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24012007
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I CANT STAY HERE FOR LONG. UNLESS MY HEART CHANGES. I HOPE IT CHANGES FOR BETTER. I AM A FUCKING SICK PERSON. AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I AM SICK AND I AM REALLY SICK. I HATE MYSELF AND I WOULD RATHER DIE THAN LIVE. I CANT EVEN HOLD A SINGLE STICK. BUT MAYBE THERE IS A REASON TO IT. BUT WILL I BE ABLE TO TOLERATE THE SIGHT, WHICH I WILL BE SEEING FOR 3 YEARS. I WILL ONLY BECOME WEAK. I HAVE TO PLAN TO LEAVE THIS PLACE TO RELEAVE MYSELF FROM THIS MISERY. I KNOW I CAN BUT HOW CAN I WHEN IT IS SO CLOSE, YET WHO WOULDNT ACCEPTS ME BECAUSE OF MY STUIPED MISTAKE, CANT BLAME IT BECAUSE I AM TO BLAME. I CANT FORCE IT SINCE IT HAS ALREADY MADE UP ITS MIND, NOT LIKE MINE WHICH CANT EVEN DECIDE. I AM TO BLAME FOR ALL THIS FUCKING MESS. I AM THE ONE WHO SHOULD BE PUNISHED NOT HER. I AM SCARED THAT I MIGHT GO CRAZY OVER THIS ISSUE. BUT I AM STRONG, I WILL TOLERATE. ITS HAPPYNESS IS MY HAPPYNESS IF ONLY IT WAS FAR APART. BUT IT IS SO CLOSE. I AM TO BLAME FOR ALL THIS HURT. IF ONLY I WAS MORE DECEISIVE AND POSITIVE ABOUT IT. I AM REALLY SORRY ####. I CAUSED THIS PAIN TO YOU AND ME. PLAESE FORGIVE ME, AND I WILL DO THE SAME IF I CAN. BUT IF I CAN’T, I WILL PLAN, A PLAN TO VANISH AWAY FROM YOU SO YOU WOULDN’T FEEL THE SAME SUFFERING AS ME BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO STAY TILL THAN, BUT I CAN, SO I HAVE TO THINK WHAT IS BEST FOR BOTH OF US. I AM SORRY AGAIN ****. WISH THIS THING DIDN’T HAVE HAPPENED. AND I AM RELLY SORRY FOR THE HURT WHICH I HAVE CAUSED TO YOU AND I AM REALLY HURT DEEP INSIDE, BUT I WILL BE STRONG, CAUSE I REALLY RESPECT YOUR DECISION. WISH I COULD TURN BACK TIME AND CHANGED EVERYTHING, BUT I CANT AND I HAVE TO ACCEPT THE FACT.

Tragedy (041207)

