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2304 hrs..
13th December 2012

I am very tired.. a tired old man. I have come in a very
difficult position  to say any thing.. I don't know what I
will do but I know I have to so and move on. .. can't
write much ans don't want to write....

Any ways at staff lounge...

12.12.12

0137hrs
12.12.12

What I write is.... thinking thinking. Oh this is very complicating.
Than... life is complicating. That's the package of it. Dont want to
Elaborate .... ok.. here is the thing... I am drinking and I know at least
I can't be too serious. Any way I am alive and kicking.    And ostrich
is in the beginning... lets see how...

Got to go... need to play guitar....

And this is the last special year that I am experiencing...

1130 hrs
 10 December 2012

I am in my bed and trying to be creative. It's my off and
I am glad that I have the most advance phone with me.
There is no words to describe it.

Any way.. gonna study today. Knowledge is power and I
am glad I am understanding it.

Don't have much to say..

1900 hrs..

1900 hrs...

Just finished my dinner and started using B.S.. well it's
the new vibe in me. In front of me is Vijay and Sasi and
on my right is Madan.  Got to enjoy dinner.

There is nothing much to write...

Any way messaged her.. as usual no reply.

All right got to go..

7.12.12

7th December 2012 1035am
Having coffee and a cigarette after my sit up. Need to
tone down my body. Lets see how well I will tone it. Last
night went out to run outside at roadside. It was refreshing
and I slept well... Here I am at the toilet doing my morning
Business... Going work at 12pm for my OT.  Yesterday started
my OT and greasing was done for condenser and centrifugal
pumps.. well it's 1041 and I will stop here for now.

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2307 hrs

Here I am at the staff lounge... tirying day and back is hurting
a bit... Need to practice my posture so as to avoide strain or
hurt.  Time is going soon and like I say if there is work it moves
the time fast. I don't know how I have come this far but it's
Great. Last night was terrible.. smoke too much. THan can't sleep
cause tummy empty.. had to wake up and cook noodle. Which was
Terrible. Today too smoked too much. All my thought of
Quitting is going down the drain. Well got to stop here.
2314 hrs

I am back

2045 hrs...
6th December 2012

Been so long that I have written anything. Now I am
At the smoking room. Just had my dinner with my sis
and here I am. Life is moving and the year is ending
soon. 2013 coming up and the last few days is going to
to be a memorable one. Trying to look back the past of
2012 and cherish it along. Well I just finished one stick
and going for a second.. just lighted it up and all I can say
Is I hope to write more cause in my Plame I have the most
advance phone of my time. Any way.. that's it for now.
Want to enjoy my smoke

0057 hrs...
21st  November 2012

Here I am at my sis place at White villa surfing.
Kali.. asleep and I am just typing away at blog
with my S3. Nothings changed except I have
A advance technology with me. Or maybe I was
outdated. Dont know...

Any way I cant write much as I am having
difficulty typing.. next time I will try..

109am
3rd October 2012

Well here i am and the good news is.....
Ya i got my new mobile and the biggest
surprise is its S3.. At the last minute
decided to get it cause dont wanna
loose back to technology. It cost me
AED2399 and now i am broke...

Well thats it for now..

243am
20th October 2012

Could not sleep and decided to come to staff  lounge to
surf before i go back and try to sleep. Now i am sniffing
cause i am getting better from the flu and fever. Was in
a bad shape the last 2 days and it was here at the staff
lounge where it all started. Can clearly remember when
that day i had parata and chicken curry at one of the
shop. And i had came here to surf. And it was here
where i had my first sneeze and the beginning of my
sickness. Now for sure i am getting better and by
tomorrow i will  be starting doing Gym. Need to be fit
for my body.

24th the 'Dashain' and we will be having a small get
together. As this year my Uncle, my dad elder brother
passed away and as a sign of respect we dont celebrate.
So its going to be gathering with my sis only. Ramila is
coming over as there is 3 days of public holiday cause
of the Muslim festivity.

Listening to 'Binti Cha Hai'... Keeping company while
i am typing away.

Thinking of getting a new phone. 'Samsung' Galaxy S
DOUS. The junior of S3. The right size for my pocket
and the right application. And best of all the right PRICE.
Hopefully its on the market this festive season. Cause
the last time when my sis went to get for me S3 during
the "Ramadan" period, it was unavailable and after that
i concentrated on Bindmaya loan. Any way the price
was not right and to top it up, monthly charges. And
worse of all 4.8 inch screen. Too big for my pocket.
Would have been damaged by now, if i had it. Cause
my work is a bit rough and tough. Would have been
tough protecting it and doing my work. "DOUS"
hopefully you are the one i am yearning for.

