Well this was i think in 2004 or 5 or 3 cant really remember but it was at National Stadium.. This was the place where i was almost turned into a Negro..Even my dad called me.. well got it feom Om Prased facebook.. although i am not here.. we had a good coperation working together..

Well so long yet so deprerssing are the words to be written here.
What can be so new is a depriciation of the life of mine.
Dont know what exact words to type.. but to type something.
How time been wasted or what defination words can i write...
Just a waste of some of the days of smeere waste i guess.
Hoping something which is hopeless and not giving up the
thought of loosing everything.. Well its life after all..
I think its makes us stronger or weaker in cetrain phase of
time and doing the most is to.. checking out photos in
facebook and its sure good way of wasting time cause
mind of brain not working and its damned to lazy to other
things except to see the times goes by. Its sure good way to
relax the yime which i will for sure later on think what the
hell did i do with the precious time.. This is what happens when
the brain losses the moment and later on say such stuffs..
Sometimes its just inspires you and sometimes its just makes you
feel different.. You know most of the guys are out and seems
very lonely.. i mean who do they have the same batch of friends and
a few new guys.. its like lost in the desert.. the smiles on their
faces looks very fake this is what i think.. All our life being a
foreigner and now dont know if career can get the foundation
in a new environment.. Trying their best to live a lie., I kind of
feel sad foe them and many things.. Its like when a girls gets married
and have to stay with her husband..I guess this is what most of the
general people are doing to carry on i think.
I felt i wanted to go to but as time passes my mind set keeps
changing too. Still i am confused. Here stuck in my own fucking
mess and no way to look forward and even if i do.. what are the
chances of success?? this is the delimma that i am in and i am
fucking it away and just pass time and see what happens after all
i am living this life and like i say not everyone are supposed to be
BOSS n everyone of us are different generally. So WIth a smile on
my face i am typing this sentance of damned nonsense. But somehow
i feel like i will make it and somehow i feel like will i be able to. Only
time will tell and seems like new friends are not much of a help cause
their aim are not as high as what their limit are and thats what keeps
them satisfied. May b i am asking too much or maybe my mentality
is so wrong. As i think there seems nothing wrong to think too high
but may be the direction i am going wrongly. But i dont know other
ways.. there is but it wrong..ha ha.. lets see.. only tiem will tell
So chow and next time..

23 September 2009 1010am
and its a beautiful Wednesday to start of the day formally. Saying and
feeling are two different meaning to speak the mind and after the hours
has passed and the reality of the thought comes to conclusion but thats
life isnt it? Well its the world we live in and many complication arises
and we are not sometimes certain of the objective. But i am also
sometimes not certain what i am writing and it can be a nuisance and
you dont have to really believe what i write. Its just pass time and no
other words to define it.

999

Well another special year and the opportunity to type my view.

999 as they say 9th Day, 9th Month and of course the year 9

which is a special combination number to be cherished. Not this

lifetime of others are able to witness this day may by come another

100 years later. Well like 888 i am truely able to write something.

Last year there was Dhurba and Ravi to type something in my blog.

But this year i am alone to write my self and i guess its the way of

ones life to be described. How the one year has passed and many

thing has happened and knowledged gained or loss. I dont really

know the answer to that but to use it as new lease of times comes

by. Be it better or worse, its just the way of life and to deal it with

the outmost way possible. Life is after all a life. Nothing will change

the way it should be heading. But without the presence of everyone

it makes life dull after all. Many ways to see it after all. And i guess

its worth every single seconds of it and 999 its great to be alive and

going. Hope i will be able to write again on 101010... Ok my ending

is i am who i am and i did no wrong what i did and i will do what i

need to do and i am happy who i am. Cause there is only one ME.

So to others, there is only one YOU. So....

5th September 2009 903hrs..
Fundmental is a certain words which we have to apply in our daily
life. Without it, mass theory will be lost and i have made a mistake
and many will along the way. We learn and make mistake too
often that we dont realise where we are or who we really are. And
i have been there and still there unless i change my way of thinking
of the very basic way of fundamental. I come to understanding
whats past is past and this is one last opportunity for me to change
and make my life better for the coming days. Yes there are other
opportunity along the way but it goes back to the basic and we
have to accept that. To be able to start in the middle i need the
needs of my ability to go above the middle to the higher. Or else
i will always have to start low no mattter where i will start. Hard
work is another things that is very important to the success of the
road ahead and i will write my progess as i go along. This is one
big opportunity and it will not come again.. There are limitation
which i have to face it or better explain to them. Lets see how it
really goes in the coming weeks to come.......

