641hrs 20Dec..

Almost to 20days.. flower showing..

Around 3 to 4pm..

A firm handshake and Best of luck was all I could do and say. But its better than nothing.

1212hrs..

Well I blocked and I deactivate. . Enough and new life starts.

403hrs 18Dec..

Yesterday I had sent her a request to stay and she has not seen it yet.. I really dont know the outcome.. I am just lost. I want to be strong thats all. Gonna sleep now.. lets see what awaits.......

0021hrs.. 18th Dec

Got ti get up and try.. song playing. And a beautiful moon.

Last night while jogging to Etihad Plaza..

1956hrs 16th Dec

After 10Km and scotch and 6Km finally am in my room.

Had this on the 14th Dec

0033hrs.. 16th Dec

The radio's playing good song and making my mood smooth.. Just the right kind to make my day go smooth. Life is as usual that comes and go. Found out she resigned and it came a shock to me.. gonna talk to her.. any way in the bus heading room.

Now Only need to get 10k to release Baubarian King

8am 11th December 2013

Fresh from my sleep, breakfast done and in my bed playing Clash of Clans. Need to upgrade my army except that elixir is not enough. Always makes the mistake of not having enough resource to upgrade and now rushing up to get the resource. Any way had a good sleep. Thought I will be sick when I slept last night. I had that kind of feeling while I went to bed last night. For the rest of the time gonna surf the way till it's time for work. About work.. nothing going on except it's work. Life is normal and other than that waiting for new year. Many resolution and many many things to think about. Well that's it for now. It's time to attack.. Clash of Clans.

1412pm.. 10th Dec

In the bus.. heading to work. Fine weather and smooth bus journey along the way. 21days exactly to 2014. Looking forward to New Year. 

Drinking after 8 days later. .

After so long.. finally a long distance..

Finally 3rd Builder's Hut..

338am Chilli progress

6th December 2013 1729hrs

19 days to Christmas.. and after that 6 more to New Year..

Chilli progress..

Clash of Clans Christmas gift..

0038hrs..
In the bus.. the radios playing "everywhere you go, always take the weather" kind of good mood. And life's good as the days going.. any way maybe or maybe not I will go jogging.  Chow for now.

Christmas coming

506am 4th December

Woke up early and am down stair just finished my puff. Felt I had enough sleep even though I slept around 2am. Its a cold early morning in winter. Feeling so fresh maybe due to back to running. Now my pattern has changed to slow jog and speed jog. Today's my rest from jog and later tonight back to the road. Reason is due to health decline and tummy sticking out. Got to get back in shape and mentally alert. Hope this time will go well and results shows and be more consistent. 513am and I think it's not good to stay out too long in this chilly weather. Gonna go back to room and make myself a hot tea..

2nd Dec 2013 1410hrs..

Happy National Day UAE..

Happens to be National Day for  UAE and  its 42 years of Nationalities.

1203pm .. Breakfast.. feeling very fresh from last night run..

Route from Accommodation to Work

0054am.. having a wild... Turkey.

My run status after so long without Data.

My chilli plant progress. .

1901hrs..

Squatting down and am near Khalifa building. The winds blowing and my hair's is flowing the winds way. My ear is listening the flow and I feel very peace at ease. Just finished my 4km jog and it was a good one. Fast and slow was my jog and I find it better this way instead of long slow jog. By now my sweats gone as its winter but not inside my sweater. Just love the fresh air after the whole day and night inside my room. Now just stood up and gonna head to my room..

1735hrs..29th Nov

In my bed.. playing game and watching youtube of locked up abroad.. life experience story of people. Reminds me of my own experience. Any way from tonight doing night shift for a few days as contractors are coming to fix FCU at finance office. Been very long since I did night shift. Any way nowadays been self busy with wifi.

This is what I had last night..

1348hrs 24th Nov

Finally I got wireless from Daramaha.. and the connectivity is quite good from my bed area.. Before a few days ago got data and my data is not working well.. already informed etisalat..

