Saturday, June 20, 2009

U41

18 June 2009 around 1630hrs plus, as usual i had boarded U41 bus
from Sugnai Long to come to my work. It was almost empty as usual.
I took my seat at the usual spot at the handicap seat. (As for the interior
seat arrangement, from the enterance of the bus to the exit the passanger
seat is facing each other at the side. From the exit to the back end the
seat is faced front.) The one reason why i take this seat is because the
air-con is cooler at this particular spot, i dont really know the reason
but i observed it. And at the back, it gets hotter cause of the engin and
i dont think the bus is serviced on time. By mid way through the journey
the bus at the back will be like SONA room due to the packed passenger
and its in the late afternoon. And the bus will be so packed that movement
is little among the passenger and more will board even if its packed cause
the waiting for the next bus takes almost half hour or one.. never knows.
Some times i wonder what if there was a causalty.. this scares me.. And
from my previous experience, i gave up my seat to an elderly passenger
and instead my wallet was pick-pocketed. 2 weeks later my phone
followed as well. I never thought i would face such situation. But it was
very frustration.
Well back to my story, as i sat down i cooled myself using my t-shirt
which i was wearing. By doing so i scanned the bus and there was like
less than 10 passenger. I noticed one particular passenger who was seating
at the front seat after the exit door and i was seated at the last from the
entrance. To look at her i had to slightly turn my head and for her she just
need to turn her eye ball.. Actually from her position and mine it was in a
45* angle. She was eating some fried kuay and i observed her. She had a
sweet face, not so pretty and pretty as well.(i mean everyone of us has a
defination of beauty.. thats why they say beauty lies in the eye of the
beholder.) I maen she looked nice. She was wearing a pink t-shirt ithink..
jeans and pink shoe.. nice combination..Hair was shoulder length and neat.
Her eyes not to big not to small, just perfect. I guess her eyes was the
sweetest of all. Pinkish lips, i could tell she was not wearing
makeup like some other girls.. I mean i have no offence but i prefer natural.
From my observation she might be below 25 and above 16years. Normal
figure and fair skin. She had a bag on her lap and some plastic bags of goods
on the floor. As she ate i stole a glimpse of her. Later on she must have
realised and she looked back. I mean not really turn and directly look but
instead she just turned her eye ball. And every now and than i glimpsed
her and she did it back.. Think it was pure innocence.. I kept wanting
to look at her so i stole glimpse after glimpse and so did she. Finally the
bus moved and i tried to take my concentration away from her by looking
in the front or watching the mobile T.V. But i could not and kept stealing.
After some time as i was almost forgetting her, when the bus was filled with
fresh smell of burger. I mean the mayonese aroma was so strong that i turn
back to see who was having the burger. I can say i got hungry too. There
was this 2 girls who were sitting just behind her. I took this opportunity
and looked at them unrap the burger and they ate. In between i stole her
glimpse. It felt wonderful, but she did turn her eye ball for sure. As the
bus was moving i had lots of thoughts going on in my mind like i am a
foreigner and i dont even have one'C' not mentioning 5'C'. With this thought
i thought of my problems and tried to concentrate in other things. But i could
not and i kept stealing glimpse and so did she. At one point, think a Bangla
boarded the bus and he sat directly opposite me. He was neatly dressed
except that one of the button of his shirt was missing and his belly could
be seen as it was a tight fitting. This caused me to laugh, i mean it was a
funny incident. I tried to hide my emotion from him and the back. By now
the bus was getting packed as new passenger boarded from new spots. Her
view was disappearing and i had to look down the passenger legs apart to
see if she was still there. Sometimes when the passenger jerked i got to see
her for a short while. I waited for this and saw her. The train station was
approaching, i was thinking she might alight. I was thinking i might as well
alight and start a conversation. I will pretend to be a HIP and get her
information. But she did not alight. And so begain, i waited for the bus to
jerk and this caused the passenger to jerk and i got to see her view for a while.
This went on and on until i gave up my seat before my destination. I wanted
to look at her. My destination arrived and i half-heartedly moved to the exit.
I looked at her and she was looking at me too.. Those eyes, as i alighted kept
me thinking. I tried to walk a bit fast so as to overpass the bus to get to see
her. But the bus surplus me. I ran across the road desperately but the bus
was gone. And she was gone too. As i walked, i knew i would never see her
again. When i close my eyes, her image appears and especially her eyes. And
i for sure as time passes by her image will disappear from my mind and life
will be normal again. I wish i had done something about it, but i was just too
scared of the outcome and i did not have the confidence. Than again i wish
her the best of life thats comes along her. I also hope i could see her again
but what are the chances. Any way it made my stay here a special one to
remember although the rest was not a good one. This experience just took
my breath away and i just dont know when and how it comes by. It was so
suddenly. Describing it is so difficult thats why i am writing this in the
memory of you..SPECIAL ONE

Well i just took 2 cigreat and my credit is rm4.5 and am puffing and walking
towards my.......
OUR DREAM
I HAD A DREAM. EVERYONE HAS A DREAM. BUT MY
DREAM DASHED. SOME WILL ONLY GET THEIR DREAM.
SO DONT WORRY EVEN IF YOUR DREAM DOES NOT
COME TRUE. INSTEAD YOU ARE ALSO INVOLVED
IN MAKING OTHER PEOPLE DREAM COME TRUE.
MEANING YOUR DREA CAME TRUE IF ONLY YOU
UNDERSTAND LIFE. SO YOU MY FRIEND WE HAVE
TO THINK DIFFERENTLY TO UNDERSTAND
OURSELVES BETTER INSTEAD OF DROWNING IN
SORROW.
To a special friend of mine.. Life is something that we cant just
decide ourselves cause there are others who are more precious to
us. Some times we have to think for others to carry on the
journey of within. Happiness can be compromised, but some
choose their destiny. This are the strong ones who needs our
affection. I wish i was one of them but i have to think for others
too. This is what lack me. I cant blame nor complain but to
accept it with embrace like an adult. Not every ones life a fairy
tale and we have to accept it like whats been happenning from
the past till the present. All we have to do is to accept our fate
and create a new generation to carry on. Love is something we
experience in our lifetime.. maybe once or multiple.. But love
alone cant move us forward. But living each and every day that
makes us better than the great Romeo & Juliet or other iconic
figure. They are just a lesson for us. But those who live till their
times are the ones that gives a good example of mankind. What i
can say is that we human are strange that evolves in this world
and always trying to find new meaning in our life. With this i
would like to say 'live your life and cherish it in whatever
possible way weather you are up or down and never feel you
are alone. This same experience is faced by everyone in their life
With this let live... 2015hrs March 15 2009..

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Well the time 11:27am and i am surfing.. i was surfing and had chat
with Keshav in Australia.. Its kind of cool chatting with him..
Well after that i am thinking of reading the paper.. cause thats my
favourite pass time.. Any way i think i need to rest as well
kind of sleepy and my back hurts cause it was strained 2 days
ago.. dont know how long more to recovery till than i have
endure the pain..