The smile on her face was all that I needed to see, before I could rest in peace. I knew I was going to die, as I have battled the un curable cancer in my stomach for almost a year. As I lay in bed, trying to keep my smile as the pain keeps getting worse. Shuchi was crying beside my bedside. I tried to console her as I couldn’t bear her to see her crying. I told there was no point to be sad, as it will affect my condition. She put on a brave smile, but deep inside she was painfully wounded. As I was having a casual chat with her, she rushed out of the room as she couldn’t control her emotion. I lay there thinking back of what and how we had met up.
It was in 2001, I was working in a manufacturing company as a technician. It was my first day, and I was totally new to the company. I was supposed to be given an orientation by the clerk, but some how she was very busy with her work. As I wondered all by myself in the company, not knowing any one! Some would give me a smile, while some would say Hi. I was observing the place, when I came across an operator. I politely said hi, she responded with a hello. I decided to ask her that I was new and I was checking out the place, as she looked easy to communicate with and approachable. She kindly offered to orientate me. As I didn’t know the place well enough, I accepted her kind offer. She toured me around the place and described the purpose of the company. Finally after an hour, we came back to her designation area. I thanked her and proceeded to the office. In there the Clark told me she will orientate me, but I told her I had been orientated already and all I needed to know was what I was supposed to do. Once I was assigned what to do, the rest was history for the rest of the working hour.
Work was normal, and I would often meet up with Shuchi. As time passed, we were very close. And I could feel the affection I felt towards her, but I always kept it within. I was scared of rejection and I thought the time was too early to tell. 3 month had already passed, and I could tell she felt the same way as I did. But both of us never confronted each other for the chemistry we felt for each other, I guess. We will share good times and often have casual chat at work. But as time passed, the love for her kept getting stronger. One fine day, I decided to try my luck. I proposed to her, but she rejected it. I think it was due to my jokes from the past and the pranks I had played on her occasionally. That why she rejected my proposal. I was totally disappointed and was in total shock. After a while, she came back with a serious face and proposed to me. I was very surprised to hear it from her. She told me she was not playing any pranks on me. My mind was very surprised and all I wanted to respond was a Yes. But my words couldn’t come out from this shock that I received. Finally I accepted her offer by shaking my head. This was how I got to know her. It was only 3 years back, when we had a big quarrel and we split up. After which, I hadn’t seen her for the next 3 years. Now was here to see me in my death bed after one of my friend had told her. I did wanted to see her for the last time, but at the same time I didn’t wanted to let her see me in this state. But none the less she came to see me. The door opens as she enters with tears on her eye. She had bought some snack too. She sits beside my bed and combs my hair with her hand. I feel relaxed. As I ask her how she had doing the past 3 years. While chatting, the pain inside me from the cancer was unbearable but I control myself. I cough and cough, till blood flows out from my mouth. She tries to pat my back to control my coughing. But it was no use. She was about to rush out to get a doctor, as I grabbed hold of her hand. She screams to the doctor and nurses outside, but no ones come inside. I told her to cool down, but she keeps struggling to get the attention of the hospital crew. I told her no one will come, as all the hospital staff had been informed not to come in. As she hears this, she sits beside my bed and hugs me. She asks me why? I than told her that this was my last stage, and I will be dying soon. As I talk to her, she keeps crying and denies that I will not die. Finally after about some time, I could feel I was going to die. So I requested her to smile, as I wanted to see happy. She put on a brave face and smiled while she was crying. I felt so happy, as I was able to see the one I loved before I die. I advised her not to loose hope in life and carry on living. She just nodded her head. Than I reached for her to plant a kiss, before I could kiss her…………………

My Daughter

(060107)