Any way all ready to go to work.. just waiting for the right time to get out..

1406hrs.. at basement Chi Spa

Last 2 days re-formating and re... cause the data I applied is gonna be waste.. now my data is not working.. looks like the antenna might be damage.. just my luck after all that I went through.. lets see if my sim data will work on other phone.. than I can confirm..

Having this..

250am

Am having this..

0058hrs 4th November 2013

Just came from my sis place. Yesterday was Laxmi Pujaa and feeling how thankful life has bought us here.
Any way waiting for the bus to go back to my room. 3 days of off start from today. Lets see how it goes. Any way that's it for now.

From kalifa to etihad and back.. got this dri k..

128hrs 31st October 2013

Drinking my last korean wine.. goes like Chum Churum maybe the spelling miataken. Today my BP was high due to excessive drinking from the last two days. Told myself gonna stop smoking and ended up buying a new pack. Any way last day of October and yea 2 month left to 2014. How time moved so fast and nothing new just work and life goes by. Well I am stuck for a while to write what? Any way will let my finger do the talking. The wine is chilling in the freezer and now it's been more than a week that I started playing Clash of Clan and it's addictive. It's the best for Time Pass. Any way I want to build my empire and playing with strategy. Now just the game gave an alrert that my troops are ready. Ok gonna go off..

1726hrs 29th Oct 2013

Am at work.. last night lost like 800 and the previous was 300. Any way its gone and am happy that Bin was cleared. There is still long way to go. But I have moved on and accepted and learned. Least I did not finished all... only problem was 3 different alcohol was mixed and my head hurts like shit. By now I am already better. There is like one more vat69 and korean wine.. gonna drink it slowly hopefully.. chow for now..

27th October..

Now at Al wada mall.. just reached here after walking from Nepal embassy and along the way had lunch. Now is 1628hrs. Gonna take 6pm bus.

Last night lost 300 in flush game and well.. I lost.

Any way I am all sweaty from the walk and gonna cool down in the mall before going back.

Life's going on and salary should be on the way by tomorrow hopefully.

27th October 2013

2243hrs 25th October 2013

The breeze is blowing and I feel the comfort of the wind as it accompany me. I am not lonely it's just my way of life. How much my thoughts was there and when I started typing I feel free of my thoughts. How relaxed and peace I am at right now. Gonna lit up my third cigarette as chin ni lai joined me for and before I can finish my sentance, he left. Puffing my third and I remember I have to go get shrimp. Ya gonna have seafood.

25th October 2013

Almost to 3pm, released it at Abra Canal. After 5 weeks when I first approached. Still fresh in my mind.

Any ways.. November approaching and 2014 coming soon.

210am 22nd Oct 2013

Am so stressed.. dont know why but I find that the way things are coming is very stupidity.

245am 21st Oct 2013

Listening to my own song Eek Din Ko Bato Ma. Inspiring myself to be strong and move on. Telling myself this is life and many obstacles came and many more will come. Just be prepard to make a life changing vow soon... Good night for now.

Am at work.. work is so so..

1330hrs..

Am drunk.. 1 more hours to work.. feeling the highness. . Just loving it..

Last night drink...

245am.. 13th October 2013

I ask whoever read this. . If you have the guts to block one of your ear with a wool or anything that can block your hearing, and go around your daily routine for one day. Feel what's it like to live with only one ear.

Any way what my point is I have lived with only one ear for the past 36 (going to) years and I do feel it's terrible but I am still going on stronger.

247am

I feel so lonely and empty. Hope for a better stronger tomorrow.

135am 12 oct 2013

Maybe the way I presented the present was not good or the way I wrote??? I really want her but maybe cause of the way I presented myself. I dont know but I dont know what I should do... I will wait for sometime or what should I do... For now...

11th October 2014 422am

Every heart beat from my heart keeps me going. Every breath my nose breath keeps me living. Even in times I am at my lowest it just goes on. Not forgetting when I am at my highest. Living is the ultimate solution. Sometimes I wish it stops but it does not. I guess its not the right time yet.