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Hello there.. well i am trying to update every now and than..
Its kind of no time and no money thats causing this lacking..
But i am still taking the effort to update.. More than if i had
the finance,, may be i would not have even created this site..
May be sometimes its good that we dont get.. i mean only
sometimes.. many times we neeed it.. So we have too
much complain.. may be its meant to be this way.. and
lets not forget certain things.. ok thats it for now..
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Geography of Nepal

Geography of Nepal is uncommonly diverse. Nepal is of roughly trapezoidal shape, 800 kilometres (500 mi) long and 200 kilometres (125 mi) wide, with an area of 147,181 square kilometres (56,827 sq mi). See List of territories by size for the comparative size of Nepal.
Nepal is commonly divided into three physiographic areas: the Mountain, Hill, Siwalik region and Terai Regions. These ecological belts run east-west and are vertically intersected by Nepal's major, north to south flowing river systems.
The southern lowland Plains bordering India are part of the northern rim of the Indo-Gangetic plains. They were formed and are fed by three major rivers: the Kosi, the Narayani, and the Karnali. This region has a hot, humid climate.
The Hill Region (Pahad) abuts the mountains and varies from 1,000 to 4,000 metres (3,300–13,125 ft) in altitude. Two low mountain ranges, the Mahabharat Lekh and Shiwalik Range (also called the Churia Range) dominate the region. The hilly belt includes the Kathmandu Valley, the country's most fertile and urbanised area. Unlike the valleys called Inner Tarai (Bhitri Tarai Uptyaka), elevations above 2,500 metres (8,200 ft) are sparsely populated.

Mount Everest
The Mountain Region, situated in the Great Himalayan Range, makes up the northern part of Nepal. It contains the regions of highest altitude in the world; the world's highest mountain, 8,850 metres (29,035 ft) height Mount Everest (Sagarmatha in Nepali) is located here on the border with Tibet. Seven other of the world's ten highest mountains are located in Nepal: Lhotse, Makalu, Cho Oyu, Kanchenjunga, Dhaulagiri, Annapurna and Manaslu.

The arid and barren Himalayan landscape.
Nepal has five climatic zones, broadly corresponding to the altitudes. The tropical and subtropical zones lie below 1,200 metres (3,940 ft), the temperate zone 1,200 to 2,400 metres (3,900–7,875 ft), the cold zone 2,400 to 3,600 metres (7,875–11,800 ft), the subarctic zone 3,600 to 4,400 metres (11,800–14,400 ft), and the Arctic zone above 4,400 metres (14,400 ft).
Nepal experiences five seasons: summer, monsoon, autumn, winter and spring. The Himalaya blocks cold winds from Central Asia in the winter and forms the northern limit of the monsoon wind patterns. In a land once thickly forested, deforestation is a major problem in all regions, with resulting erosion and degradation of ecosystems.
Nepal is popular for mountaineering, containing some of the highest and most challenging mountains in the world, including Mount Everest. Technically, the south-east ridge on the Nepali side of the mountain is easier to climb; so, most climbers prefer to trek to Everest through Nepal.
Until the Sugauli Sandhi (treaty) was signed, the territory of Nepal also included Darjeeling, and Tista to the east, Nainital to the south-west and Kumaun, Garwal and Bashahar to the west. However, today these areas are a part of India. As a result, Nepal shares no boundary with Bangladesh now and the two countries are separated by a narrow strip of land about 21 kilometres (13 mi) wide, called the Siliguri Corridor‎ or Chicken's Neck. A huge majority of Nepalese still live there (almost 2 million). Efforts are underway to make this area a free-trade zone.[28] The border dispute between India and Nepal has often been a cause of tension between the two countries.
Prehistory

Kathmandu Valley
Neolithic tools found in the Kathmandu Valley indicate that people have been living in the Himalayan region for at least 9,000 years. It appears that Kirant ethnicity people were the first people to settle in
How we came about and History of our ancestors..




Kirat-or Kirati- means people with lion nature. It is derived from two words Kira= Lion and Ti- people. It refers to the Kirati group or a Kirata confederation that includes the Limbu, Rai, Yakkha and Sunuwar ethnic groups of Nepal. They were the earliest inhabitants of Nepal. Dhimal, Hayu, Koch, Thami, Tharu, Chepang, and Surel ethnic groups also consider themselves to be of Kirati descent.[1]



Religion

The Kirant follow Kirant Mundhum. Their holy book is the Mundhum also known as the Kirant Veda.[6] Kirant Rai people worship Nature and ancestors, Animism and Shamanism, believing in a their primeval ancestors, SumnimaParuhang. Some names for festivals they celebrate include Sakela, Sakle, Toshi, Sakewa, Saleladi Bhunmidev, Chyabrung, Yokwa and Folsyandar. They have two main festivals: Sakela/Sakewa Uvauli, during plantation season; and Sakela/Sakewa Udhauli, in the time of the harvest.
Kirant Limbu people believe in Supreme God Tagera Ningwaphuma, who is also known as the supreme knowledge .[7] Ancestor Yuma Sammang and God of War Theba Sammang are second most important deities.
Many of the Kirant that were outside of Hinduism did convert by the ruling elites of later days Nepal[8]
There is a giant Linga of the Kirant at Kirantaeshvara. It possibly had a Kirant name but all such evidence was destroyed by the next rulers of Nepal[9]
There is a tradition amongst the Kirant Limbus there the reclining Vishnu found at Budhanilakantha is the ancestor of the Limbus. Many of them don't know because Brahmin or Chetri people who live in Kathmandu won't let them to pray budhanilkantha. There are mainly three Budhanilkantha and no one knows which one is original. [10]





















History


[edit] Mentioned as Kiratas in Mahabharat epic
Main article: Kirata Kingdom
The Kiratas (Sanskrit: किरात) mentioned in early Hindu texts are the tribals of the forest and mountains. They are mentioned along with Cinas (Chinese). Kirati languages belong to Tibeto-Burman family of Languages . Kiratas have been identified as the present day Rai, Limbu and Sunuwar of Nepal.

King Yalamba Haang- First Kirata King
In Yoga Vasistha 1.15.5 Rama speaks of "kirAteneva vAgurA", "a trap [laid] by Kiratas", so about BCE Xth Century, they were thought of as jungle trappers, the ones who dug pits to capture roving deer. The same text also speaks of King Suraghu, the head of the Kiratas who is a friend of the Persian King, Parigha.
Hindu myth has many incidents where their God Shiva has imitated a Kirat person. [11]
History of Kirats describes some of the achievements of Kirata people in eastern Nepal


Background

Historians today are convinced that a widespread cultural conflict took place in the eastern Himalayan region between the indigenous inhabitants – called the Kirat – and the Tibetan migrant population, reaching a climax during the 18th and 19th centuries. Another wave of political and cultural conflict, between Gorkhali and Kirat ideals, surfaced in the Kirat region of present-day Nepal during the last quarter of the 18th century. A collection of manuscripts from the 18th and 19th centuries, till now unpublished and unstudied by historians, have made possible a new understanding of this conflict. These historical sources are among those collected by Brian Houghton Hodgson – a British diplomat and self-trained Orientalist appointed to the Kathmandu court during the second quarter of the 19th century – and his principal research aide, the Newar scholar Khardar Jitmohan.