Well today was a fine day for me, except for the hassle at work. Hi my name is Suman and I am working as a manager in a private firm. Now at home, I need to look after my baby daughter who is 3 years old, and her name is Kartika. She is my precious gems, because she is my only child and my only love. Well you see, my wife passed away when Kartika was born. And it has been a juggle of work and baby sitting my daughter. I don’t find it hassle, but the time spent on her is less. So she has to spend the day at the Child Care Centre and in the evening, I fetch her. She always gives me a hug whenever I fetch her. She tells me she hates the child care center. But I always tell her I have no choice, as I have to work to support ourselves. I don’t know if she understand, but she gives me a nod. I believe she understands it. Sometimes she would ask me why she does not have a mum like every one of her friends. I will try to tell her that her mum has gone for a long holiday. And she will return some day. This brings tears to my eyes. She will ask me why I was crying, and I have to lie to her that I have an eye problem. I know she will one day find out, but till date, I have to keep it from her. On Sunday, I will always make it a point to go out with Kartika, as I will miss her most of the time during the week days. I will take her to amusement park and shopping centre. She loves stuffy toys and I make it a point to buy for her. There was a point when I thought of getting a second wife to look after Kartika and the house. I have dated a couple of ladies, but non of them seems interested in my private life. I was about to give up, when my mobilerang. It was my friend Harka. He told me that there was this girl who is the perfect for me and my daughter. This remark he gave me since day one of my dating. Now I was pretty bored with his tactic, so I just gag in the line. But before I hung up, he told me she will be in JB restaurant at 8 pm sharp. Her names Helda. As usual, I gag and hung up the line. The rest of the day was fine at work, except for the constant thought of my daughter. Finally it was 5pm and it was time for me to leave and fetch my daughter. So I headed to my daughter school and as usual, she was waiting for me in the gate with a long face. But once she saw me, her face changed and rushed toward my car. I alighted and gave her a hug and asked her how her day was. She told me it was boring and asked why I was late.
We were home by 7 and I was about to prepare the food, when my mobile rang. I looked at it and it was Harka. Pretty pissed with him, I rejected his call. But it rang again. This time, I answered it. In the speaker, all I could hear was “Suman don’t forget 8 pm, JB restaurant”.I tried to explain to him, I cant make it, but he hung up the phone. So here I was one hour to meet this new girl and I was not even ready for it. My mind fiddle and I didn’t know what to do. So I asked my daughter what I should do. She told I should go. Now my problem was I had always left my daughter with the neighbour but I thought why I don’t take her along and she will reject me directly. So I quickly changed and helped Kartika change into a new pair of cloth. Now it was 7:30pm and it will exactly take me 30minute to reach JB restaurant. I quickly grabbed Kartika and carried her in my chest and rushed out the door. I hate making people wait for me. I started the engine and droved like crazy. My daughter was pretty excited to meet this lady, she mentioned how she looks and stuff like. I told her that she was very ugly and she always scolded small children and beat them. With out any knowledge of knowing her, as from the experience I received from my other relationship. At first she was a bit scared but later she told me I was lying. So I just explained to her that I too did not how she is like. Finally we reached the destination. It was already 10 minute late, I quickly parked my car and carried my daughter in my arm and rushed to the restaurant. The door opened and the waiter called me. Mr. Suman, Miss Helda is waiting for you in table 7. Well I figured out her name was Helda since the waiter told me so. As I put my daughter on the ground, I hold herhand and led her to the table. As we arrived to the table, Helda back was facing us. Now we were beside the table and I adjusted my throat to grab her attention. As she turned, she looked very pretty and I was dumb folded for a moment, until my daughter pulled my trousers and patted me on my leg as she spoke “papa she is very beautiful”. I didn’t know what to say, as Helda introduced her self and complimented my daughter. She squeezed Kartika on the chick and instantly grabbed and hugged her. I was surprised as Kartika accepted the hugging from stranger, as she often rejected the grabbing from other people. They got along so well, I forget that we were in the restaurant until the waiter came along to take order. I asked Helda what she would like to have for dinner. She ordered a steak, the same as mine. She also ordered for Kartika a kid meal. We chatted along the meal, as Kartika would often disturb her during her meal. I kind of found Helda attitude pleasing and felt some affection for her. After dinner, we walked at the park and kept chatting. After which we exchanged number to keep in touch. We keep in touch and she would often come to my place to meet up with Kartika and me. Now my daughter was livelier compare to the last time since Helda came into our life. She would fetch her and take her out if I was busy.Finally one day I proposed to her and we got married on 07 January 1978. As they say the rest is history….

