1130hrs
9th 12 2011

Having bread with water,, too lazy to cook and just
listening to my song. Bought this bread in the
morning with indon mee. Need the noodle cause
the maggie is horrible. In the morning its gives me
bad stomach problem. Its the second time i have
faced this problem when ever i had maggie.
Last night was horrible. In my sleep i can feel like
i can just die in my sleep. Happened too many time
in the night and decide to wake up. Dont know if
its the hunger or have i abused my body too much.
I feel its the latter. Like a few days back i smoked
almost 35 stick. Its obviously the smoking. I tried
too many times but i cant seems to cause of the
lonelyness. Fuck this shit. I need to try. Too many
times i have said this and fuck it.. Dont want to
write of this shit again.

Just came back from my smoke and having the
bread that was unfinished. After this gonna play
my guitar. See if i need to do any changes.
By the way have cover the light from the window
with the curtain.

1143hrs.. time is moving slowly. works at 3 pm..

As what i said yesterday that i will exercise. But i
woke up late and i did not do as i said. Sometimes
cant do as what i planned.

Any way nothing much to say...

123hrs
9th Dec 2011

Its early in the morning of 9th Dec and i had just
came back from work. Smoked a cigaret, ate
yogurt and brushed my teeth. Going to sleep
soon as i was feeling sleepy back than, Too
much things to worry and too lonesome. I cant
do anything about except to try to look for
alternatives ways to deal with it. Morning need
to go running and gym. Cant believe my weight
is piling and just looking in the mirror makes me
emberess. Cause i felt like i have loose weight,
but instead it was winning weight. Need to
be serious./.

Good night...

1230hrs
8th December 2011

Listening to my song that i composed and recorded
in my phone. Its out of words for me... Too good
to say any thing about it. Sometimes i wonder if we
were not there. Life would have been much better
i think. What are the changes that happened. In the
end we ended up there but lost in the thoughts.
How can i change all this. There is nothing i can
do and just stay in silence.



Heyyyyy my villager...
Wait for me, for a while

Stream of water, will get it in pail
Forest dried branches, collect and shall i bring
Mom cooking, Dhiroa and Gunruuk
Dad in the field, farming the rice

Heyyyyy my villager...
Wait for me, for a while

Thisss suffering, comfort
Memoriesss sweet, sour
I guess, this is called

Heyyyyy my villager...
Wait for me, for a while

Heyyyyy my villager...
Wait for me, for a while

This is in the english version. Althought its not
too good translated, It goes something like
that. Today going at 1.30pm to work. And i
would like to meet munna. Wanna have lunch
together. Now wanna play my guitar and see
if i can modify anything...