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Well yesterday as usual around early 8am i as usual was doing my
pull up at KLCC Park. As usual i was doing i noticed a helicopter
circuling the Petronas Twin tower. I was thinking to myself why of
a sudden such dcene? I thought to myself maybe it was one of the
way of patronism since after Merdaka(National Day) on the 31st
August. I did not though much but i did think the Al Queda was
going to attack was one of my funny side of thoughts. And carried
on with my pull up and headed for my destination. Well as usual today
i did my pull up again and took the Sun's paper at the Ampang
Train Station. As i turn over the next page i saw the article
"Spiderman" arrested after scaling Petronas Tower.. I was like
what... I read the story.. Alain Robert a French national 47years
old had concured the tower in just 2 and a half hours due to wet
wather. I mean can u believe that he climbed without any safety
equipment and without any other people knowledge. He succeeded
and was reprimended by the police. He had tried before but was
not allowed or other reasons. Man i was there and i did not knew
such was happenning. I felt very proud of him.. He gave me
encouragement even though i was low in the morning and i learned
we have to keep trying until we succeeded and less of other
knowledge.. Well Alain Robert you have my respect and thanks
for the success u have done. Nothing is impossible. Hope i can
emulate like you and i want to fight my rights and go on even if i
cant.. Cheers to you..

Well i am too free to write.. i guess i got the liberty aint i.. ha ha.. So
todays a fine and a bit rainy outside compared to inside and i have
the time to sightseeing some of the places...

922am and well Harka n Kul is on his way back in RA to Nepal and now i suddenly
like it was only yesterday we came here.... How time flies.. Well today Pralhad one
of my good freind is going back too.. Not forgetting Kedar Gurung my hostel mate
too is leaving.. Well reminds me of the time we stayed under the same shelter
and all the memories with drinks and many things we adapted to the living
environment exposed. Well they are gone and the latter today. So i guess my time
will come soon with Dhurba Khadka. Ok now i am surfing Google map and it
one of a kind of futuristic sites.. I mean i can actually be anywhere and check out
the street and places of interest. Its good though but i can only access some places.
Its better than non.. Well if the speed was much better i would be able to access
much quicker around the places.. But its ok also.. All right than i want to do some
sight seeing...

Well i am here and i am going there soon. I do know..
Ok.. it my turn so i am ready..

28th August 2009 and tomorrow Harka and Pralhad and not forgetting Kul are
flying back concurrently of one day difference. Well Its 3 years of career and
without family members beaside us and the life had effected us dearly and
an experience which each one of us has a differnt view of expressing oneself.
My turn will come to go back and i am looking forward to it. Guess i have
been away too long and sure miss my family back home and it makes me more
stronger to survive individually and spiratually. Well i dont really know how
to express it but to experience it will eventually prevail the words that i wish
to write. But one thing its good writing.. Ok Biray (he is married to)
mailed me.. and tells me Duk is in Nepal with his family.. Well hes a father
already to a beautiful daughter and what can i say.. Wish him more baby and
be a good father.. I guess thats what we are more capable in this other than..
well i dont really know.. Well here i think its the monsoon season ant its
been raining and drizzling continousely for the past 17 hours and i think it
will continue to non stop.. So its pretty cold out here except too many places
flood here and there.. Hate it cause i have to walk like an hour to my destination
and by the time i reach, my shoes all wet in and out. No use for the umbrella..
i mean only for the upper part of the body.. And the best part is when there is a
path of flood at the road (i mean almost every where cause the road are mass
made and not to quality standard) and whan car pass by, suprise of splash
of water form the two different motion. And i really hate it cause it diry.
Well lets put the pen down and rest for now..