Life Is Beautiful

(20 December 2006)

"1978", "1978", I heard my prison number being repeated in the hallway. I was thinking, finally I was going to get out from this cell after three decade of being locked up in the cell for the crime of murder. In the beginning I was sentenced for life, but I was pardoned for good behavior and being released after serving 30 years of my sentence. I was very confused, weather I will be able to adapt to the totally new environment, and how I will survive in this ever changing world. I knew of know one and no place to go for shelter. My wife of three years would have married off, as I told her to find a better husband, as I will never be released from prison. And I wonder how my daughter and son be doing in this current time, and weather they were with my ex-wife or with some one else. The thought of it made me change my mind of being release. I asked for the prison chief and waited for him. Finally he arrived and I told him, that I wanted to carry on staying in the prison, as I had no one and no place to go to. As I had grown closer with him during my sentence, he told me not to give up hope and everyone needs a second chance. He also told me some one would be waiting for me out side the prison. But I told him there was no one I knew of and there was a mistake about it. But he just advised me to not give up hope and wished me all the best. There I was not wanting to get out and a friend advising me to join back to society. I had no choice, but to agree with him. I started cleaning up my cell and met up with my jail mate, they bid me fare well. Almost every one I knew of bided me farewell and wished for the best. As I walked through the clearance room, I was wondering the harsh reality of the outside world than again I wanted to see it before I die. So with two different thought, I entered the room. Once in, they called me by my number and read through my sentenced and told me to obey the rule of the law and not to commit crimes.They wished me for the best, and gave me my belongings. After changing to a new pair of cloth, I was ready to leave. There was two police to escort me to the exit of the prison. As they led me to the exit, I was totally unsure of the image of the out side world. Finally I reached the exit, the door opened and the sun was shining brightly and I could smell the fresh air as I walked out, I felt free like a bird out of a cage. Bang, I heard the door closed behind me. Now out side, the place had changed a lot after serving 30 years of my prison sentence. There was some kind of mechanism that ran on four wheels something that I haven’t seen before starting my sentence. This amazed me. There were people doing their daily activity. As I was walking, I noticed a group staring at me. There were two ladies and a man. One of the ladies looked quite old and the girl and the boy looked young. I guessed the older lady must be the mother of the two. As I carried on walking, they kept looking at me. I was thinking they must have been curious as I just got released from the prison and avoided their look as I walked. Finally I had just passed a foot in front of them, when I heard my name being called. “Suman” I felt strange, as I didn’t knew of any one else. As I turned behind to look who it was, I realized it was my ex-wife Kartika. Her eye was filled with tears as she cried. She asked me if I had forgotten them in all this years while crying. I tried to hold back my tears but I wasn’t able to. I told her I missed them dearly and gave her a kiss and hug her firmly. Then I heard “Dad” called by the other two. Kartika then told me that two, were our kids. I felt so happy that my kids had lived with my ex-wife. I kissed and hugged them. I than asked my ex-wife, how she was doing and how her new husband was doing. She waited a few second and with a gasp she told me she hadn’t married and raised the kids all by her self. Now my eye was filled with more tears and realized how strong she was, as she raised the kids all by herself. This time I hug her even tighter and my kids concealed us. After about some time, we finally left. In my mind, I was very happy and thanked god.

