Well i tried to upload my voice but i dont really know how to..
Any body out there who knows how to please if you mind helping.
I want to upload audio not video.. Thanks

11:02Am 01 March 2009 Location.. Perpustakaan Negara LIbrary


Well its been so long that i have not written on this blog.. Cause you
can say i was pretty busy or i could not find the resource to..
Any was i think i would be able to write so much from now on..
that i dont know what to write cause too free to surf can also lead to
nothing to write..
Well life is so far so good cause there is nothing in life thats you can say
it was awsome.. Its always the same thing repeating time after time.. But
in different perspective.. Wish i could do something, but you know what
is stopping me,, i mean not only me maybe 99% of the whole world..
But i think i can overcome this cause only some lucky ones can,, and i am
hoping to be that lucky one..Even if i am not than thats ok.. no hard feeling
cause at least i tried rather that i did not.. Ok so much of this..

Well how times flies 2009 and already March exactly 9 more month to
2010.. What can i say this are the most important time in history cause
whats happenning around the world is worse than the last Depression
or maybe it can be over ruled.. Time and progress can only tell.. I dont
know what the outcome will be but as far as i know it is starting to affect
around the world.. I dont want to say anything cause i dont know exactly
what might or what might not happen.. But one thing for sure is it is
better if you are in 3rd world country..for at least 2 to 5 years.. Cause
it is the time it will take to recover or many more.. I like to be part of it
but i am not in this kind of coperate work.. So all i can say is i am not
involved in it but one thing for sure is that i contribute more than the
local in their economy.. So all i can say is you better be thankful to me
cause i am reviving your economy..Although i will suffer later on.. never
mind for now.. i think i am much more better off in knowledge that the
last time round.. I mean to say every day is a learning experience and
becoming wiser. It is never wrong to spend but you need to save some
too for the rainy days..

Ok lets forget about the economy for now.. Well life is going on for now
And to relate the guys who is with me are Dhurba Khadka, Bikash,
Hemantha Thapa, Jimba Lama, Lama(Skinny), Prem Limbu, Subba,
Narayan. Anyway many thing happened but nothing serious happened.


Well Ok for now i need to re check and re name my recorde..Dont worry
from now on there will be many uploading and many writing..

This was taken before the construction begain.. It reminds of the place that was so filthy.. Now its occupied with busy things that goes in and out.. It was one of the time where breaks was passed in this area.. So out of curiosity i just took some snaps and i guess i can call it a masterpiece.. If you look closely you will know what i mean...

One of the things needed for.. anyone who believe they need it.. Without it life wont be complete.. Just like everthing thats in our life.. So believe in yourself and believe in......

Looking at tgis picture reminds me of the days where i ahd clock in at 6 plus and clock out aroud 7 till i dont know when.. How times flies and everything was a memory..

Well below are some of the things that i wrote while i was relaxing my mind to share it with you(5ht to 8th January 2009). Do enjoy and smile..

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UNDERSTANDING

i always thought the world was a funny and complicated place to live in. But as i grew older the time passed along my journey i started to understand. i cant say i understood but i am understanding. The word understood can only be used when i am dead this is what i believe cause life is a journey of understanding it. But you my friend you have your own view and your say about understanding your life. Either way is correct. Its only the thoughts thats matter.

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SINCE THE DAY WE FIRST OPEN OUR EYES AND SEE THE WORLD WE ARE BORN TO FACE A LOT OF OBSTACLES. IT IS A HARSH WORLD AND AS TIME PASSES AND THE DAYS WE JOURNEY OUR LIFE. MANY DIRECTION AND MANY CHOICES WE HAVE TO FACE IN OUR LIFE. WE DONT KNOW WHERE WE ARE GOING BUT WE JUST MOVE FORWARD. MANY GOOD CHOICES, MANY BAD CHOICES WE AMKE OR ARE FORCED TO MAKE. SOME HAPPY SOME UNHAPPY OF OUR OWN CHOICES IN OUR LIFE. MANY OF TIMES WE COMPLAIN OR CHERISH OUR LIFE.. AND TO SUM IT OFF.. NOTHING IS FAIR AND EQUAL IN LIFE AND IT IS BALANCED FOR THE BETTER OF MANKIND. SO LIVE YOUR LIFE WHICH YOU THINK IS THE BEST POSSIBLE WAY FOR YOU.

