Another day and another time of a new dimension to follow the path of
something which we all have in common. How the times of changes
leaves us in a parallel dimension and makes us wonder how it is really
what we are and would it be a matter of our existence? I am longing for
that answer and so do the rest of the species. What are we really
looking for and what are the changes thats keeps our mind distracted
and makes it focused on others? Is it something that what is undeliably
something. Curiocity are the fact that makes me write such stuff and
i dont know if i will find the answer to my question or rather everyone
Question. I have always wondered in my thoughts and its a vast wide
thoughts thats seemingly 90% illusions and thats what keeps me
occupied most of my time life maybe 60% to where i am today.
Its something which we cant get our focus out of and its really
sometimes a piss of the mind. How strange are we and how do we
tackle such things.. There are answers to it but will i be able to make
it. I think do it than again it just drift my concentration and i get
lost in my own world. Well i am confused and maybe i should get
my mind focused on something rather than just get lost in my
thoughts. It would kill the life out of me and maybe i might be
someone one day. How i wish to eloberate more and am thinking
i need to do something to change to be a beer person of who i
am currently. Todays 15 October and the time is 1014am and
i am doing my best to be. 2 more month to 2010 and am getting
older year by year. Seems like only yesterday and now its like
how times goes so fast and i think i am missing so many things
of my talent and i am learning every bit of my inner self and kind
of trying to let go of my past and concentration forward. Ok so
far i am in positive mode and lets see how long thats last..
Ok next time more..

Well another photo from courtesy of Kamal Gurung back in 2007 or 8 cant remember in Johor Bahru near Singapore Border. Well cant believe i am looking too old.. Maybe age is catching up.. Ha ha.. Well this was before Kamal left for Australia.. He is there by now..

Here harka and Kamal at the Starbuck.. Well thanks for the drink Kamal.. I mean of course u have to to cause comparing the dollar and ringget. its sure was vast in difference..

Well i always kind of felt this was very different of me.. well getting too old.. thanks Kamal found it at facebook while just surfing..

Well this was i think in 2004 or 5 or 3 cant really remember but it was at National Stadium.. This was the place where i was almost turned into a Negro..Even my dad called me.. well got it feom Om Prased facebook.. although i am not here.. we had a good coperation working together..

Well so long yet so deprerssing are the words to be written here.
What can be so new is a depriciation of the life of mine.
Dont know what exact words to type.. but to type something.
How time been wasted or what defination words can i write...
Just a waste of some of the days of smeere waste i guess.
Hoping something which is hopeless and not giving up the
thought of loosing everything.. Well its life after all..
I think its makes us stronger or weaker in cetrain phase of
time and doing the most is to.. checking out photos in
facebook and its sure good way of wasting time cause
mind of brain not working and its damned to lazy to other
things except to see the times goes by. Its sure good way to
relax the yime which i will for sure later on think what the
hell did i do with the precious time.. This is what happens when
the brain losses the moment and later on say such stuffs..
Sometimes its just inspires you and sometimes its just makes you
feel different.. You know most of the guys are out and seems
very lonely.. i mean who do they have the same batch of friends and
a few new guys.. its like lost in the desert.. the smiles on their
faces looks very fake this is what i think.. All our life being a
foreigner and now dont know if career can get the foundation
in a new environment.. Trying their best to live a lie., I kind of
feel sad foe them and many things.. Its like when a girls gets married
and have to stay with her husband..I guess this is what most of the
general people are doing to carry on i think.
I felt i wanted to go to but as time passes my mind set keeps
changing too. Still i am confused. Here stuck in my own fucking
mess and no way to look forward and even if i do.. what are the
chances of success?? this is the delimma that i am in and i am
fucking it away and just pass time and see what happens after all
i am living this life and like i say not everyone are supposed to be
BOSS n everyone of us are different generally. So WIth a smile on
my face i am typing this sentance of damned nonsense. But somehow
i feel like i will make it and somehow i feel like will i be able to. Only
time will tell and seems like new friends are not much of a help cause
their aim are not as high as what their limit are and thats what keeps
them satisfied. May b i am asking too much or maybe my mentality
is so wrong. As i think there seems nothing wrong to think too high
but may be the direction i am going wrongly. But i dont know other
ways.. there is but it wrong..ha ha.. lets see.. only tiem will tell
So chow and next time..