20th September 2013

1239pm and I just managed to hop in the bus for work. Cause I came out on time planning to buy new cigarette packet.  I had forgotton today is friday. Friday the day that shop closes in the afternoon for friday prayer. So I had to rush back to my room ti get my old cigarette packet. While doing so, time was a factor. Luckily I managed to catch the bus. Any way I slept late in the morning like around 5am and I am feeling a bit tired due to lack of sleep. But it's better to sleep less compared to over sleeping.

1235pm
Listening to BBC radio station. Loss of words. Wanna stop for now..

12th September 2013..

Just punch out my attendance and its almost 330am. Chiller had tripped and due to that I am going late. Any way I almost forgot why I sent her the message. I was almost reaching insanity. Thats the reason and because of that sanity came back but I did not win her, instead history repeated itself. I know now I am stable for now but for how long. But I have to focus myself for betterment this is all I can say. Lets see how life puts me through.. with that the song finishes with " no one wants to be the bad man, sad man behind the lies".

My tummies been giving me problem for the last 2 days and dont know If I will recover later. Am hungry as well.

Just boarded the 330am bus and gonna just type what I can type. Just time pass.

2013 there is like only 3 more month and 14 gonna start. Have to say I am no where to what I started at 10. Just living and breathing. Feeling I need wisky and waiting for my off. Gonna be royal stag cause its affordable. I cant compete with quality.

Just crossed the maquta bridge and there is 3 of us. Driver stewarding service leader and me of course. I can feel I am hungry. Noodle is the only choice I have and I cant wait to cook and eat. 

336am and nothing much on my mind just waiting to reach my room. The music playing on the radio and its indian music which I pretty not sure what's its saying. Just of the melody can I make it. Just bended the o see the road and its pretty empty and its a smooth journey that I am heading. One two car passed by other than that its empty.

Any way am suprise Fauzy my Singaporean friend mailed me and I feel happy he still remembers me after all this years. Any way replied him back and also told him to send my regard to Stanley too.

340am and still on the road and I will probably reach building at 355am. For now still in the highway. And a truck just zoomed passed our bus. The sound of it can tell its fury as it went pass my bus.

It's been long that I have not written in blog and its making me hype and my finger and minds doing a good job. And I cant feel the pain at all. My engrossment on the blog made my pain go away I guess.

346am and the bus is out of the highway and its in normal road. Now just did a round about and its heading straight to building. Its suppose to go green villa as well. But it did not. Any way there is like 2 more round about before building will be reached. View of the buolding has approached and there is one more round about.

350am and the buoldings all dark cause its night and no ones work at night.

Just waiting to reach the alighting point and....... 352am and I just alighted and typing and walking. Gonna take a cigarette before I head up to my room. Just reaching C1 entrance. Now gonna puff.. Chow
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503pm

R120 Coil cleaning.

11th September 2013 0030hrs..

Late morning was a disaster. . What can I say.. I am disappointed with myself.  Lost and lonely...

11th September 2013.. 1209pm

New Hair cut..

9th September 2013

5km.. of run.. good one.. ending was walk and knee high..

To fall in love with you
is the greatest of all romances.
To seek you is the greatest adventure,
to find you my greatest achievement.

Suman Rai...
7th September 2013
428hrs..

Lunch..

512am supper..

Sukiti..

Breakfast...

Finally 8.55km

2222hrs..

Its kind of strange as today we got tips of drm 100 from young lady from villa 3. I feel a bit of awkward.  Any way now at souk heading to office..

331hrs..

Now gonna start jog plus gym. Need to get back in shape..

For now heading to my bed to dream.

19th August 2013

337km

Prawn for today with Bandara Laxmi n Ming wi

359hrs..

Am in my bed ideling cause am still fresh and dont think I will fall asleep anytime soon. My body itchy maybe cause of the dust that came through my window or maybe I am dirty. Don't know but I am scratching all over my body. Has happen quite ofen. Caue I dont usually shower after work. Unless I go for a jog. Have not gone for my jog for a long time. This month maybe only twice. I am slacking and work worse. About sleep  maybe I am hungry buti had bread just an hour ago. On 15th Munna left for her vacation. Any way nothing much to write. Gonna post picture instead.

328am 7th August 2013

Here I am at the ground of my building smoking. Cant sleep cause slept the whole day in the day. Kind of feeling lost and depressed. So came out to free my mind. Its not helping but the humid wind is blowing me and I feel a bit relaxed. Summer might go away soon maybe cause the wind is not so bad as its supposed to be. Want some changes in my life but its not as easy as I can say. How miserable I am feeling. And I have not much words to go on to it. Any way I am gonna smoke my second. The wind is back and its smooth as I smoke away my cigarette. Cant believe... words are not easy to elobrate so is my emotion. Am confusing myself and others. Looking forward for a better later. Hoping which is not a good way of expecting life but to express oneself to betterment. But what to do my unilateral hearing makes my life misery. I know and I have accepted it but what to do I am stuck in this trap. Time and time again I try for betterment but its been a habit that I have started to hate myself but thats what in store for me. Hate the way my brain thinks and... any way I am gonna puff my third and its already 345am. Just lighted and plan for what I am going to do. First make myself a bread and butter. Eat it and shower cause my body is sticky cause of the sweat and the hot weather. As I puff away so is my life like the smoke flies away in the air cause thats the nature of everything. Just extinguished the butt and I hear the bus noise which had came from the hotel. Gonna go up my room for now.....