The Map of Limbuwan.
For over two millennia, a large portion of the eastern Himalaya has been identified as the home of the Kirat people, of which the majority are known today as Rai, Limbu, Yakha and Lepcha. In ancient times, the entire Himalayan region was known as the kimpurusha desha, a phrase derived from a Sanskrit term used to identify people of Kirat origin. These people were also known as nep, to which the name nepala is believed to have an etymological link. The earliest references to the Kirat as principal inhabitants of the Himalayan region are found in the texts of Atharvashirsha and Mahabharata, believed to date to before the 9th century BC. For over a millennium, the Kirat had also inhabited the Kathmandu Valley, where they installed their own ruling dynasty. This Kirat population in the valley, along with original Australoids and Austro-Asiatic speakers form the base for later Newar population. As time passed, however, those Kirat, now known as the Limbu settled mostly in the Koshi region of present-day eastern Nepal and Sikkim.
From around the 8th century, areas on the northern frontier of the Kirat region began to fall under the domination of migrant people of Tibetan origin. This flux of migration brought about the domination by Tibetan religious and cultural practices over ancient Kirat traditions. This influence first imposed shamanistic Bön practices, which in turn were later replaced by the oldest form of Tibetan Buddhism. The early influx of Bön culture to the peripheral Himalayan regions occurred only after the advent of the Nyingma, the oldest Buddhist order in Lhasa and Central Tibet, which led followers of the older religion to flee to the Kirat areas for survival. The Tibetan cultural influx ultimately laid the foundation for a Tibetan politico-religious order in the Kirat regions, and this led to the emergence of two major Tibetan Buddhist dynasties: in Sikkim and Bhutan. The early political order of the Kingdom of Bhutan had been established under the political and spiritual leadership of the lama Zhabs-drung Ngawang Namgyal. Consequently, Bhutan used to be known in the Himalayan region as the ‘kingdom of [Buddhist] spiritual rule’ (in old Nepali, dharmaako desh). The Tibetan rulers of Sikkim were also known as Chögyal, or spiritual rulers.
Both of these kingdoms adopted policies of suppression of indigenous practices, replacing them with those of Tibetan Buddhism. Bhutan's religious rulers established a tradition of appointing religious missions to other Himalayan kingdoms and areas, through which they were able to establish extensive influence in the region. Bhutan's ambitious missions were sent as far west as Ladakh. Even before the founding of modern Nepal by Prithvi Narayan Shah of Gorkha in 1769, Bhutan's rulers were able to establish spiritual centres in several parts of what was to become the former's territories, including Kathmandu, Bhaktapur, Gorkha and Vijayapur in the midhills, and Mustang, north of the central Himalayan range.
Sikkim had long been home to Lepcha Kirat people and culture. Under the guidance of Tibetan Buddhist lamas, however, their self-rule and cultural independence was suddenly taken away. Sikkim kings were even able to subdue the entire far-eastern part of the Kirat region – historically known as Limbuwan – for at least a short period of time. Here, the new rulers adopted policies of religious and cultural subjugation, encouraging Sikkim lamas to travel to places of strategic importance in order to establish monastic centres. But the indigenous population did not easily surrender themselves to this cultural invasion. Limbu and Lepcha manuscripts collected by Brian Houghton Hodgson in Darjeeling indicate significant resistance by the Kirat against Tibetan Buddhist rule and cultural domination. While much of this struggle consisted of attempts to strengthen cultural awareness, there were also violent engagements between Kirat communities and their new rulers.

RAI

The Rai, also known as the Khambu(people of Khumbu region). They are one of Nepal's most ancient indigenous ethnolinguistic groups. The Rai(Khambu) belong to the Kirati group or the Kirat confederation that includes the Limbu, the Sunuwar, Yakkha Dhimal, Koche, Meche,Hayu ethnic groups.
According to Professor Dor Bahadur Bista(anthropologist,Tribhuvan University) and late Professor Suniti Kumar Chatterji(linguist and Kiratologist,Calcutta university)Kirats migrated from east via north Burma and Assam along the mid-hills(lower mountains) along with their pigs in ancient times.(ref.30,31).
According to Prof. Suniti Kumar Chatterji(linguist and kiratologist) and other prominent linguists,Rai,Limbu,and Dhimal languages are Pronominalised(Austric/Kol influence)strongly indicating earliest migratory wave of these peoples compared to other Tibeto-Burmans whose languages are non-pronominalised.(ref.31)
The traditional homeland of the Rai(Khambu) extends across Solukhumbu,Okhaldhunga (Wallo Kirat or Near Kirat), home of the Bahing,Wambule subgroups), Khotang, Bhojpur and the Udayapur districts (Majh Kirat or Central Kirat),home of Bantawa,Chamling etc. in the northeastern hilly/mountainous region of Nepal, west of the Arun River in the Sun Koshi River watershed. Rais are also found in significant numbers in the Indian state of Sikkim and in the northern West Bengal towns of Kalimpong and Darjeeling.





According to Nepal's 2001 census, there are 635,751 Rai(Khambu) in Nepal which represents 2.79% of the total population. Of this number, 70.89% declared themseleves as practising the traditional (Kiranti/Kirant) religion and 25.00% declared themselves as Hindu. Yakkha were measured as a separate ethnic group of which 81.43% were Kirant and 14.17% were Hindu. The Rai are divided into many different sub-groups - Bantawa, Chamling, Sampang, Dumi, Jerung, Kulung, Khaling, Lohorung, Mewahang, Rakhali, Thulung,Tamla, Tilung, Wambule, Yakkha, Yamphu, Sunuwar, Jero (Jerung) , etc. Some groups number only a few hundred members. The languages together with the traditional religion of the Rai is known as Kirant.
More than 32 different Kiranti languages and dialects are recognized within the Tibeto-Burman languages family.Their languages are Pronominalised Tibeto-Burman languages,indicating their antiquity. The oral language is rich and ancient, as is Kiranti history, but the written script remains yet to be properly organised as nearly all traces of it was destroyed by the next rulers of Nepal, The Lichhavis and almost eradicated by the Shah dynasty.
The traditional Kiranti religion, predating Hinduism and Buddhism, is based on ancestor-worship and the placation of ancestor spirits through elaborate rituals governed by rules called Mundhum. Sumnima-Paruhang are worshipped as primordial parents. A major Rai holiday is the harvest festival, Nwogi, when fresh harvested foods are shared by all. The Bijuwa and Nakchhung (Dhami) or Priest plays an important role in Rai communities.
They do not truly belong to the Caste system or Varna system although few have accepted the kshatriya status.Majority of Rai have never accepted Casteism and never adopeted a Caste(Nepal Federation of Indigenous Nationalities and Nepal government have recognised this fact)(29)
Because of the fiercely independent nature of the Rai community and its location at the eastern end of the consolidated Nepalese nation-state, the Rai were given exceptional rights of Kipat autonomy and land ownership in their homeland of Majh (middle) Kirant.
Subsistence agriculture of rice, millet, wheat, corn and even cotton is the main occupation of the Rai although many Rai have been recruited into military service with the Nepali army and police, and the Indian and British Gurkha regiments and Singapore Police Force.
Rai women decorate themselves lavishly with silver and gold coin jewellery. Marriage unions are usually monogamous and arranged by parents, although "love marriage",bride capture(in the past) and elopement are alternative methods. Music (traditional drums and string instruments: yele, binayo, murchunga, dhol and jhyamta), dance (Sakela or Sakewa dance) and distilled spirits (alcohol) called aaraakha, ngashi, or waasim are central to Rai culture.
Sakela or Sakewa dance is the greatest religious festival of Kirant Rai.
Well the times 1151am and the dates 13th May 2009.. And i am here..
Well many things happened and on 8th May 2009 Dhurba left with
Hemantha Dai, Chabi Dai and Narayan. Well it was a suprising they
left. I dont know but maybe its for their best. Ones need to decide
whats best for themselves... I dont know but well its kind of lonely
now days.. And other than that finance not so good and spending
times in library.. to kill the time and the... Well nothing special except
day in day out.. but its better than nothing.. Any way later going down
for a Dunhill cigarette.. And
By the time you receive this sms you would be sleeping soundly..
lost in your dream.. Its very true, sometimes when we plan no
matter how much effort it is put into, nothing works out. Thats
why some just go with the flow. And this is what is happening
to me and i am getting lost. Dont know if i would ever be able to
make it out of my lost world. Even if i do will i be able to live a
normal life.. this confuses me..guess i think too much.. may be
this is where my mistake is .. i dont know and i will fight for
my own and try to make it out.. if not i will accept what ever
may come.. cause some people are not ment to lead.. and i
will still accept it..