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FATE

The birds i see in the cage.. How they wish for freedom..But they are captive in their owner hand.. If i can i would release them within my limit cause i dont have rights to everything..

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THE BEST THING FOR ME IS TO LEAVE SOME THINGS TO NATURE CAUSE I REALIZE THAT SOME THING CANT BE THOUGHT OR CHANGE THEM. ITS BEST I MIND MY OWN BUSINESS CAUSE OTHERS WANTS THATS TOO.

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i think i am a devil with a BIG heart. Cause devil has no heart and feelings. But for me the heart makes me unique from the rest. But i do get confused sometimes and because of this heart i am going on..

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NOW I AM AT TIMES SQUARE IN KL. AT 8TH FLOOR. SITTING IN A CORNER AND EATING CUCUMBER. FUNNY KIND OF FEELING. THINKING HOW STRANGE MY LIFE OR OUR LIFE IS LIKE. MILLIONS OF PEOPLE AROUND OR BILLIONS OF PEOPLE ALL DOING THEIR DAILY ACTIVITY. IF I LOOK FROM THE SKY THEY LOOK LIKE ANTS AND VUNARABLE. BUT THEY CARRY ON IN THEIR LIFE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. THERE IS NO STOPPING THEM. HOW STRANGE OF US. OLD DIES NEW ARE BORN. BUT TIME NEVER STOPS SO DOES OUR HEART BEAT. CONTINIOUSLY BEATING TILL THE DAY ONE SELF DIES. BUT WHEN HE/SHE DIES HE/SHE LEAVES/BRINGS THE MEMORY OF HIS/HER TIME LEAVING A LEGACY TO BE REMAMBERED. I GUESS THIS IS CALLED 'PRICELESS LIFE'. MY CUCUMBER WAS LONG FINISHED.. NOW I AM HEADING TOWARDS......

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rumors

it is not always good to hear good things about someone..sometimes it needs to hear bad things too. As long you know the other party is not having problem you just pretend listen. Cause rumors are only rumors and as long as it does not affect the other party you let them talk. Later on they will go back to their normal self and they will accept who i am. This is life and everyone has the rights to everything to say or do.. Just like you and me..So dont worry you have your life and cherish it not worry it for no reason. Cause this is my life and as long i dont go over the limit i can do whatever i want to do.. so do you

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FREEDOM IS WHAT WE WANT IN LIFE. CAUSE IT WONT BE LIFE WITHOUT IT. LIKE A BIRD THATS WONDERS IN THE SKY. IT FREE ITS MIND AND GO TO CERTAIN DESTINATION OF ITS DESIRED THROUGH ITS EYES. THE EYES THATS SEES BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN LIFE AND THE DESIRE TO CONQUER IT. ONLY A BRAVE ONE WILL SUCCEED SO CAN THE REST IF ONLY THEY TRY. CAUSE LIFE IS A NEVER ENDING JOURNEY AND THER IS NO LIMITED KNOWLEDGE WHICH WE CANT LEARN. THE KNOWLEDE WHICH WILL BE PASSED TO THE NEXT GENERATION ONLY DIFFERENCE IN time. ONE IS HAPPY WILL ENJOY IT LIFE EVEN IN THE DARK OR THE LOWEST POINT IN LIFE. IT DOES NOT NEED TO UNDERSTAND LIFE AS LONG ITS SEES LIFE IN A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE. ALL MY LIFE I WAS ONLY SEARCHING FOR ONE THING MONEY AND COULD NOT UNDERSTAND WHY I WAS LIKE THIS BUT AS TIME PASSED AND THE PEOPLE I MET AND ONE THING WHICH IS happiness WITHIN ME MADE ME UNDERSTAND LIFE.

