Here I am at the ground of my building smoking. Cant sleep cause slept the whole day in the day. Kind of feeling lost and depressed. So came out to free my mind. Its not helping but the humid wind is blowing me and I feel a bit relaxed. Summer might go away soon maybe cause the wind is not so bad as its supposed to be. Want some changes in my life but its not as easy as I can say. How miserable I am feeling. And I have not much words to go on to it. Any way I am gonna smoke my second. The wind is back and its smooth as I smoke away my cigarette. Cant believe... words are not easy to elobrate so is my emotion. Am confusing myself and others. Looking forward for a better later. Hoping which is not a good way of expecting life but to express oneself to betterment. But what to do my unilateral hearing makes my life misery. I know and I have accepted it but what to do I am stuck in this trap. Time and time again I try for betterment but its been a habit that I have started to hate myself but thats what in store for me. Hate the way my brain thinks and... any way I am gonna puff my third and its already 345am. Just lighted and plan for what I am going to do. First make myself a bread and butter. Eat it and shower cause my body is sticky cause of the sweat and the hot weather. As I puff away so is my life like the smoke flies away in the air cause thats the nature of everything. Just extinguished the butt and I hear the bus noise which had came from the hotel. Gonna go up my room for now.....
