Am at work.. work is so so..

1330hrs..

Am drunk.. 1 more hours to work.. feeling the highness. . Just loving it..

Last night drink...

245am.. 13th October 2013

I ask whoever read this. . If you have the guts to block one of your ear with a wool or anything that can block your hearing, and go around your daily routine for one day. Feel what's it like to live with only one ear.

Any way what my point is I have lived with only one ear for the past 36 (going to) years and I do feel it's terrible but I am still going on stronger.

247am

I feel so lonely and empty. Hope for a better stronger tomorrow.

135am 12 oct 2013

Maybe the way I presented the present was not good or the way I wrote??? I really want her but maybe cause of the way I presented myself. I dont know but I dont know what I should do... I will wait for sometime or what should I do... For now...

11th October 2014 422am

Every heart beat from my heart keeps me going. Every breath my nose breath keeps me living. Even in times I am at my lowest it just goes on. Not forgetting when I am at my highest. Living is the ultimate solution. Sometimes I wish it stops but it does not. I guess its not the right time yet.

Maybe the reason is I still cant write well. I am confuse and my brain is the biggest sinner. I want to be a saint. But both of them plays my mind and thats what confusing.

If I die now, no body will know me. But if I carry on someone will know me strangly. Am a person with complex personality. I cant control it, it automatically controls me. I cant blame no one but me myself cause I was made this way. So I keep on going... Strangely.

338am.. what why how.. I am fucking confusing my life. I just dont know what to write..

250am.. I am drinking.. when I was syppose to be... any way..

239am.. in my room. I did not win her heart. I failed. I lost. I will change.. for now I will not even think..

9th October 2013

115am.. am outside.. the radio just played.. Right here waiting for you.  And I walked off..

1st October 2013 1631hrs

Am in my room trying to read.. just before that cleaned up my room and had lunch with Tashi and Tshring. Now waiting for 6 plus to go jogging. Today's my off and relaxing the day away. Last night had drink of Vodka. Not a good quality but I got drunk and that's what mattered. Any way gonna ready my book..

25th September 2012

217am.. cant sleep due to day sleeping. Admiring the Moon. How beautiful she looks, bright enough to take away the darkness and keeping me occupied from sleeplessness. Cant imagine how this earth would be without her. Enough of complimenting her.. for now I wanna admire  her from my bed and hopefully I will fall asleep....

24th September 2013

Again after a long time.. 6km.. but slow run like the snail..

+ n - = eternity
+ n - = destruction

20th September 2013

0013hrs.. Ya I approached her.. I was nervous and I said what I had to say. Been blushing all along. Now am too excited to say any thing. Only waiting for her...

6km of jog after a long time absence.

I feel even more terrible.. fb is disabled.. really really feel bad.. nothing more to say..