217am.. cant sleep due to day sleeping. Admiring the Moon. How beautiful she looks, bright enough to take away the darkness and keeping me occupied from sleeplessness. Cant imagine how this earth would be without her. Enough of complimenting her.. for now I wanna admire her from my bed and hopefully I will fall asleep....
0013hrs.. Ya I approached her.. I was nervous and I said what I had to say. Been blushing all along. Now am too excited to say any thing. Only waiting for her...
So fucking boring.. got to unleash my potential.. got to find new meaning into my life.. got to.. got to..
1239pm and I just managed to hop in the bus for work. Cause I came out on time planning to buy new cigarette packet. I had forgotton today is friday. Friday the day that shop closes in the afternoon for friday prayer. So I had to rush back to my room ti get my old cigarette packet. While doing so, time was a factor. Luckily I managed to catch the bus. Any way I slept late in the morning like around 5am and I am feeling a bit tired due to lack of sleep. But it's better to sleep less compared to over sleeping.
1235pm
Listening to BBC radio station. Loss of words. Wanna stop for now..
Just punch out my attendance and its almost 330am. Chiller had tripped and due to that I am going late. Any way I almost forgot why I sent her the message. I was almost reaching insanity. Thats the reason and because of that sanity came back but I did not win her, instead history repeated itself. I know now I am stable for now but for how long. But I have to focus myself for betterment this is all I can say. Lets see how life puts me through.. with that the song finishes with " no one wants to be the bad man, sad man behind the lies".
My tummies been giving me problem for the last 2 days and dont know If I will recover later. Am hungry as well.
Just boarded the 330am bus and gonna just type what I can type. Just time pass.
2013 there is like only 3 more month and 14 gonna start. Have to say I am no where to what I started at 10. Just living and breathing. Feeling I need wisky and waiting for my off. Gonna be royal stag cause its affordable. I cant compete with quality.
Just crossed the maquta bridge and there is 3 of us. Driver stewarding service leader and me of course. I can feel I am hungry. Noodle is the only choice I have and I cant wait to cook and eat.
336am and nothing much on my mind just waiting to reach my room. The music playing on the radio and its indian music which I pretty not sure what's its saying. Just of the melody can I make it. Just bended the o see the road and its pretty empty and its a smooth journey that I am heading. One two car passed by other than that its empty.
Any way am suprise Fauzy my Singaporean friend mailed me and I feel happy he still remembers me after all this years. Any way replied him back and also told him to send my regard to Stanley too.
340am and still on the road and I will probably reach building at 355am. For now still in the highway. And a truck just zoomed passed our bus. The sound of it can tell its fury as it went pass my bus.
It's been long that I have not written in blog and its making me hype and my finger and minds doing a good job. And I cant feel the pain at all. My engrossment on the blog made my pain go away I guess.
346am and the bus is out of the highway and its in normal road. Now just did a round about and its heading straight to building. Its suppose to go green villa as well. But it did not. Any way there is like 2 more round about before building will be reached. View of the buolding has approached and there is one more round about.
350am and the buoldings all dark cause its night and no ones work at night.
Just waiting to reach the alighting point and....... 352am and I just alighted and typing and walking. Gonna take a cigarette before I head up to my room. Just reaching C1 entrance. Now gonna puff.. Chow
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Late morning was a disaster. . What can I say.. I am disappointed with myself. Lost and lonely...