We are only human being.. we make mistake or are forced to
make mistake. We are vanurable creature but most important
we learn an important lesson in out every day life. We cant
regret but become stronger person day in day out. I have
learned to accept life the way it is and to forget and forgive
the past mistake i have made in my life..





Life is like so funny, sad, unpredictable, strange, mystery, and
so on.. The things we want in life we never get.. Although we
strive we are never happy with the outcome.. we try to content
our heart but always feeling something is lacking.. Some times
confused and lost.. Dont know exactly who we are.. Just follow
what may come by and accepting to be who we are.. Its just
expression that we want to show thats all and lets face this
life that we have to face..





They say that marriage is made in heaven.. But i say no cause it is
between two souls committing in a relationship and finding out that
they are ment to be for each other.. And thats when they take vow
in " I DO'.. With this i would like to say congraluation..





Love is what i felt something magical.. But as i analyze. I think it is
something of a communication, trust, understanding, respect, bonding,
forgiving,,, Cause it is what we call the sharing the life with each other
till the time..





Dont know why my tears drops.. I think it is better to let it..so that all
the sorrow and pain will flow away with it and i will be able to face a
new lease of life.. Its better to release than to carry it around.. at least
it will be a comfort to the heart rather than keep.. At least i am being
honest rather than hide it...





Well i am happy so long as i am living and going forward and nothing
stops my journey as i move on. I dont really care what i do and how
shameful i get myself into as long i dont blame others. But frankly i am
where i am because of others.. Its my right to blame others or their
their right to be blamed..





As i smoke my cigarette.. Inhale and exhale the smoke.. It gives me
the pleasure of releasing my inner doubt and refresh myself.. What is this
drug that i cant live without having a puff or two.. I tried to quit but just
cant and its taking my finance away.. What must i do to eliminate this bad
habit of mine.. Or what measure must i take to quite.. But will i be able to..
I dont know,, but i must try..





Our eyes only wants to see beautiful things.. Our heart only wants to feel
happy.. Our lips only wants to smile.. Our ear only wants to hear good things..
If we want all this than we are perfect human. Which means we are not
human. And i rather not want that..instead i will live my life to experience
that by engaging mysely in everything i do bad or good.. This will give more
meaning to my life and be able to experience all the emotion of human being..





31 years of my life has gone by and what can i say about myself. How
times passes by and how my mind passed by facing each and every obsticle
weather i learned anything or just wondered around. How i see the world
changed and how people cahnged. How i meet a whole lot of people and see
through their life and how they have taught me. How i longed for certain goal.
Some i achieved while most failed. Different mood in different situation
always telling myself it is ment to be this way. The problem created and still
trying to rectify. Some i leave it cause ther is no solution. Some times cherishing
my life and most of the time grumbling how it turned out this way. But as i
look back neither i can regret nor change it but to accept and move along
and bringing changes. Will i make it i dont know but i have to try. I just
cant believe i am 31





As i sit at the shade of a tree to relax my mind of all the problem that i
have.. How beautiful she looks with all the flowers bloomed and the wind
gently blowing giving me a piece of mind.. The very essence to life.. one by
one the flower drops after its lifetime of life.. how gracefully it drops
dancing in the air till it reaches the ground.. The birds in grouy playfully
enjoying the nectar from the flower and dancing with delight cause they will
have to wait for another season to bloom again.. how it gives life to other
creature to survive their daily life.. Without it there wont be anything.. What
better way to describe it than to see it with my own eyes and experience the
very meaning of life.. I feel very proud to be alive and cherish who i am cause
there can only be ME..





Well now i am at the same place where the tree bloomed last week. Even
though the tree has stopped blooming flower, it still give the birds shelter and
foods in other ways. The birds chippering way and enjoying the atmosphere
it gives. How meaningful it has given to the living things and how it stands
proudly day after days. And how beautiful she looks at the place where it
stands alone from cicilised atmosphere.. Without it how dull the place will
be.. Sometimes i think, how will the newer generation be able to experience
this beautiful nature. But as i grow older i realize we are the ones who is the
destiny to the newer generation. It is us that decides their fate. And if we
dont do something about it than the newer generation will not be able to
experience it...







WELL ABOVE WAS TYPED IN MY MOBILE PHONE
WHEN I HAD THE TIME TO TYPE.. SOME OF THEM
ARE ALMOST 3 MONTH OLD.. ITS JUST I COULD NOT
OR HAD THE TIME TO BLOG IT..

Monday, May 11, 2009

12th May 2009 1115hrs
Well its been almost 2 month since i have not written on this blog.. Call it busy or
just did not have the mood or could not... Ya there are many reasons.. But thats
not the point.. At least i am writing now.. Well the 2 month just passed like any
ordinary days and wish i could have done something but what could i have
done. Any way i will be attending to this blog for some time till i will get lost
again for some time.. Well the world is getting all sort of problems from the
Swine flu H1N1 to unrest in Sri Lanka to my mother land Nepal.. Well the
Moaist PM wants to fire the army general but is supported by the President
and the opposition.. So in this drama, PM resigns to play psychology.. This
is what the opposition are thinking.. And there are many reasons for the
opposition not to support the PM.. Well politics is a very dirty game and it
will only become worse if it is in 3rd world country that has no means and
ways to be devoloped n especially when the world are getting develop..
Well while the world prospers Nepal will be the same and i hope that we
can accept who we are and live on in Nepal or else its habitants will perish.
As i believe even if the world developes and becomes rich there is certainly
something will bring them down like they say what goes must come down.
Any way i hope i will be writing more for this few couple of days..