Now is 301am and i feel still fresh and have no
intention to go back. Guess i have to stay a bit longer.
Cause i dont want to be in bed tossing and turning
trying to sleep. In between lost in my imaginary world
which i cant control. Just makes me crazy as its out
of control.

Today is Saturday and i am getting lost in words and
i need to be creative and come out with something.
Aah.. This wind breaker that i am wearing was bought
at "Carrefour" Abu Dhabi and it costed AED 20 or so
a year ago or more.It has gone and experience a lot
from my body. I had used it to keep me warm form the
cold and also used it to make me sweat when i went
jogging to keep fit. And there is one particularly event
where at the back side it is torn due to protection from
the barb wire at "Dharan". It was in early July when i
had gone Nepal for my vacation. When it was time to
return back to Kathmandu, i was with my cousin and
soltinee. It was early in the morning like 3am ( I just
went to the toilet and switch on the Air Con) and we
had arrived at Buddha Chowk to catch the bus
heading to KAthmandu. As we had just arrived and
there was a sudden Thunder and after which all the
street lamp was gone and it was totally dark except
the moon. As of the moment i thought to myself, i
should take the time to urinate. Since it was dark,
i made my move without informing  my cousin. I
made 2 step and i looked at the right and felt that i
should turn right as the sight was totally dark and i
thought it will lead me somewhere. But i was wrong,
as my next step did not land at anywhere and i could
feel i was falling and the next was, i had fell hard on the
ground. Lucky as hell, cause i had landed on my right
side of my body cause my left hand was still healing
from the fracture i had while playing football.I
frantically got up realizing i was not hurt due to the
soft ground caused by the rain.It was dark and i could
not see clearly and i was panicked and i used my hand
to see if i could climb back up the place that i had
fallen. Only now that i realized i had fallen almost
1.5meter or more.And there was no way i could climb
back up. My left hand still not fully recovered and my
right was a bit weak from the fall. Fucking dark and my
mind going crazy but i did not scream for Help even
thought my cousin and the rest was just a few meter
away. So i used my both hands sense to feel the wall
and moved forward. I realised that it was a fence and
maybe after 4 or more step i realised that i came to a
gate. Even though it was real dark, my hand was my
eye. It somehow found the handle of the fence door
and unlocked it. At this moment, i was very miserable
and as quick as i can i climbed up the stair. And at this
moment, my wind breaker was caught on the barb wire.
Since i was haistely rushing out, i did not care and i
forced my body out letting my wind breaker to get
stuck and get torn. And this is the story how my Wind
Breaker is torn on the back of it. Once out and some
where near my cousins i realised how fucking lucky i
was cause that place i had fallen was a house and
luckily there was no DOG. Well that night is one night
i will never forget in my life. After that along the
journey, my chicken that my sis-in-law had sent
escaped and luckily someone helped me catch it and
i paid him NR50.
This is about it, i will write next time when i have the
time and mood. Its not so easy to write something, the
timing has to be perfect..347am Good night....

824pm
9th October 2012

Was my off and here i am at the staff lounge.
The day went smoothly as i had actually
wanted to get liquor for today. But something
unexpected happen yesterday and today i had
my day going smoothly. Had been reading
Persimmon Tree novel and it gets even more
better reading it. I have finished almost 3/5 of the
book and i enjoy every bit of it. Now since i
dont know what Persimmon is. i am checking it
at facebook. Now i know its a fruit, i have
eaten it before and the outer skin is a bit tough.
Other than that i am surfing Facebook too.

Well for the day i had cooked myself lunch,
and its meant to be dinner also. I cooked
chicken, daal and rice. As of the chicke, i had
cut it last week when i had 2 days off but not
cooked. On that day i had bought the
chicken and defrosted and went to the city
to get 2 royal stag. As i had boarded the bus,
i met Santosh and we had our simple chat and
he recommended LOCAL Chicken. Told me
he knew the place to get and i had to change
my plan. There i got myself a whole and another
change of plan. Instead i got a different wiskey
which was more better in quality. Cost me
AED69. Thats why i have the chicken chopped
up last week and cooked today. Any way
about the wiskey, it was sure damn good and
it did not affected my head. Not like the
cheap wiskey that gave bad day to start with.
Really enjoyed it, even after 8 hours i was
still high from the drinking and best part of it
no 'HEADACHE'. Going to have the food
later on as i can feel i am almost hungry now.

By the way i also found out the name of the
fruit that i used to pluck and ate it as a kid in
Singapore. The fruit is cherry red when ripe
and hairy like hair sticking out. Its like the
size of an DATES and its name is 'Persian
Mulberry'. I had ate it so many times not
knowing the name, only by appeareance. Its
kind of good to have found its name.