Life is like a road trip
Just like us, as we are growing up
Always concentrating our direction
Filling up the petrol
To keep growing
This is the way to our road trips
That never stops
By: Suman Rai

Let us be thankful to what ever we have.
Cause it is different for the rest of the world.
Without effort and determination, we will not succeed
Cause cheaters only loose.
Let us be happy
Cause sadness will only bring sorrow.
And be thankful to the world
Cause without this world, we will not succeed.
By: Suman Rai

Some say life is too short.
Some say life is too long.
If only it could be balanced.
Like they say life is good.
Like they say life is bad.
But without it,
Life won’t balance.
There is equal in every thing.
This is the way of life.
By: Suman Rai

True Love

(07/12/06)

Like they say every rose has its throne, like every man has a woman. Well this is a story of a young man Suman Rai and his woman Rita. It started in a small town called Khotang in Nepal. It was the first day of college in the summer of 1998, Suman Rai 18years old first day of class. He was walking in the school premise, unfamiliar and totally new to him. Senior student totally stared at this newer student. Not only him, but there were other student too. And there was a whistling in one corner of the area. Out of curiosity, Suman tried to see what was happening. He couldn’t see the view, as other student blocked his sight. He approaches nearer to get a better view of the commotion. As he slightly pushed the front student to see what was going on, he saw a glimpse view of this person in front. He again pushed the front student. Now he had a better view of the person who was being whistled. Her face as sweet as honey, her eye as beautiful as ruby. Suman couldn’t take his eye of this beauty, he had never seen such beauty in his entire life. He was totally blown away and kept staring at her in a daze. He didn’t realize, he was in the middle of the path way. Other student had given way as this beauty was taking this path to her destination. Now he was blocking her, and she was approaching. Her path was blocked and asked him if he could give way. As Suman was in his fantasy and totally lost in reality, he didn’t respond. Now she was frustrated and pushed him hard. As he was pushed, Suman came back to reality. He was very embarrassed, as other student were jeering him. As she walked past him, he managed to slightly shout at her that he was sorry. She responded without turning, “whatever”. Now the jeering was even louder, and his face was so red that he bowed his head and continued his search for his class. He was walking at the ground floor and he came across his village friend, and asked him for the direction of his class. His friend obliged and showed him the direction. Now he got the direction of his class, he made his way to his class. Finally he approached his class. The class was full of student and the lecture had already begun. He asked the lecturer for permission and apologized for being late. The lecturer warned him not to be late again and asked him to proceed to his seat. As he faced the student, he could see some of their faces grinning. It could be because of the morning incident, he thought. He tried to avoid the look of their faces, and proceeded to find himself a seat. As the class packed, it was tough finding a seat. He saw an empty seat and proceeded to it, but the guy forbids him the seat. Now Suman was quite pissed of with him, so he looked for another seat. The same thing happened. Now he was wandering why this guys behaving oddly. His blood was boiling and he was about to quarrel back, when he heard a voice. It said, ”there is one seat vacant over here”. It was sweet and caring. He looked around to see who it was. To his surprise, it was the same girl that he saw in the morning. Now his face blushing to red, he slowly walked towards her seat. Now he realized why the other student didnt gave him their seat. In his mind he was thanking this other student. Now he was beside her. He pulled his courage to say Hi to her, but she didn’t respond. He pulled the chair and sat down while putting his bag on the floor. He thanked her in a soft voice, and introduced himself. She just nodded but didn’t reply back. He found her not sociable, so he just concentrated on the lecture. While the lecture was going on, he saw her name in the front of the book. It read Rita. He stole some glimpse on her. The more he spied on her, the more he liked her. Finally the lecture was over and it was time for their next class. As they had to go to another room, he took the courage to ask her if she was attending the next class. She replied yes and asked her if he could go with her as it was his first day of school. She nodded and they left together for the next class. While heading for the next class, she finally started to talk. She told him her name was Rita and she asked him his name. She even told him that she didn’t have much friend as she too just started school. Suman took the opportunity and told her that they could be friends since both of them were new in the school. They arrived for the class and the rest of the day was spent on lecture and tutorial. Finally class was over and they bid farewell and left for home. It was next day and Suman headed for class only to find Rita in the canteen alone. He took the courage to join her. She obliged and they both had their breakfast together. As 2 years of school was almost over, they had become best of friends. One day before the final examination, Suman proposed to her if she would like to go steady with her. She told him that he needs to wait, as she told him that she needs to concentrate on her University first. After their result, they headed for separate University and separate town, as both had a different faculty. But they promised that they would meet up after graduations.
Finally 4 years had gone by and Suman had a honors in Business. But he never forgets Rita. He longed to see her, and made a trip to her town. He searched for her every where, but couldn’t find her. But he never gave up.
Two years had gone by and he was working now in a Business firm company as a manager. He was a successful in his work, but there was always something lacking him. He dated other girls, but never came across any one like Rita. He always thought, “The first love is the deepest”. Any way he never gave up hope on her. He just continued his daily lifestyle. One fine day at work, he was invited for dinner at his boss home. At first he declined to go, but he was persuaded to go as it wouldn’t look good in the view of his employer. So he agreed to go. The day finally arrived and he gathered with his colleague to go to the employer house. They were greeted by their boss and they entered the house. It was large and beautifully decorated. Once inside, they helped them selves with the food and drinks. The place was big and there were a lot of guests. As Suman was having his meal and talking with the guest, he heard a familiar voice. He knew in his mind that he had heard this voice some where before. He excused himself from his guest and made his way to find this person. He approached nearer to where the voice was coming from. Now he was just behind her and excused her. As she turned, he saw that it was Rita after all. Thank god his search was over. He shouted with joy. She too recognizes him, and replied she missed him so much. They viewed back the times they missed together and alone. After which, as they say the rest is history.

Trapped (06/12/2006)

I couldn’t believe my eye. It was as though I was in dream land and I couldn’t control of it any more. I tried to escape but couldn’t. It was as though I was going to get stuck at this place forever. I tried and tried but it was no use. Finally I gave up and rested on the ground. As I was resting, I observed the cell. It was fully enclosed with an approximately 15 centimeter gap bar. The bar was thick. It was neither metal nor plastic. It was something different about the bar. Even the ground was sealed with bar. As I observed more, I realized there was no chance of escaping. I decided to sleep for a while to get fully energize. I was about to fall asleep, when I heard a familiar voice. Suman, Suman the voice said. I opened my eye to look for him, but couldn’t see him. So I shouted for him, and asked where he was. There was no reply for a moment. But there the voice came back again. I tried to find the direction of the sound. I frantically looked for him, but there was no sight of him. Then I heard his voice again, this time, I realized that he was shouting from a distance, as he mentioned where I was. I shouted back to give him the direction of my location by my audio signal. I realized he got the message as I could hear his voice nearing. Finally he arrived at my destination and asked me how I was trapped in this cell. I told him it was a long story and asked him to get me out of the cell first. At first he tried to use his strength to bend the bar, but it was no use. He than took out his machine gun and asked me to go to the corner. I made my way to the corner and he started to fire at the bar to break it. He shot a few round, until it cracked a bit. He observed it and continued firing to break it. Finally after around 20 round of shot, he managed to break 2 bar, just enough for me to get out. As the bar was hot from the firing, I waited for a minute to cool down. I than got out and thanked Martin, or else I would had starved to death. Now I was out, we decided to head back to camp.