Monday, March 16, 2009

17 March 2009 0840am and i have like exactly 10 minute
to write something cause i dont have enough cash to pay
the counter. Well i have wrote something in the past few
days except i cant remember it as it is somewhere..So i
would we writing it sometimes soon.. And i know i dont
really have much time but beside me is small Lama
playing the new National Anthom of Nepal. Its the first
time i have heard of it and its sounds more of folk song
and its more of communist type or maybe i dont really
understand. Any way now is a new Nepal and hope
everything works out for the people of the nation and
i hope i can do something for the country..Like create
jobs or some kind of charity or more of a helping hand
to the unforctunate.. Caues if i have opened my eyes
and can teach or show the way to the underpreviledge
it will give me strength..Ok times up.. Bye..

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Well the time 11:36am and the date 15 March 2009..
Today i am at cyber at Sugnei Long and kind of
with Bikash and Dhurba..We just came to surf the
net..Well i got nothing much to say except
maybe i will work for part time with the lighting
company..I mean my former work.. Well i have just
requested some condition to edger who will be doing a
show in Malacca..If all the condition works out i will be
taking a 2 days leave to work..Well other than that todays
Sunday and i am kind of OK in mood and i dont know
what to write..So i will maybe stop here..Cause there is
nothing much to say..Ok let me just write some bullshit..
Just to lengethen my article..
Its been a long time since the days of our life has passed the
outmost of ourself..and what can be said or cant be all depands
on the outcome of the days that finishes the time..Well i also
dont know what i am writing..maybe i will stop here ok
next time..

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

"Best I Ever Had"
So you sailed away into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay, love can be so boring
And nothing's quite the same nowI just say your name now.
But it's not so badYou're only the best I ever had

You don't want me backYou're just the best I ever had.
So you stole my world, now I'm just a phony

Remembering the girl leaves me down and lonely
Well send it in a letterMake yourself feel better.
But it's not so badYou're only the best I ever had

You dont want me backYou're just the best I ever had.
And it might take some time to patch me up inside

but I cant take it so I, I run away and hide
And I might find in time that you were always right
You're always right.
So you sailed away into a grey sky morning

Now, I'm here to stay, love can be so boring
Was it what you wanted?Could it be I'm haunted?
But it's not so bad

You're only the best I ever had
You dont want me back
You're just the best I ever had.
You're just the best I ever had
Well todays a new day to start with.. Many things to say..
But some are personal and its not very convenience to say..
And the rest are too problematic to say and i wont say either..
Any way todays Thursday 5th 2009 time 10:31AM and 2 more
days to go before something big might happen or not,, i dont
really care cause its part of life and how times flies and how lost
i feel sometimes..And how happy i feel suddenly..I just cant
define whats this life about..Problem after problem and once
its settlled lifes resumes normal and out of the blue another
problem arises. I just dont know what to say but just follow
it and try my best to settle it..Some i cant and i just leave it
and after some times its keep bugging my mind.. like i could
have hepled it..And this keeps me low..Guess the drinks are
calling me cause its been so fucking long that i have not drank
till i droped dead..The last was almost 7 or 8 month ago.. I was
so fucking pissed that i drank the 2 or 4 bottle of quarter
without any thing..When i was at hostel..i was like a nuscience
luckily friends put me to bed,,But i kept falling,,You know no
matter how fucking drunk i am i still have conscounce,,Any
way if this Sunday plan fails,, i am planning to drink with
Dhurba one of my good freinds..Its been almost 2 years since
we had a good driink together..
Ok lets forget about drinking now..Well reading from the paper
i really dont know how bad the economy is going to fall or not..
But the other thing is that too nuch news around the world other
than economy crises..Just few days Mutinity in Bangladesh..Well
i have bangladesh freinds who are quite helpful but are shocked
at what had happened since the mitilitary rule was over ruled by
Democracy..I fear that the old rule might come back and take away
Democracy..I personally believe that it might be unstable cause of the
population and the things happenning within not forgetting
economy crises..Other than that whats happenning around the
world is making me sick too..Or is it because something really
bad is going to happen..
Like when there was a depression in the 1920s..War arose..
Luckily at that time 70% of the nation didnt suffer cause they were
either not developed or were totally not in the region yet..But nows
different if it really happens i can feel that its going to be very nasty
.. i mean especially the developing nations.. Like what had happened
in Indonesia around 1998..Or worse.. I dont know but just prepare
to go back cause it will only be stupidity to stay along..
And the other thing is the research that happenning in..i cant remember
the one thing that the universe was created by the "THE BIG BANG'
Scientist are experimenting it.. Its sounds scary.. Dont know what will
happen if the experiment goes wrong..I mean total destruction is ok..
But what if it paralyse the world..I dont know also.. i just forcasting..
Just like the weather forcaster or the economist..
Ok forget all those..Now i am more free compared to last time and
i have the time to write as much as i can (nonsense) cause sometimes
soon i dont think i will have as much freedom as this few days..It is
only when i am broke my mind works perfectly..But whan i am loaded
i do so much stupidity that i dont know what i am doing..
P.S most of the previous pages or almost entirely pages were written
when i was broke..
I was planning to write in the newspaper column about the foreigner
plight..Cause you know Malaysia totally 60% or more depends on
cheap labour for their job market..Its because they dont have much
man power or they just have too much talented people..I mean there
are more talented cheap foreigner its just that they were let down by
their country or their political..There are many reasons to it..Like me
too..Of all places i had come to Malaysia..But i dont regret,, cause
it has made me learn some important things in life and still learning..
Back to the topic..not only the foreigner are pais cheap most are
conned..i dont know what to say about this but its only best to
fight for them cause there are universal reaasons and things
happenniing. The one reason is that today morning while i was
listening the radio the government said that they can bypass the
1998 economy recession..The reason kick out the current cheap
labour and hire the local..This sounds very bad from my point of
view.. I mean what kind of thoughts..They should at least
compromise..See this are some of the things i really hate.. Any way
i dont think i will complain cause, i know my article would not be
printed cause the last time i sent,,it was not printed..cause i blamed
the local to being lazy..Any way the political situation here is getting
worse..or shall i say this is true dremocracy..I dont know but i just
read what happens next cause it will have an impact in the country..
ok so much of bullshitting and bla bla..
I knd of miss one thing that is alcohal..I am just waiting for this Sunday
or Saturday cause it can be like 'out of the blue thing' Like suprises..
I think i should be able to write tomorrow too..But i dont know..it just
depends on my mood..

