Dec 26, 2005 5:23 PM
Just writing...


Well I have been feeling a lot better for the summer if the winter had’t came..
It been very chilly for the past few weeks and it looks like it is going to be worse..
I have to prepare for the winter and do a lot of stuff needs to be prepared,,,
I don’t know how long I am going to survive but I have to keep on going as the race goes tougher. I cant just give up yet.. All though I am slacking at the moment.. I will not give up. I have to understand what I am thoroughly capable of.. One thing for sure I am in a race which will never end until my last breath… So I have to keep on going and keep on improving the race, by learning understanding and not to give up where I have achieved so far… Well there are times when obstacles arises and I have to tackle it no matter how difficult the situation will be.. There are sometimes that you have to do any thing to go past that obstacles.. I had been feeling low for the past years of my life, I guess this is the time for me to look ahead and say that there are opportunities for me and I can do something in my life rather than feeling dull and desperate and hoping for a better day, instead I must do whatever I can to make it a better day…Hope to achieve something. Good night

Well lately I have been smoking a lot lately and I think my lungs are as black as charcoal. I just cant quit it, I guess my habit are getting worse as the days goes by.. Like they say once you start, you cant stop it.. But again I believe I will quit one day, Although I don’t know when exactly but I will.. I have the faith

Met Harka and Baburam today at Gurrkha chok… It was a half an hour ride which cost me NSR 8. It was very packed and I had to stand almost through my journey till I got my chance when passenger alighted at Koteshor.. When I reached there non of them was there and I walked down the road to check if any one had arrived and looked for them. As I made back to where I alighted, there he was. Baburam his name had came. We had a brief hand shake and asked him where Harka was and learned that he hadn’t arrived and he was not a punctual person. So we decided to wait for him… finally he came and surprise his wife was with him. We did a brief hand shake and learned that he had came from his wife home and was taking her back to his home.. There again we had to wait for him. So I told Baburam that I wanted to use the internet and went to a near by CyberNet which I had earlier seen. As the place was packed and there was non available to use, we sat on a sofa since we were waiting for Harka and hoping at least one of the net will be available to be used.. We made some conservation and Baburam learned that I couldn’t hear from my right ear and told him I was deft right ear.. Finally one of the Net was available and I took it as Baburam followed me to the empty seat. I pressed on the button and used the Hotmail messenger and typed my user id and password. Once logged in Om was also on line and had a short chat.. As time passed by Baburam told me Harka should be arriving and we left the net and paid the counter NSR for the usage.. Then we went out to check Harka out he was no where to be found and we went in a coffee house and ordered two cup of tea.. In between we had chat… Harka arrived. We had many topics and one of the topics was that they were planning to open a business venture of FISH BALL. We discussed in a wide ranges from the ingredient to marketing to budgets. It is one of their idea to open up a market in Nepal.. In between we had ordered cups of tea and in one point I had ordered a Fanta orange.. Well the conservation lasted from 2pm till 0530pm.,, than finally we headed for home.
It is already morning and I still cant sleep.. did not sleep the whole night. 2 hours ago had followed my sister Kamala to the FM station for her first live show..Which is one of the criteria for her to be selected for a job in radio jockey..Well she did fine even it was her first live show. I think that she will be selected.





It’s almost three month and I am so desperate. I haven’t been doing anything and life seems wasted. I never thought that I will end up in this situation. I had called up Baburam and had asked him for the position for the petrol attendant. Hoping to get that job to start a career into the money business. D