Oh well back again to the world of ups and down. What would it be like if its
was one way going. I really cant or have the exact answer for this intricating
question myself. So any way the only way to find out is to experience it.
So here i am down for so long and i believe it time to pick to reach higher
for better tomorrow or better days. Cant always go low can i!! Ok time to
change the chart and new climate. So where are have all the days coming to
only time and fate can say the least as it comes and to top it up.. good luck..
Ok kind of feeling the way every day i was feeling and finding the time of
going for the changes of the less ordinary. Cant think of much just to write
some crap to fill my day to look at the time just passing by. Its just how
time is passed to fill the gap of seeing new things thats comming soon. I
cant forward it so to go with the time and obey its law. No choice everyone
has to obey its law. So how shall we describe the worls as?? Its has its own
defination and its way of showing life to the living. Can u just imagine how
did civilasation came about?>? Its complication and scientific has priven it.
But do you trust every bit of it.. Its depends on every individuals and i am
50-50. Cause there is truth and for sure there is Lie. So just say Ya Ya..
and move on.. Cause there are morans saying this is and that is making sure
they get you hooked in their point. Well lets forget about this moran and lets
go on to something more fun for the day.. So here i am walking to a shop to
buy some stuff and as it was a long walk and deserted path.. I decided to
sing some silly tunes.. Tunes just comes out from my mouth and try along
the way to melodise it.. I did not or by excitement as i carry on the singing
the vocal along the way was getting high pitches. Or other term high volume.
I made the pop to alternative and sudenly to heavy.. I did not realise someone
was behind me until he bypassed me with his finger on his ear and my brain
was told me to mute or just carry on slightly softer. So here i am emberessment
or just liberty.. any way this was not the first time i was singing and carried on
except the unfortunate was well forget about it and this is my life, who the hell
is he and i have the right as this is public and i am not going against the law.
Freedom and every human had the rights to it as it does not go against the
boundary of the so called Law. Well i did enjoy myself cause singing is
something which makes out emotion go wild and make us like a bird flying so
high that there is no direction and which ever way we go it makes us feel
liberty. Well it was one awsome experience and i would like to do it on stage
but insted of flowers or panties thrown in, i think bottles and all sort of hurting
tools will be thrown in thats why i am in the limit of not doing such stuff..
Its personal and not publicity. I rather enjoy than get bullshit review. Ok so
much of fun and here is a true story. Just last night i was looking across the
road and this neighbour grows all sorts of vegatation just out side of their
house. It is ment for purely decoration i believe. Any way i believe its just
some time pass for the grandma of the house. I mean she is old and i believe
in her young she was in agriculture and this was her only mean of pass time.
The family is rich and its a good kind of hobby to fill her days. So as you
know there is like 3 papaya tree and all of them bearing fruits and its was
almost or beginning to ripe. So here my mind fickring what to do decided it
wants my tummy with fresh fruits. So without any thought my legs walks to
the tree and shakes the trunk. Water droplets falls like as though it was
raining. Previously it had rained and water was collected on the leaves of the
papaya thats why when i shaked the trunk water dropped. The first shake was
not strong enough and i had to do it again and 2 dropped just beside me. And i
just picked it up and went back to my place like as though it was mine. Well
i did not care and i washed it and peeled of the skin. It was ripe and not 100%.
It was crunchy and i and Joe enjoyed the freshness just previously from the
tree. So it was a daring experience at this age. Well i dont know what i was
doing but i sure did enjoy the fruit. Any way behind the house there is a
banana tree and its just beared fruits. I am thinking of letting it grow a bit in
size and store it in so that it ripens up. Its kind of disappointing cause i
thought the size was bigger but to my dismay its size is small and nevermind
as long there is banana edible its worth it. I just hope it will be ready by some
time soon. Well i guess thats it for today and next time..

Well well.. its 14th Friday 2009 and 1033am and i am here just to write some things
before i forget what i want to write.. Any way thats all for today..

This is from National Geography.. And i am uploading cause its very unique as the
Squirrel is also wants not to be missed in camera.. I guess its trying to say ''Cheese"
before the shot..

Well tomorrow 7th August 2009 is going to be an anniversary for me. It not something
to be proud or celebration of. Any way how times flies and how life has come to this
situatuion. By the way 21th will be the day what i had started off with.. Anyway its
kind of feeling good. mayybe its more of a better days to come or not but the key
word will be 'optimistic' and looking forward to it. Ok enough of this and i been reading
some books which is good or maybe not. It depends when the time comes for its
particapation, before that i need something which is, lets call it 'ignation'. Time has gone
and new times coming and sounds very awkard or nevermind.
So lets me be the one to say ok 'Lets start anew form tomorrow'.