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

FaceBook
Well today i was surfing the Facebooks and i came to see all my
old friends from the past..What can i say it felt great to see
them living their life scattered across the globe, few got
married and most stll searching..Like me myself.. And the
best part is ts very convenience since the internet age has
caused so much convenience for everyones life.. Well all
i can tell whoever who knows me..This is your life
and live it the best possible way cause we only live once..Like me..
So to everyone thanks for the memory and lets make another
beautiful memory wherever we are..Thanks and lets live..
Well the time 16:06 and i am preparing to go somewhere..
But looks like i will have to face nature fierce weather..
It kind of very, very dark due to the cloud covering the
area i am at.. Looks like its going to be very rough
going to my destionation..Any way i think its because
of the pollution and uncontrolled emmission from the
industry thats causing this..Cause the moonsoon seasons
is supposed to be over..Guess mother earth is getting sick..
Any way i need to make my move now..










Every frog has its day just like...
GDP


Gross Domestic Product. The total market value of all final goods and services produced in a country in a given year, equal to total consumer, investment and government spending, plus the value of exports, minus the value of imports. The GDP report is released at 8:30 am EST on the last day of each quarter and reflects the previous quarter. Growth in GDP is what matters, and the U.S. GDP growth has historically averaged about 2.5-3% per year but with substantial deviations. Each initial GDP report will be revised twice before the final figure is settled upon: the "advance" report is followed by the "preliminary" report about a month later and a final report a month after that. Significant revisions to the advance number can cause additional ripples through the markets. The GDP numbers are reported in two forms: current dollar and constant dollar. Current dollar GDP is calculated using today's dollars and makes comparisons between time periods difficult because of the effects of inflation. Constant dollar GDP solves this problem by converting the current information into some standard era dollar, such as 1997 dollars. This process factors out the effects of inflation and allows easy comparisons between periods. It is important to differentiate Gross Domestic Product from Gross National Product (GNP). GDP includes only goods and services produced within the geographic boundaries of the U.S., regardless of the producer's nationality. GNP doesn't include goods and services produced by foreign producers, but does include goods and services produced by U.S. firms operating in foreign countries.

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Sunday, March 01, 2009

Well i tried to upload my voice but i dont really know how to..
Any body out there who knows how to please if you mind helping.
I want to upload audio not video.. Thanks

Saturday, February 28, 2009

11:02Am 01 March 2009 Location.. Perpustakaan Negara LIbrary


Well its been so long that i have not written on this blog.. Cause you
can say i was pretty busy or i could not find the resource to..
Any was i think i would be able to write so much from now on..
that i dont know what to write cause too free to surf can also lead to
nothing to write..
Well life is so far so good cause there is nothing in life thats you can say
it was awsome.. Its always the same thing repeating time after time.. But
in different perspective.. Wish i could do something, but you know what
is stopping me,, i mean not only me maybe 99% of the whole world..
But i think i can overcome this cause only some lucky ones can,, and i am
hoping to be that lucky one..Even if i am not than thats ok.. no hard feeling
cause at least i tried rather that i did not.. Ok so much of this..

Well how times flies 2009 and already March exactly 9 more month to
2010.. What can i say this are the most important time in history cause
whats happenning around the world is worse than the last Depression
or maybe it can be over ruled.. Time and progress can only tell.. I dont
know what the outcome will be but as far as i know it is starting to affect
around the world.. I dont want to say anything cause i dont know exactly
what might or what might not happen.. But one thing for sure is it is
better if you are in 3rd world country..for at least 2 to 5 years.. Cause
it is the time it will take to recover or many more.. I like to be part of it
but i am not in this kind of coperate work.. So all i can say is i am not
involved in it but one thing for sure is that i contribute more than the
local in their economy.. So all i can say is you better be thankful to me
cause i am reviving your economy..Although i will suffer later on.. never
mind for now.. i think i am much more better off in knowledge that the
last time round.. I mean to say every day is a learning experience and
becoming wiser. It is never wrong to spend but you need to save some
too for the rainy days..

Ok lets forget about the economy for now.. Well life is going on for now
And to relate the guys who is with me are Dhurba Khadka, Bikash,
Hemantha Thapa, Jimba Lama, Lama(Skinny), Prem Limbu, Subba,
Narayan. Anyway many thing happened but nothing serious happened.


Well Ok for now i need to re check and re name my recorde..Dont worry
from now on there will be many uploading and many writing..


This was taken before the construction begain.. It reminds of the place that was so filthy.. Now its occupied with busy things that goes in and out.. It was one of the time where breaks was passed in this area.. So out of curiosity i just took some snaps and i guess i can call it a masterpiece.. If you look closely you will know what i mean...


One of the things needed for.. anyone who believe they need it.. Without it life wont be complete.. Just like everthing thats in our life.. So believe in yourself and believe in......

Looking at tgis picture reminds me of the days where i ahd clock in at 6 plus and clock out aroud 7 till i dont know when.. How times flies and everything was a memory..