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it is true we only live once. it is olso when we will die. Some early some late. No one is immortal and for me given a choice i would rather be mortal. i realised that to live is to enjoy every day of the daily life and to look forward for the next day. Not every day is a happy day cause how boring it will be if every day was the same things repeating. But before i end my day i will have a smile on my face and say i enjoyed every moment of it no matter what happened that day. Cause it will only make my day a miserable one for that the mentality will start to corrupt. So i wash away my bad thoughts and when the new day comes i will start a new chapter of it. I dont know when i will die dut one thing for sure i will accept it what ever way it comes. i am optimistic i will be able to share it with my love ones and my future love ones.

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SOME THINGS WE CAN AND CANT CHANGE. BUT WE KEEP TRYING EVEN IF WE CANT, THERE WILL BE OTHERS WHO WILL CONTINUE OUR OR YOURS MISSION. THIS IS ONE PROBLEM IN THE HUMAN WHERE THERE IS THE UNEQUALNESS FEELING AMONG THEMSELVES. THE ONE WORD THAT DEFINES IT 'RELIGION'. THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR SO LONG AND IT IS A NEVER ENDING SAGA. IT IS NOT REVENGE BUT BECAUSE OF RELIGION THERE ARE WAR WHICH I CANT ALSO DEFINE IT. WE PASS THE MESSAGE TO THE PEOPLE BUT I REALISED THAT ALL CANT BE TAUGHT. SO THE ONLY WAY IS TO KEEP ON PASSING THE MESSAGE OF UNITY AMONG THE DIFFERENT RELIGION. IF NOT THE WORLD WILL FALL OUT AND CHAOS WILL STRIKE.

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The world can never be a peaceful place to live in as long as we have conflict among ourselves. But the ultimateum we try to compromise. Some will success while others fail. It is only natural as to make the world a bettre place to live in i guess. i can do what i can within my power the rest i leave it to others or its fat. Cause i am only a human and i have my limit to some things and beyond that i cant. But i can only hope for the better thats all....

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LIFE... WHAT CAN I SAY... IT IS BEAUTIFUL.... IT IS UGLY... EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN PERSPECTIVE AND EXPERIENCE OF IT. EVERYONE HAS THE RIGHTS TO AGREE AND NOT TO AGREE OF THEIR LIFE. IT IS THEIR THOUGHTS AND THEY HAVE THE RIGHTS TO SAY THEIR VIEW. NO ONE CAN DENY THEIR VIEW OF IT. IF TAUGHT THE RIGHT WAY HE WILL LEAD BUT IF IT DOES NOT HE STILL LEADS. THE ONLY DIFFERENCE IS HOW HE feels WHEN HE LEAD HIS LIFE. EVEN IF HE IS POOR BUT HE UNDERSTAND LIFE THAN HE IS HAPPY TO BE WHERE HE IS. BUT IF HE DOES NOT THAN HE CANT MOVE FORWARD IN HIS experience. MOST OF THE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD IS EXPERIENCING THIS AND TRYING TO FIND WHAT IS THE MISSION FOR THEM BEING IN THIS WORLD. WELL I AM STILL SEARCHING FOR THAT ANSWER ALTHOUGH I FEEL AS THOUGH I UNDERSTOOD IT, BUT THE REAL ANSWER I BELIEVE IS I WILL GET IT WHEN IT WOULD BE MY LAST BREATH. THIS IS MY PERSPECTIVE OF LIFE.

