2.31am

227am
Am in my bed.. wanna fall asleep. Just came back from
staff lounge watching real vs barca.. ended up 1-1.. work
was fine and my body is better.. except I am still smoking.
Bought red Winston in the morning and it finished and
bought lights.. Dont know when I can completely quit it..

Times 230am
Dont have much to say.. except.. Good night.

1325pm

1319hrs and I am all set except for my uniform..
gonna live at 2 pm bus..

My beds been made and read the Tomb of Hercules.
Dont know when I will finish reading it, but hipefully
soon I will.

Todays the 30th and one more day before February
starts. How time moves and how much I have come.
It gives me a sense of acceptance of who I am. Tonight
going to start exercising hopefully. Bodys week and
need to get back in shape.

Well guess thats it for now.

30.1.13

1057 am and its a wednesday morning. 2 days of off
and I feel like it was such a waste. Did nothing but just
wasted the time. FB was my waste cause later I realise
who am I entertaining??? Not even 1% of...

Any way its good that now i am back to blogging. Miss
the old me. One thing its the old me but more advance than
before.

Made 2 fried egg and tea for breakfast and went to shit
at C3 cause my flat mates was in the toilet. Fuckers stuck
themselves inside for almost an hour. Dont know why
they stay there so long. But its annoying for me.

I just cant seem to part my bed. The last 2 days have been
spent on my bed...

Well chow for now.

21.1.13 Monday

2043 hrs and it's 21st January 2013
It's my off and did nothing much except cleaned my
room in the morning and made lunch. Lunch is also
my dinner. Hate to cook cause its kind of not like before
where I used to enjoy cooking. Its like the kick is no
more. In the beginning it's always exciting and once
you are doing everyday, you get the lackness.Eating
Is another thing. Have to eat everyday but sometimes
get sick of eating. No choice still have to eat.

Any way so much has happen and the days have moved
so fast. Am thinking I am satisfied but I know the fire
in me says I can achieve more. I am still doing my best
to upgrade and be wiser. I have a lot of catching up to
do and I will overcome it with ease.

Any ways have to take care of my health cause I am having
high B.P cause of excessive drinking and smoking. Have
to control or else this body will give up. Too few of
times I nearly fainted on the street. I told myself I will
not fall and I made it to my room only to smoke more and
drink. I have told myself control or go insane. So as of now
I have not  smoked for and hour and hopefully I will.

Times 2058 hrs and I am in my bed typing away what's
in my mind. The only thing I have is my bed. Read in bed,
sing in bed, eat in bed and all other things possibly there
Is. It's like if I did  not had this bed, I don't think I would
have came this far.. ha ha.. well enough of bed.. I kind
of feel sleepy. Of course I will not sleep.. cause don't want
to waste the night waking up and doing nothing..

Well that's it for now.