Maybe the reason is I still cant write well. I am confuse and my brain is the biggest sinner. I want to be a saint. But both of them plays my mind and thats what confusing.

If I die now, no body will know me. But if I carry on someone will know me strangly. Am a person with complex personality. I cant control it, it automatically controls me. I cant blame no one but me myself cause I was made this way. So I keep on going... Strangely.

338am.. what why how.. I am fucking confusing my life. I just dont know what to write..

250am.. I am drinking.. when I was syppose to be... any way..

239am.. in my room. I did not win her heart. I failed. I lost. I will change.. for now I will not even think..

9th October 2013

115am.. am outside.. the radio just played.. Right here waiting for you.  And I walked off..

1st October 2013 1631hrs

Am in my room trying to read.. just before that cleaned up my room and had lunch with Tashi and Tshring. Now waiting for 6 plus to go jogging. Today's my off and relaxing the day away. Last night had drink of Vodka. Not a good quality but I got drunk and that's what mattered. Any way gonna ready my book..

25th September 2012

217am.. cant sleep due to day sleeping. Admiring the Moon. How beautiful she looks, bright enough to take away the darkness and keeping me occupied from sleeplessness. Cant imagine how this earth would be without her. Enough of complimenting her.. for now I wanna admire  her from my bed and hopefully I will fall asleep....

24th September 2013

Again after a long time.. 6km.. but slow run like the snail..

+ n - = eternity
+ n - = destruction

20th September 2013

0013hrs.. Ya I approached her.. I was nervous and I said what I had to say. Been blushing all along. Now am too excited to say any thing. Only waiting for her...

6km of jog after a long time absence.

I feel even more terrible.. fb is disabled.. really really feel bad.. nothing more to say..

1025pm..

So fucking boring.. got to unleash my potential.. got to find new meaning into my life.. got to.. got to..

20th September 2013

1239pm and I just managed to hop in the bus for work. Cause I came out on time planning to buy new cigarette packet.  I had forgotton today is friday. Friday the day that shop closes in the afternoon for friday prayer. So I had to rush back to my room ti get my old cigarette packet. While doing so, time was a factor. Luckily I managed to catch the bus. Any way I slept late in the morning like around 5am and I am feeling a bit tired due to lack of sleep. But it's better to sleep less compared to over sleeping.

1235pm
Listening to BBC radio station. Loss of words. Wanna stop for now..

12th September 2013..

Just punch out my attendance and its almost 330am. Chiller had tripped and due to that I am going late. Any way I almost forgot why I sent her the message. I was almost reaching insanity. Thats the reason and because of that sanity came back but I did not win her, instead history repeated itself. I know now I am stable for now but for how long. But I have to focus myself for betterment this is all I can say. Lets see how life puts me through.. with that the song finishes with " no one wants to be the bad man, sad man behind the lies".

My tummies been giving me problem for the last 2 days and dont know If I will recover later. Am hungry as well.

Just boarded the 330am bus and gonna just type what I can type. Just time pass.

2013 there is like only 3 more month and 14 gonna start. Have to say I am no where to what I started at 10. Just living and breathing. Feeling I need wisky and waiting for my off. Gonna be royal stag cause its affordable. I cant compete with quality.

Just crossed the maquta bridge and there is 3 of us. Driver stewarding service leader and me of course. I can feel I am hungry. Noodle is the only choice I have and I cant wait to cook and eat. 

336am and nothing much on my mind just waiting to reach my room. The music playing on the radio and its indian music which I pretty not sure what's its saying. Just of the melody can I make it. Just bended the o see the road and its pretty empty and its a smooth journey that I am heading. One two car passed by other than that its empty.

Any way am suprise Fauzy my Singaporean friend mailed me and I feel happy he still remembers me after all this years. Any way replied him back and also told him to send my regard to Stanley too.

340am and still on the road and I will probably reach building at 355am. For now still in the highway. And a truck just zoomed passed our bus. The sound of it can tell its fury as it went pass my bus.

