139am

Merry Christmas... A wonderful occassion to cherish yearly
for we mankind are a apecial species and we have to remenber
we are special. And to make our life worthwhile we have to
have occassion to celebrate our existance of principle and
for the newer generation to follow. Cause its life and its
precious in every way. Only some will be remembered in
history but the rest were there to make that happen and the
rest are the special ones. With out the special ones the one
in history is nothing. And here i am drinking and listening
to my own song that i have recorded some times back.
Although i am high it good to be high. Why would mankind
create such things. Cause not all are perfect. I am thankful
that i am in the right sense. Dont know how long will that be
but i enjoy tonight.

Just prepared the daal. Dont want to eat noodle. Althought
it will take a lot of time, i will wait like i have waited for me
to come this far. Heating the water and just need to put in
the daal. Hope i will have daal and rice and not just drop
dead on the floor cause of drinking. ha ha

201am and daal is still cooking. Think i will have my food
only around 3 plus.. |Lets see..ha ha.. now playing my guitar.
Just opened the window for cool air..

211am.. still enjoying the intoxicating.. but i feel depressed..
Drinking was suppose to be happy but i am depressed..
Need to change my mood.. Daal is still cooking and i
have taken out the onion and garlic.. just need to prepare
later..

I was just playing my guitar and i realise that life is more
interesting if its in pain. |Every one is living the same way
except me. Man i feel special. Right.. ha ha.. But tomorrow
i will feel the suffering again. is this life better than others.
May be it is..Daal is still cooking..

228am.. just preapared the onion and garlic and am listenig
to Billy Joel- Piano man.. And i just closed the window the
air is too cold for me..Just top up my glass of wisky..
I know i am having too much but i need to make my food
and eat it before i sleep...
Just top up water in the daal..

231am and i am still drinking... Next year i am going to do
great.. for sure i have to..

242am... There is a saying.. The older you grow, the wiser
you will become. And i can say i have become wiser and
i cherish my life. I will always will..Listening to Nepathay
'Yo jindagani' aka this life....

256am... Cant believe life is so beautifulllllllll............
and i am still alive.....
300am.. I mean every thing is beautiful,,, ha ha

My daal is ready and i am cooking my rice.. 306am.. Now
just need to prepare the egg.. gonna close the window,,,
ha ha..

314am... too high and i can still write.. ha ha

Just came back form the toilet.. wHAT goes in must come
out... ha  ha..

317am... light up Marlboro cigaet..

Just played Danny dezompa songggg
ha ha..

321am just tasted the rice and now i am going to cook egg..

325am.. just finishd cooking egg and serlou just came back..

ok.. after this i am gonna eat and sleep..