By the time you receive this sms you would be sleeping soundly..
lost in your dream.. Its very true, sometimes when we plan no
matter how much effort it is put into, nothing works out. Thats
why some just go with the flow. And this is what is happening
to me and i am getting lost. Dont know if i would ever be able to
make it out of my lost world. Even if i do will i be able to live a
normal life.. this confuses me..guess i think too much.. may be
this is where my mistake is .. i dont know and i will fight for
my own and try to make it out.. if not i will accept what ever
may come.. cause some people are not ment to lead.. and i
will still accept it..





We are only human being.. we make mistake or are forced to
make mistake. We are vanurable creature but most important
we learn an important lesson in out every day life. We cant
regret but become stronger person day in day out. I have
learned to accept life the way it is and to forget and forgive
the past mistake i have made in my life..





Life is like so funny, sad, unpredictable, strange, mystery, and
so on.. The things we want in life we never get.. Although we
strive we are never happy with the outcome.. we try to content
our heart but always feeling something is lacking.. Some times
confused and lost.. Dont know exactly who we are.. Just follow
what may come by and accepting to be who we are.. Its just
expression that we want to show thats all and lets face this
life that we have to face..





They say that marriage is made in heaven.. But i say no cause it is
between two souls committing in a relationship and finding out that
they are ment to be for each other.. And thats when they take vow
in " I DO'.. With this i would like to say congraluation..





Love is what i felt something magical.. But as i analyze. I think it is
something of a communication, trust, understanding, respect, bonding,
forgiving,,, Cause it is what we call the sharing the life with each other
till the time..





Dont know why my tears drops.. I think it is better to let it..so that all
the sorrow and pain will flow away with it and i will be able to face a
new lease of life.. Its better to release than to carry it around.. at least
it will be a comfort to the heart rather than keep.. At least i am being
honest rather than hide it...





Well i am happy so long as i am living and going forward and nothing
stops my journey as i move on. I dont really care what i do and how
shameful i get myself into as long i dont blame others. But frankly i am
where i am because of others.. Its my right to blame others or their
their right to be blamed..





As i smoke my cigarette.. Inhale and exhale the smoke.. It gives me
the pleasure of releasing my inner doubt and refresh myself.. What is this
drug that i cant live without having a puff or two.. I tried to quit but just
cant and its taking my finance away.. What must i do to eliminate this bad
habit of mine.. Or what measure must i take to quite.. But will i be able to..
I dont know,, but i must try..





Our eyes only wants to see beautiful things.. Our heart only wants to feel
happy.. Our lips only wants to smile.. Our ear only wants to hear good things..
If we want all this than we are perfect human. Which means we are not
human. And i rather not want that..instead i will live my life to experience
that by engaging mysely in everything i do bad or good.. This will give more
meaning to my life and be able to experience all the emotion of human being..





31 years of my life has gone by and what can i say about myself. How
times passes by and how my mind passed by facing each and every obsticle
weather i learned anything or just wondered around. How i see the world
changed and how people cahnged. How i meet a whole lot of people and see
through their life and how they have taught me. How i longed for certain goal.
Some i achieved while most failed. Different mood in different situation
always telling myself it is ment to be this way. The problem created and still
trying to rectify. Some i leave it cause ther is no solution. Some times cherishing
my life and most of the time grumbling how it turned out this way. But as i
look back neither i can regret nor change it but to accept and move along
and bringing changes. Will i make it i dont know but i have to try. I just
cant believe i am 31





As i sit at the shade of a tree to relax my mind of all the problem that i
have.. How beautiful she looks with all the flowers bloomed and the wind
gently blowing giving me a piece of mind.. The very essence to life.. one by
one the flower drops after its lifetime of life.. how gracefully it drops
dancing in the air till it reaches the ground.. The birds in grouy playfully
enjoying the nectar from the flower and dancing with delight cause they will
have to wait for another season to bloom again.. how it gives life to other
creature to survive their daily life.. Without it there wont be anything.. What
better way to describe it than to see it with my own eyes and experience the
very meaning of life.. I feel very proud to be alive and cherish who i am cause
there can only be ME..





Well now i am at the same place where the tree bloomed last week. Even
though the tree has stopped blooming flower, it still give the birds shelter and
foods in other ways. The birds chippering way and enjoying the atmosphere
it gives. How meaningful it has given to the living things and how it stands
proudly day after days. And how beautiful she looks at the place where it
stands alone from cicilised atmosphere.. Without it how dull the place will
be.. Sometimes i think, how will the newer generation be able to experience
this beautiful nature. But as i grow older i realize we are the ones who is the
destiny to the newer generation. It is us that decides their fate. And if we
dont do something about it than the newer generation will not be able to
experience it...







WELL ABOVE WAS TYPED IN MY MOBILE PHONE
WHEN I HAD THE TIME TO TYPE.. SOME OF THEM
ARE ALMOST 3 MONTH OLD.. ITS JUST I COULD NOT
OR HAD THE TIME TO BLOG IT..