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Well below are some of the things that i wrote while i was relaxing my mind to share it with you(5ht to 8th January 2009). Do enjoy and smile..
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UNDERSTANDING
i always thought the world was a funny and complicated place to live in. But as i grew older the time passed along my journey i started to understand. i cant say i understood but i am understanding. The word understood can only be used when i am dead this is what i believe cause life is a journey of understanding it. But you my friend you have your own view and your say about understanding your life. Either way is correct. Its only the thoughts thats matter.
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SINCE THE DAY WE FIRST OPEN OUR EYES AND SEE THE WORLD WE ARE BORN TO FACE A LOT OF OBSTACLES. IT IS A HARSH WORLD AND AS TIME PASSES AND THE DAYS WE JOURNEY OUR LIFE. MANY DIRECTION AND MANY CHOICES WE HAVE TO FACE IN OUR LIFE. WE DONT KNOW WHERE WE ARE GOING BUT WE JUST MOVE FORWARD. MANY GOOD CHOICES, MANY BAD CHOICES WE AMKE OR ARE FORCED TO MAKE. SOME HAPPY SOME UNHAPPY OF OUR OWN CHOICES IN OUR LIFE. MANY OF TIMES WE COMPLAIN OR CHERISH OUR LIFE.. AND TO SUM IT OFF.. NOTHING IS FAIR AND EQUAL IN LIFE AND IT IS BALANCED FOR THE BETTER OF MANKIND. SO LIVE YOUR LIFE WHICH YOU THINK IS THE BEST POSSIBLE WAY FOR YOU.
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FATE
The birds i see in the cage.. How they wish for freedom..But they are captive in their owner hand.. If i can i would release them within my limit cause i dont have rights to everything..
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THE BEST THING FOR ME IS TO LEAVE SOME THINGS TO NATURE CAUSE I REALIZE THAT SOME THING CANT BE THOUGHT OR CHANGE THEM. ITS BEST I MIND MY OWN BUSINESS CAUSE OTHERS WANTS THATS TOO.
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i think i am a devil with a BIG heart. Cause devil has no heart and feelings. But for me the heart makes me unique from the rest. But i do get confused sometimes and because of this heart i am going on..
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NOW I AM AT TIMES SQUARE IN KL. AT 8TH FLOOR. SITTING IN A CORNER AND EATING CUCUMBER. FUNNY KIND OF FEELING. THINKING HOW STRANGE MY LIFE OR OUR LIFE IS LIKE. MILLIONS OF PEOPLE AROUND OR BILLIONS OF PEOPLE ALL DOING THEIR DAILY ACTIVITY. IF I LOOK FROM THE SKY THEY LOOK LIKE ANTS AND VUNARABLE. BUT THEY CARRY ON IN THEIR LIFE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. THERE IS NO STOPPING THEM. HOW STRANGE OF US. OLD DIES NEW ARE BORN. BUT TIME NEVER STOPS SO DOES OUR HEART BEAT. CONTINIOUSLY BEATING TILL THE DAY ONE SELF DIES. BUT WHEN HE/SHE DIES HE/SHE LEAVES/BRINGS THE MEMORY OF HIS/HER TIME LEAVING A LEGACY TO BE REMAMBERED. I GUESS THIS IS CALLED 'PRICELESS LIFE'. MY CUCUMBER WAS LONG FINISHED.. NOW I AM HEADING TOWARDS......
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rumors
it is not always good to hear good things about someone..sometimes it needs to hear bad things too. As long you know the other party is not having problem you just pretend listen. Cause rumors are only rumors and as long as it does not affect the other party you let them talk. Later on they will go back to their normal self and they will accept who i am. This is life and everyone has the rights to everything to say or do.. Just like you and me..So dont worry you have your life and cherish it not worry it for no reason. Cause this is my life and as long i dont go over the limit i can do whatever i want to do.. so do you
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FREEDOM IS WHAT WE WANT IN LIFE. CAUSE IT WONT BE LIFE WITHOUT IT. LIKE A BIRD THATS WONDERS IN THE SKY. IT FREE ITS MIND AND GO TO CERTAIN DESTINATION OF ITS DESIRED THROUGH ITS EYES. THE EYES THATS SEES BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN LIFE AND THE DESIRE TO CONQUER IT. ONLY A BRAVE ONE WILL SUCCEED SO CAN THE REST IF ONLY THEY TRY. CAUSE LIFE IS A NEVER ENDING JOURNEY AND THER IS NO LIMITED KNOWLEDGE WHICH WE CANT LEARN. THE KNOWLEDE WHICH WILL BE PASSED TO THE NEXT GENERATION ONLY DIFFERENCE IN time. ONE IS HAPPY WILL ENJOY IT LIFE EVEN IN THE DARK OR THE LOWEST POINT IN LIFE. IT DOES NOT NEED TO UNDERSTAND LIFE AS LONG ITS SEES LIFE IN A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE. ALL MY LIFE I WAS ONLY SEARCHING FOR ONE THING MONEY AND COULD NOT UNDERSTAND WHY I WAS LIKE THIS BUT AS TIME PASSED AND THE PEOPLE I MET AND ONE THING WHICH IS happiness WITHIN ME MADE ME UNDERSTAND LIFE.
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it is true we only live once. it is olso when we will die. Some early some late. No one is immortal and for me given a choice i would rather be mortal. i realised that to live is to enjoy every day of the daily life and to look forward for the next day. Not every day is a happy day cause how boring it will be if every day was the same things repeating. But before i end my day i will have a smile on my face and say i enjoyed every moment of it no matter what happened that day. Cause it will only make my day a miserable one for that the mentality will start to corrupt. So i wash away my bad thoughts and when the new day comes i will start a new chapter of it. I dont know when i will die dut one thing for sure i will accept it what ever way it comes. i am optimistic i will be able to share it with my love ones and my future love ones.
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SOME THINGS WE CAN AND CANT CHANGE. BUT WE KEEP TRYING EVEN IF WE CANT, THERE WILL BE OTHERS WHO WILL CONTINUE OUR OR YOURS MISSION. THIS IS ONE PROBLEM IN THE HUMAN WHERE THERE IS THE UNEQUALNESS FEELING AMONG THEMSELVES. THE ONE WORD THAT DEFINES IT 'RELIGION'. THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR SO LONG AND IT IS A NEVER ENDING SAGA. IT IS NOT REVENGE BUT BECAUSE OF RELIGION THERE ARE WAR WHICH I CANT ALSO DEFINE IT. WE PASS THE MESSAGE TO THE PEOPLE BUT I REALISED THAT ALL CANT BE TAUGHT. SO THE ONLY WAY IS TO KEEP ON PASSING THE MESSAGE OF UNITY AMONG THE DIFFERENT RELIGION. IF NOT THE WORLD WILL FALL OUT AND CHAOS WILL STRIKE.
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The world can never be a peaceful place to live in as long as we have conflict among ourselves. But the ultimateum we try to compromise. Some will success while others fail. It is only natural as to make the world a bettre place to live in i guess. i can do what i can within my power the rest i leave it to others or its fat. Cause i am only a human and i have my limit to some things and beyond that i cant. But i can only hope for the better thats all....
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LIFE... WHAT CAN I SAY... IT IS BEAUTIFUL.... IT IS UGLY... EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN PERSPECTIVE AND EXPERIENCE OF IT. EVERYONE HAS THE RIGHTS TO AGREE AND NOT TO AGREE OF THEIR LIFE. IT IS THEIR THOUGHTS AND THEY HAVE THE RIGHTS TO SAY THEIR VIEW. NO ONE CAN DENY THEIR VIEW OF IT. IF TAUGHT THE RIGHT WAY HE WILL LEAD BUT IF IT DOES NOT HE STILL LEADS. THE ONLY DIFFERENCE IS HOW HE feels WHEN HE LEAD HIS LIFE. EVEN IF HE IS POOR BUT HE UNDERSTAND LIFE THAN HE IS HAPPY TO BE WHERE HE IS. BUT IF HE DOES NOT THAN HE CANT MOVE FORWARD IN HIS experience. MOST OF THE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD IS EXPERIENCING THIS AND TRYING TO FIND WHAT IS THE MISSION FOR THEM BEING IN THIS WORLD. WELL I AM STILL SEARCHING FOR THAT ANSWER ALTHOUGH I FEEL AS THOUGH I UNDERSTOOD IT, BUT THE REAL ANSWER I BELIEVE IS I WILL GET IT WHEN IT WOULD BE MY LAST BREATH. THIS IS MY PERSPECTIVE OF LIFE.
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I am where i am and never in my dream had i imagined i will be where i am. Sometimes i regret sometimes i enjoy where i am. All too confusing but this is where i have no choive but to accept who i am. And as time pass by i have accepted who and where i am. Cause it will only make my life a miserable one if i dont compromise to who i am. i will accept any kind of punishment of where i am. But i will fight to be who i am. Cause life is like a static bar always up and down. At the end of the day i will be who i really am. This is MY LIFE and i have the right to everything of who i am. This is my chosen path and i will go as long as my heart beat the drum till its stops and my journey stops. As it stops i will have a smile on my face cause this is who i really am.
2009
Finally 2008 was over almost 9 days ago..Could not find the time
to write as i was too busy. Well memory weather bad or good was
a memory and what better way to start of 2009. Any way late than
never to all who are or anyone HAPPY NEW YEAR and i am ready
to face 2009.