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I am where i am and never in my dream had i imagined i will be where i am. Sometimes i regret sometimes i enjoy where i am. All too confusing but this is where i have no choive but to accept who i am. And as time pass by i have accepted who and where i am. Cause it will only make my life a miserable one if i dont compromise to who i am. i will accept any kind of punishment of where i am. But i will fight to be who i am. Cause life is like a static bar always up and down. At the end of the day i will be who i really am. This is MY LIFE and i have the right to everything of who i am. This is my chosen path and i will go as long as my heart beat the drum till its stops and my journey stops. As it stops i will have a smile on my face cause this is who i really am.

2009

Finally 2008 was over almost 9 days ago..Could not find the time

to write as i was too busy. Well memory weather bad or good was

a memory and what better way to start of 2009. Any way late than

never to all who are or anyone HAPPY NEW YEAR and i am ready

to face 2009.

MONEY, MONEY, MONEY.LOOKING BACK OR READING AT THE
CURRENT SITUATION (RECESSION, DEPRESSION), IT IS NO
DOUBT THAT MONEY PLAYS A VITAL ROLE IN SHAPING OUR
EVERY DAY LIFE. IT IS NOT A NEED BUT A MUST NEED IN THIS
MODERN TIME OF CIVILASATION. THE THINGS THAT WE DO
EVERYDAY, FROM CONSUMPTION, TRANSPORT, LEASURE,
HEALTH AND WHATEVER I HAVE MISSED OUT ARE ALL
RELATED TO MONEY. I ALWAYS FELT THAT MY LIFE WAS
CAREFRE, BUT AS I GREW OLDER I AM BECOMING WISER.
THIS MONEY THAT I AM REFERING IS NOT EASY TO EARN.
IT CANT BE JUST PRINTED AT THE TREASURY OR THE
FINANCE INSTITUTION OF ANY NATION. TO PRINT THERE HAS
TO BE SOME SORT OF TRADE IN A LEGALLY WAY INTERNALLY
OR EXTERNALLY WITHIN A NATION. IF NOT IT WOULD BE A
CHOATIC IN TH COUNTRY ITSELF AND LIFE WOULD BE
MEANINGLESS TO LIVE. THAT IS WHY THERE IS A BIG
DIFFERENCE BETWEEN RICH NATION AND POOR NATION.
THE ONE OF THE REASONS IS THAT THE RICH LEGALLY
FOLLOWING THE PRINCIPAL OF MODERNISATION OR IN
OTHER WORDS USING THE MONEY CORRECTLY. WHERE AS
THE POOR NATION ARE NOT FOLLOWING THE PRINCIPLE
OR ARE LACK OF RESOURCES, GOOD GOVERNANCE,
GEOGRAPHICAL LOCATION AND LOTS MORE WHICH I
MISSED OUT. ISOLATION GIVEN BY THE RICH NATION
TO THIS POOR NATION. ITS SOUNDS SELFIS, BUT THIS IS
THE PRINCIPLE AND THE RESON I MENTIONED.THE
POOR NATION JUST CANT SUDDENLY START TO LIVE LIKE
THE RICH NATIO. THE RICH HAVE WORKED THEIR LIFE
TO WHERE THEY ARE FROM THER ANCESTORS TO THE
CURRENT TIME. SO WHAT I REALISE IS THAT I CANT BLAME
AMERICA OR ANY OTHER NATION FOR BEING RICH BUT
UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF CHANGES IN MODERNISATION
AND THE PRINCIPAL OF IT AND USE IT TO MY ADVANTAGE. I CAN
MIGRATE EASILY BUT IS IT WHAT I REALLY WANT, I ASK MY
SELY. LETS SEE WHAT HAPPENS CAUSE LIFE IS FULL OF
SUPRISES AND LETS SEE WHAT MY INTEREST AND MY HEART
SAYS....

Well December round the corner and the end of 2008. Well its been a what can i
say, some sort of bad year. But thats life and i am still moving forward and
looking for the brighter side. Any way moving is the only way in life and i hope to
write more next time...