Times 855pm and still surfing....

Well gonna go off.. wanna get cigarette and
watch movei.

142am
8th October 2012

Listening to the song 'Binti cha hai' from youtube.
Got the title while i was checking out blogspot..
It was on the Feb 14th 2011 when i had heard
of it the last time. Enjoying the past what i had
been through. This blog is like a diary and i can
read wherever around the world. I only need is
the address.

Well other than that life is going on nothing
changed and the ups and downs its a whats
comes around goes around.

Prior than that i am reading books and its a
good company for me.

Dont know what else i should put in...
But i guess life goes on...

2nd October 2012,

940pm

At my sis room, surfing the net. Had came from city

around 8pm. Been so long that i have blogged. Cant

believe so much has happened after my vacation. The

first few week i was spending playing Poker in Face

Book and after which i started reading novels. It happen

when i and my sis was in the city checking out at 

Borders book store and all my memory of Malaysia

flashed back and i bought 3 books to start with. By now

i have like read almost 5 books in this span of my time.

Cant believe i could have read. But its the truth, every

night after work at night after my run and gym, i spend 

time reading till it was like 5,6 am. Its gets even more

interesting as i read on.

Well other than that, been working afternoon shift since

i came back. Other than that i am ok with everything.

Thats it for now.

910am
21st August 2012

Ramadan is over and its back to normal shift. I am off
today and will be going to the city to remit. I feel a bit
weak maybe of the 2 stick of cigarette. Have not drank
for the last 13 days. Planning to get myself some drink
for today. Need some of it after such a long time.

Other than that.. what can i say.. think i will look around
for some books to spend the time to read.

well thats it for now.

8th August 2012
1056am

here i am at my sis hostel, playing games in FB.
Well this is occupying my time for the one week
since i came back form my vacation from Nepal.
Work is at 3pm and i have plenty of time to waste
before i head for work. For now i am busy with
games..

Last night i finished the drink which i bought from
the Duty Free shop in the airport on the 31st of
July. The item that i had bought was ABSOLUTE
vodka, red wine and cigarette. Well now its finished
except for the cigarette. I hope to not drink and stop
smoking after some time to recover my body to
healthy state. Cause my vacation was too much of
drinking.. I hope to fully comply what i have written.

Thats all for now..

1240pm
26th July 2012

5 more days and i will be back in UAE. Vacation
almost coming to an end and i am gonna miss the
time in Eastern tour to my relatives places. 8th to
15th July. Its one of my best decision to travel...
I will write about it some other rime.

2008 hrs
26th June 2012

3 more days and i am going to be in Nepal. looking
forward to be there. After 2 years..

Guess nothing much to say

1039pm 2nd June 2012

June and there is like 30 more days before i will be in Nepal..
Feeling exciting as the day comes closer. Have a lot in my mind to do.
Am at work and...

My shoulder is still not recovered but its getting better. Hope it will
be back to normality...

Well thats it for now..

1851 hrs
23rd May 2012

my second day of sick leave.. many things have happened and i just
dont have the time to write due to lack of internet connection.
On 21 i had a heavy crash while playing soccer and i fractured my
left shoulder and because of that i am having sick leave. tomorrow
having an appointment with the doctor and might have sick leave
more cause its a fracture and the healing time takes long.. Cant do
nothing about it but wait for it to heal fully.. Before that been doing
gym and running for like 3 month plus.. now cause of the fracture,
again gaining weight. . All the sweat.. huh such wasted.. Vacation
just round the corner and all my plans seems like just wasting..
but i am hopeful.. hopefully,,

Next time...

0137pm
15th March 2012


there is like 23 minute before i head down to take my bus to work. So for
the mean time might as well write down something before i leave this 
room. Very fresh from the early morning as i had a breakfast of coffee
with milk and bread bun. But i smoked like almost 6 stick from the morning.
Think i have shitted like 3 times this morning.. Dont know if thats good
or bad. I am feeling alright though. 


Any way i have already applied for my vacation from 2nd July till 31 July.
Commencing work on the 1st of August. Lets see how the vacation
goes and lets see how much i can save till my vacation for my expense.


And also i have started gym and i need to be ready for my vacation.
Hope i will put in extra effort to be ready for the vacation. There is a lot
to do this vacation.


Summer is starting as i can feel the oven feeling when i went down just
now. How winter came and went and now the heat of summer going to
take its toll of  our lives. Its good at least there is 2 season if not how
anyone would survive in such heat in one seasons. 


Got to get ready as the time is 0147pm. Need to brush my teeth and
smoke before i head down.......