Monday, December 15, 2008

MONEY, MONEY, MONEY.LOOKING BACK OR READING AT THE
CURRENT SITUATION (RECESSION, DEPRESSION), IT IS NO
DOUBT THAT MONEY PLAYS A VITAL ROLE IN SHAPING OUR
EVERY DAY LIFE. IT IS NOT A NEED BUT A MUST NEED IN THIS
MODERN TIME OF CIVILASATION. THE THINGS THAT WE DO
EVERYDAY, FROM CONSUMPTION, TRANSPORT, LEASURE,
HEALTH AND WHATEVER I HAVE MISSED OUT ARE ALL
RELATED TO MONEY. I ALWAYS FELT THAT MY LIFE WAS
CAREFRE, BUT AS I GREW OLDER I AM BECOMING WISER.
THIS MONEY THAT I AM REFERING IS NOT EASY TO EARN.
IT CANT BE JUST PRINTED AT THE TREASURY OR THE
FINANCE INSTITUTION OF ANY NATION. TO PRINT THERE HAS
TO BE SOME SORT OF TRADE IN A LEGALLY WAY INTERNALLY
OR EXTERNALLY WITHIN A NATION. IF NOT IT WOULD BE A
CHOATIC IN TH COUNTRY ITSELF AND LIFE WOULD BE
MEANINGLESS TO LIVE. THAT IS WHY THERE IS A BIG
DIFFERENCE BETWEEN RICH NATION AND POOR NATION.
THE ONE OF THE REASONS IS THAT THE RICH LEGALLY
FOLLOWING THE PRINCIPAL OF MODERNISATION OR IN
OTHER WORDS USING THE MONEY CORRECTLY. WHERE AS
THE POOR NATION ARE NOT FOLLOWING THE PRINCIPLE
OR ARE LACK OF RESOURCES, GOOD GOVERNANCE,
GEOGRAPHICAL LOCATION AND LOTS MORE WHICH I
MISSED OUT. ISOLATION GIVEN BY THE RICH NATION
TO THIS POOR NATION. ITS SOUNDS SELFIS, BUT THIS IS
THE PRINCIPLE AND THE RESON I MENTIONED.THE
POOR NATION JUST CANT SUDDENLY START TO LIVE LIKE
THE RICH NATIO. THE RICH HAVE WORKED THEIR LIFE
TO WHERE THEY ARE FROM THER ANCESTORS TO THE
CURRENT TIME. SO WHAT I REALISE IS THAT I CANT BLAME
AMERICA OR ANY OTHER NATION FOR BEING RICH BUT
UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF CHANGES IN MODERNISATION
AND THE PRINCIPAL OF IT AND USE IT TO MY ADVANTAGE. I CAN
MIGRATE EASILY BUT IS IT WHAT I REALLY WANT, I ASK MY
SELY. LETS SEE WHAT HAPPENS CAUSE LIFE IS FULL OF
SUPRISES AND LETS SEE WHAT MY INTEREST AND MY HEART
SAYS....

Monday, December 01, 2008

Well December round the corner and the end of 2008. Well its been a what can i
say, some sort of bad year. But thats life and i am still moving forward and
looking for the brighter side. Any way moving is the only way in life and i hope to
write more next time...

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Well december coming and the end of 2008 is nearing.
We all are hoping for a new 2009. As the daily report
says that the world is in bad shape because of the
financial crises in America and slowly affecting the
rest of the world. But this is life after all. Some times
we fall and we have to get up and keep going. Any way
we have to be optimistics and go on.. By the way good luck
and may the new year comes and goes like the past years.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Well days are passing by, not surprisingly. But how to tell if
it is not just days but life's that been rich in information
and knowledge. Frankly i do not know for sure but only time
will tell and coming days. Hope are what we are hoping for
cause some times it is not certainly a day for us and we seek
other alternative solution. So what ever it is life goes on and
so do others. Any way times running out and i cant think of
other words to type so it ends here for today. Till next time.

Old post that was not posted...

Well days are passing by, not suprisingly. But how to tell if

it is not just days but lifes that been rich in information

and knowledge. Frankly i do not know for sure but only time

will tell and coming days. Hope are what we are hoping for

cause some times it is not certainly a day for us and we seek

other alternative solution. So what ever it is life goes on and

so do others. Any way times running out and i cant think of

other words to type so it ends here for today. Till next time.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Well what can i say, i guess this 2 guys are preparing for the fighting competition. Good Luck guys.

Friday, October 17, 2008

This was taken from the top of my house when i was feeling
bored and it tells of the brightness when there is darkness.
So dont give up no matter what, we can do it
This was in 1986 when i was in Pr2. Brings back fresh
memories in Bartley Primary school.
Unforctunate

September 23 and October things got lost and i am pretty
pissed off. Lets see what the outcome will be. Crossing my
finger

Tuesday, October 07, 2008


ONE OF MY FAVOURITE SHOE..IT IS ALMOST 9 YEARS OLD
OUTCOME
God damn it, why does it always have to happen to me
especially at a time when my moment in time is very
cruical. You must be wondering what i am talking about.
Beats me to, cause sometimes i get lost too snd it is
unavoidable. But the more precise fact is that is that a
month is left which is very cruical in time of my life.
Still dont get it do you. But this is the only thing that is
reveable..Second's which is very important to cause minute
will only come after it and followed by hours. Than days, weeks,
month and year. Oops i dont need the year as i mentioned that
i only need the month. It will be a deciding factor of my life and
i am going to see what i can or cant be done. 30 days left
exactly and the clock it ticking without a pause. Oh my mind is
getting lost as the time goes by. I cant stop the time nether my
road to forward. Too lost in this damn dosage days. I am
wondering how am i going to face the days that are coming and
what can or can't be done to change my destiny. Nither nor i am
going to regret after the time limit is gone, but i want to do what
i have thought i want to do cause that is the right way of passing
through my life. Without further i will pass the seconds, minute
and hours. But i will count the days which will come by and go
through from today till the time limit expires and i will see the
outcome of my journey. But one thing for sure, lifes goes on
even though goals fail. Important is you go forward

Monday, September 29, 2008

12 September 2008




i guess we will miss the one when they are no longer near us.

So much so can be said, eventhough 'that someone was so close

and you arent able to show your emotion towards them. It always

felt as though thar the someone was so close yet far in our mind

and we cant fight it due to massive reasons. Regrat will always be

on our mind but thats the way how life is about living and going

forward undoubtfully. Well by now that someone must be

reaching their destination. destination we all long for. We will

feel bad to leave but home is where our heart belongs and

nothing can change the fact of our existance.. I too long to

return in the quickiest possible way but will i prevail? Only

time and faith will tell us cause this was the chosen path

for us.. We do still miss that someone, that someone whom

gave us memorable memory to cherish all our life or maybe

for that moment cause new chapter might come along and

erase it. So to remember that someone and respecting it,

the only way is to writing it out so as to refer it back when time

passes by and to bring back the moment within....