Well december coming and the end of 2008 is nearing.
We all are hoping for a new 2009. As the daily report
says that the world is in bad shape because of the
financial crises in America and slowly affecting the
rest of the world. But this is life after all. Some times
we fall and we have to get up and keep going. Any way
we have to be optimistics and go on.. By the way good luck
and may the new year comes and goes like the past years.

Well days are passing by, not surprisingly. But how to tell if
it is not just days but life's that been rich in information
and knowledge. Frankly i do not know for sure but only time
will tell and coming days. Hope are what we are hoping for
cause some times it is not certainly a day for us and we seek
other alternative solution. So what ever it is life goes on and
so do others. Any way times running out and i cant think of
other words to type so it ends here for today. Till next time.

Old post that was not posted...

Well days are passing by, not suprisingly. But how to tell if

it is not just days but lifes that been rich in information

and knowledge. Frankly i do not know for sure but only time

will tell and coming days. Hope are what we are hoping for

cause some times it is not certainly a day for us and we seek

other alternative solution. So what ever it is life goes on and

so do others. Any way times running out and i cant think of

other words to type so it ends here for today. Till next time.

Well what can i say, i guess this 2 guys are preparing for the fighting competition. Good Luck guys.

This was taken from the top of my house when i was feeling

bored and it tells of the brightness when there is darkness.

So dont give up no matter what, we can do it

This was in 1986 when i was in Pr2. Brings back fresh

memories in Bartley Primary school.

Unforctunate

September 23 and October things got lost and i am pretty
pissed off. Lets see what the outcome will be. Crossing my
finger

ONE OF MY FAVOURITE SHOE..IT IS ALMOST 9 YEARS OLD

OUTCOME

God damn it, why does it always have to happen to me

especially at a time when my moment in time is very

cruical. You must be wondering what i am talking about.

Beats me to, cause sometimes i get lost too snd it is

unavoidable. But the more precise fact is that is that a

month is left which is very cruical in time of my life.

Still dont get it do you. But this is the only thing that is

reveable..Second's which is very important to cause minute

will only come after it and followed by hours. Than days, weeks,

month and year. Oops i dont need the year as i mentioned that

i only need the month. It will be a deciding factor of my life and

i am going to see what i can or cant be done. 30 days left

exactly and the clock it ticking without a pause. Oh my mind is

getting lost as the time goes by. I cant stop the time nether my

road to forward. Too lost in this damn dosage days. I am

wondering how am i going to face the days that are coming and

what can or can't be done to change my destiny. Nither nor i am

going to regret after the time limit is gone, but i want to do what

i have thought i want to do cause that is the right way of passing

through my life. Without further i will pass the seconds, minute

and hours. But i will count the days which will come by and go

through from today till the time limit expires and i will see the

outcome of my journey. But one thing for sure, lifes goes on

even though goals fail. Important is you go forward

12 September 2008

i guess we will miss the one when they are no longer near us.

So much so can be said, eventhough 'that someone was so close

and you arent able to show your emotion towards them. It always

felt as though thar the someone was so close yet far in our mind

and we cant fight it due to massive reasons. Regrat will always be

on our mind but thats the way how life is about living and going

forward undoubtfully. Well by now that someone must be

reaching their destination. destination we all long for. We will

feel bad to leave but home is where our heart belongs and

nothing can change the fact of our existance.. I too long to

return in the quickiest possible way but will i prevail? Only

time and faith will tell us cause this was the chosen path

for us.. We do still miss that someone, that someone whom

gave us memorable memory to cherish all our life or maybe

for that moment cause new chapter might come along and

erase it. So to remember that someone and respecting it,

the only way is to writing it out so as to refer it back when time

passes by and to bring back the moment within....

hएल्लो

Hइ तहर माँ सुमन हो। नेपाली माँ लेखन तरी गारो अणि मेरो यो फैलो चोटी लेखो
को हो। अणि माँ फ्री लेखनों तरी गार्छु। एनी वे टाइम चाइना नेक्स्ट टाइम हओई