It's been long that I have not written in blog and its making me hype and my finger and minds doing a good job. And I cant feel the pain at all. My engrossment on the blog made my pain go away I guess.

346am and the bus is out of the highway and its in normal road. Now just did a round about and its heading straight to building. Its suppose to go green villa as well. But it did not. Any way there is like 2 more round about before building will be reached. View of the buolding has approached and there is one more round about.

350am and the buoldings all dark cause its night and no ones work at night.

Just waiting to reach the alighting point and....... 352am and I just alighted and typing and walking. Gonna take a cigarette before I head up to my room. Just reaching C1 entrance. Now gonna puff.. Chow
.

503pm

R120 Coil cleaning.

11th September 2013 0030hrs..

Late morning was a disaster. . What can I say.. I am disappointed with myself.  Lost and lonely...

11th September 2013.. 1209pm

New Hair cut..

9th September 2013

5km.. of run.. good one.. ending was walk and knee high..

To fall in love with you
is the greatest of all romances.
To seek you is the greatest adventure,
to find you my greatest achievement.

Suman Rai...
7th September 2013
428hrs..

Lunch..

512am supper..

Sukiti..

Breakfast...

Finally 8.55km

2222hrs..

Its kind of strange as today we got tips of drm 100 from young lady from villa 3. I feel a bit of awkward.  Any way now at souk heading to office..

331hrs..

Now gonna start jog plus gym. Need to get back in shape..

For now heading to my bed to dream.

19th August 2013

337km

Prawn for today with Bandara Laxmi n Ming wi

359hrs..

Am in my bed ideling cause am still fresh and dont think I will fall asleep anytime soon. My body itchy maybe cause of the dust that came through my window or maybe I am dirty. Don't know but I am scratching all over my body. Has happen quite ofen. Caue I dont usually shower after work. Unless I go for a jog. Have not gone for my jog for a long time. This month maybe only twice. I am slacking and work worse. About sleep  maybe I am hungry buti had bread just an hour ago. On 15th Munna left for her vacation. Any way nothing much to write. Gonna post picture instead.

328am 7th August 2013

Here I am at the ground of my building smoking. Cant sleep cause slept the whole day in the day. Kind of feeling lost and depressed. So came out to free my mind. Its not helping but the humid wind is blowing me and I feel a bit relaxed. Summer might go away soon maybe cause the wind is not so bad as its supposed to be. Want some changes in my life but its not as easy as I can say. How miserable I am feeling. And I have not much words to go on to it. Any way I am gonna smoke my second. The wind is back and its smooth as I smoke away my cigarette. Cant believe... words are not easy to elobrate so is my emotion. Am confusing myself and others. Looking forward for a better later. Hoping which is not a good way of expecting life but to express oneself to betterment. But what to do my unilateral hearing makes my life misery. I know and I have accepted it but what to do I am stuck in this trap. Time and time again I try for betterment but its been a habit that I have started to hate myself but thats what in store for me. Hate the way my brain thinks and... any way I am gonna puff my third and its already 345am. Just lighted and plan for what I am going to do. First make myself a bread and butter. Eat it and shower cause my body is sticky cause of the sweat and the hot weather. As I puff away so is my life like the smoke flies away in the air cause thats the nature of everything. Just extinguished the butt and I hear the bus noise which had came from the hotel. Gonna go up my room for now.....

149am 4th of August..

How times flies and 2013 is almost over. There's still like 5 more month but cant believe 7 month just went by. And I am the same still me... lets see how life goes by. I always complain but this time I am sick of complaining and let life come by. Any ways playing candy crush and I am at stage 45 or so. Am just passing my time go by cause there is nothing coming for me. Well got nothing more to say and gonna stop here for now.

30th July 2013 2235hrs

In the bus coming from white villa Kali room. She is going for vacaton tomorrow and I will not be sending her off. How time moved so fast and I am heading for my room and probably for a drink at Tobgay room. Before he had called to tell me they were caught by housing. The sound of his sounded fake. Only way to tell is when I am there. Any way that's it.