24th November 2011
1021am

What can i say.... Listening to Normal Academy
'Ghairo Akha' one of the song composed by
ex GC bhanjas in usa. The kid i used to remember
has good talent. Back than he used to be a
normal kid. And here he is making full use of
his life. Guess the right word would be make
the best use of your life.

I look at myself and i cant change is all thats i
know. Its just waste of my time only thinking
and imaginig. This fucking life is after all my life
which i cant change. One of the biggest reason is
that i got my life answer here, and where i found
my answer is not the place to stay and i decided
to leave.Find a new place and new life. I am just
 waiting  for that. I am hoping DV will work out
and in the mean time i will try to improvise myself.
Or else there are many opportunity out there.
Every thing takes time and being patience and
improving is the key to it. I know i am very
better than before and am striving to be better.
But sometimes it brings me crashing down back
to square one. I know i just cant just give up thats
why i am able to write.

Time only 1038hrs and i will be working in the
afternoon and next month straight afternoon. And
i guess thats back to basic like before when i just
recently moved to HVAC. Dont want the old
habit to repeat. Lets see. Cause the 2 AL that i
took, i planned something but ended up doing
nothing. So fucking wasted and what can the
afternoon shift would be like. Cant imagine.

So fuck it and fucking live. Am listening to
NIrvana 'Come as you are'. I feel like the song is
sickening me. Back i used to go crazy over it.
Maybe its time to change.

I just changed the player. sick of the shit. And...
Nothing much to say. thats it. chow....