1st August 2009... 10:11am Saturday// weekend and its great to be back to write buisance!!
Well as i said it was great but something just made my day a less not so.. Any way what
can i say.. wanted to say something but i think i better not and i think i should keep it to
myself and maybe its for the best of me.. And let me write nuisance if i can think of
something that my brain might come out of.. Ok i am thinking and looking at the admin
side to check if the case is clear.. seems ok but still i might not have such previlage in the
coming days. Nontheless i dont think i need to care so much of such things..cause i think
i have other better things to concentrate.. Well i guess i will be writing less from now on
and i will try to write even though i dont have much space.. Ok any way chow for now.

Ok Saturaday and its ok for whats past has passed and looking for my
brain to write something today. Its 10:10am on 25th July and i have like
3 weeks to go down south to meet up friends and settle some things.
I am now well ok.. nothing to write..

As i turned to look to the sight my mind had flashed across when i was
turning just about. It was a vivid memory of a look coming from
across the street. The very familiar face once i knew but my brain was
not working out who this person was. I tried to recall upteem times but
i just could not get what i wanted. My brain was dead and i was trying to
scan back every detail out of my past. I realised that it was no use any
longer as it just could not come and...

Well above is something i wanted to write but i could not carry on as i
am lost of idea and sentance. I think i need to improve more on my writing
in the near future.

Ok Saturday the 18th July 2009.. A bright morning and infact very
beautiful minus the haze. So what better way to have a bread and coffee
before my day starts. So life seems so very.. I dont know cause it no use
planning when you are not under your roof especially like me in LUAR
NEGARA(Foreigner). Ok its like this for me for the last 23years of my
life. So i am not settlled yet at a fixed place and i think it will not be my
last either.. May b once i go back i might search other area too. Cause
my country of origin has nothing to offer but many thing we individuals
have to contribute. It sad but true and i want to contribute maybe once
i am more stable. If not its ok.. at least we have the thought.

So as you know august coming soon and i been thinking lately of
returning for good. But the futures uncertainty cause the economy still
not too fixed up. Can have some hic-ups as whats goes down needs
time to come up and there might be obsticles along the way and due to
gravitional force it might plunge back. Never know, it all depands on the
stock player and the world. As you know North Korea their ass kind of
itchy and keep farting german gases and Terhan or Iran back to Moulsive
or Ahmadejin. And there are the disaster of plane crashing one after the
other. First the Air France crash on 1 June 2009 than Yemani crash
on and now Iranian Airways so it can be coincendital.. Its like a chain
reaction of some kind of ill fated fate. Well i am not too sure but my
condolance to all the dead and to their family and friends. Well we still
have to live and speaking of live my nature call is asking me to release.
But once i release this PC than i dont think i will be able to get it back.
I will try to hold on for some time just to surf a while longer..

Mondays coming and i am geared up for something and thinking of
a roller coaster journey if my fate comes along. Never know whats
written till i find out myself when the time comes and of course i
have to put in effort if not how will the ride comes about.

So this week end might be weeding or just passing and i really hate
to waste time. So hope my ends are worh of justification of how it
will be spent. Later at least one part of my right or left brain will say
ya i did that.

So i just edited my profile in facebook cause i am getting irriteated of
it. Cause its like a i dont know but i think i have other better things to
do than surf such things. So my bladder saying faster and i want to
hold on longer cause i have not finished yet..

Now finally i have finished what i was here for ok next time i will
write more..

