1130hrs
9th 12 2011

Having bread with water,, too lazy to cook and just
listening to my song. Bought this bread in the
morning with indon mee. Need the noodle cause
the maggie is horrible. In the morning its gives me
bad stomach problem. Its the second time i have
faced this problem when ever i had maggie.
Last night was horrible. In my sleep i can feel like
i can just die in my sleep. Happened too many time
in the night and decide to wake up. Dont know if
its the hunger or have i abused my body too much.
I feel its the latter. Like a few days back i smoked
almost 35 stick. Its obviously the smoking. I tried
too many times but i cant seems to cause of the
lonelyness. Fuck this shit. I need to try. Too many
times i have said this and fuck it.. Dont want to
write of this shit again.

Just came back from my smoke and having the
bread that was unfinished. After this gonna play
my guitar. See if i need to do any changes.
By the way have cover the light from the window
with the curtain.

1143hrs.. time is moving slowly. works at 3 pm..

As what i said yesterday that i will exercise. But i
woke up late and i did not do as i said. Sometimes
cant do as what i planned.

Any way nothing much to say...