waiting for this Sunday
or Saturday cause it can be like 'out of the blue thing' Like suprises..
I think i should be able to write tomorrow too..But i dont know..it just
depends on my mood..