Well here i am again.. Its really nice to be back and to type what my fingers
wants to type.. Its just blows my mind away and i am just writing what my
minds comes about. I think its unique or more nuiscance to do but the best
part is at least there are more pages or sentances for me to refer in the
coming times of passages. Even some of the things i have written previously,
i dont seems to understand mysely. I mean what i had wrote and i dont
understand what i have written. Well thats me.. maybe i did not check back
what i have written.. Cause i am really not so into checking.. you may call it
lazy or anything thats comes to mind.Any way most of the things that i have
typed are not the most 100% understandable and i can assuse readers like
me getting lost and frustrated. Actually i dont care cause this web page is
ment for me and only me. Lets forget this bullshit that i have written and
go on to.. 1031am 17July 2009 Friday. And like i previously written, its
mostly hazy in south east asia due to forest fire in Indonesia and Malaysia.
The country wants to clear lands to do some kind of shitty business and
to save a single cent they burn the forest blaming the heat to illegal
burners.. This fucking basterds are only after money.No standard practice.
But think again maybe they have no choice cause the big fish are the real
culprits and by the time it reaches the contractors he would have no choice
but to fire the place. This is called corruption. Frankly speaking corruption
is everywhere especially in asia. Especially developing nations. This are
the country where vast industralisation, economy are taking place.
And to get richer the rich are taking every opportunity in the corruptial way
to get rich. Cause like they say there will never comes a second chance and
since the countrys vast, the saying goes. If he/she did not get caught so would
i. And this lead to more greed and in the end a very corruptial nation. Well
money is the cause but it is true the population are too vast that greed is the
answer. So 90% has to stop dreaming of becoming rich. Any way i my self
dont know what i am writing. Well weekends round the corner and currently
i am reading Millionare secret(Frankly the titles i am not too sure). This is
another good book which i have alread read 1/4 and i find its a good
book. It not about how to win money, but a true story of JJ who wins 10million
pound(wow all that money). Well he gets all kind of trouble and how he nearly
got into a lot of trouble. Any way it tells of how he acted as sugar daddy to get
love. But non lasted and how he used a lying method to find true love.Any have
not finished the book but i can tell it a bit hilarious and very true story. Any way
i want to win like him too to get start my life. If not i accept a humble life. Ok
back to my life week end and i dont know where to go. May be the times
square to relax. I think its best thats way. I have not told you that they have a
first indoor theme park in Malaysia. It has rollercoaster and all kind of thems
coaster or what they are called exactly. Although i have not tried, i am
sure i will not try those super speed. May be the tortise speed i might try.
Cause i remember exactly in Singapore inside Haw Par Villa where there was
a boat ride and it was floating slope down 45degree at its own speed or
gravitional force plus the weight of us and you can imagine the high velocity..
twice it had to float slope down45degree and i was already in the first ride i
could not take it.. I mean i am not a coward or what ever its called, but speed
i just could not take it the sheer shock. may be it phobia.. i dont know but i
accept who i am and i cant take speed shock.. so back to times square it really
a nice place to be.. and the place is like 9 story of shopping
malls. There are i think more than 500 different shops to look around.. from
A-Z you can can find anything you are looking for( i mean middle class) Guys
this is a shopping mall not a rag and bone shop.
I have been thinking lately how should i take things cause 2 or less month is left
before i go back its been a hell and heaven experience for me in this place. Its
so different and i can tell i have never experience this kind of life iin my entire life.
It has opened my eyes bigger and also made it smaller. But more wiser or
foolisher. I dont know only time will tell as i move along. Dont know lets see how
it goes by.Well tonight i am going to have tapioca cause i just pulled the fruit from
the ground and its kind of big but i managed to only extract one roots.May be i
will go earlier and pull more if i can..which means the more the merrier..any way
its getting cold and i am just trying to write more.. i think i better not cause my
brains not working..Any way the times 1129am

Ahh.. i am here agian to write nonsense.. Todays Wednesday and its kind
of dark outside cause raining.. As far as i heard that its monsoon season
in Nepal and maybe the climate is blowing south.. I dont know exactly
but if i can i can check it in CNN weather forecast.. But to do that i have
to find cable network.. May be i should forget about it.. Any way its
natural to rain and shine.. Its makes the weather more finer compared to
sunny too much. Well i just finished reading a book titled RUNAWAY..
Its a good book telling a story of a girl how she actually faced the world
with her being abused and how she longed to get love from parents and
how she saw the life as a whole.. I actually love reading it.. I mean in my
life, i mean my whole life i have never read more than 5 novel.. But the
more important thing is that i finished it within a week.. I mean it took me
more than a month to finish a book in the past.. So you see the difference..
Any way i have targeted another book.. yet to start reading.. think its a
good book. The times 1127hrs and 15 July 2009 Wednesday.. Like
i said earlier its raining or drizzling.. so as usual i am going for a smoke
soon..