VISIT

(05/12/2006)

Its been a while when some one came to visit me. I have been hospitalized for almost a month now due to my operation on my stomach for tumor. And there she is coming to visit me. She knocks on the door and I ask her to enter. She brings a plastic bag. I can tell that she has bought some fruits as it is transparent. It was apple and that was my favorite. Now lets go back to her. Her name is Suci, and she is my colleague from the same place we work at. She is from the office side, and I am from the store side. Well she is a caring lady, who is always ready to help in any possible way. That’s why we are very close friends since the day I joined the office. She comes in and ask me how I was doing. I reply by saying, “ Never felt better than now.” She places the fruit beside my bed and I ask her to take a seat, which was beside my bed. She sits down and ask me if I had my lunch. Which I replied by saying the food sucks over here. She tells me this is better if I want to recover fast. She sees the food on the table and get hold of it. She scoops a spoon full and blows it to simmer it a bit. And she asks me to open my mouth. I tried to resist as I have been sick of eating the tasteless food for almost a month. Then she replies by saying, a bowl of porridge a day, makes you better today. So obey the rules and get out of here. She convenience me and I opened my mouth, as she feeds me. After which I told her I will have it myself. But she insists that she will feed me. There was no point to argue, so I just obeyed her. While feeding me, she tells me how the other colleagues miss me at work and tells me that they have sent a message, for a Speedy Recovery for me. After which I tell her to pass my message too,” I misses them too”. In between Nurse Anna comes in for my medication. She tells Suci that her visit hour is almost over and it was time for my medicine. She hands me the medicine and Suci pours the water in the glass and passes to me. I insert the medicine in my mouth and drank the water. I swallowed the two together, and lay down on bed. Anna leaves the room, but reminds Suci to leave early, as the visiting time was over.
She prepares and tells me she was ready to leave. I thanked her for visiting me. And she made her way to the door and turns back to wave bye to me, and shouts to me for a “Speedy recovery”. I thanked her and waved back to her and tell her not to worry. She proceeds to leave the place and there once again I am lonely. But I knew that people cared and I was thankful to that.
Till then……..

Friendship(04/12/2006)

I was at the airport, waiting for my good friend Duk. He was supposed to arrive from America today. I anxiously looked around for him, as his plane had landed. And most of the passenger had alighted and were checking out of the airport. And I couldn’t even see a glimpse of him. He was supposed to arrive today, as he called me last night that he would be arriving today. Now here I am in the airport trying to locate him. Half an hour passed, and almost most of the passenger had already checked out. I got a little worried and decided to ask for help at the information counter. I asked the lady in charge if Duk had took the flight from America. She took some time to key in the information on the computer. Than she got back to me saying that he had checked in and should have arrived. So I asked the lady to air a message in the airport itself. She approved of it and made the announcement. It was aired for some time. After about 30 minute, I heard a husky voice calling me from behind. It sounded familiar, and knew it was Duk. I turned around to face him. It was him and I proceeded to shake hand with him. I told him times passes so fast, but friendship lasts. Then we proceeded leave the airport

Journey to maulo 29th November 2006

One day he was asked to meet his distance grandparents who lived some 20 km away. As it is his first time to visit his mother grandparents. He was very excited, as his mother used to tell him how her parents longed to see their grandson. He was only 3 years old when they saw him. So that night he prepared by preparing the dough for tomorrow cooking. As it would take around 3 days to reach his grandparents house, they have to carry food for the journey as the only transport was by walking because it was a mountainous region. Once he finished making the dough, he was partially drunk too. As it was winter, he had to drink alcohol to meet the harsh winter. It would heat up his body. As he had only one pair of cloth, which was only very thin to prevent the harsh winter. After all was set, he made sure every thing was spike and span and checked if his parents were in bed before he could tucked in. Finally after half an hour later, he was ready to bed himself. He lay on the tin mattress which was passing the cold from the floor to his body. He could feel the cold, but it didn’t affect his sleep as he had already gotten used to it. Now his mind was wondering the journey which he will be taking tomorrow. While imagining, he fell asleep peacefully. It was dawn and he got up from the sound of his parents shouting to him to get up. By the time he got up, his parents were ready to do the morning work. His dad had to get fresh grass for the herds and his mom to do the laundry of his baby sister. Now he was awake, he rushed to wash his face. It was chilly cold, but he poured the water on his palm and plashed it on his face. Now he was much fresher and was ready to cook. He quickly grabbed the firewood and stuffed it in the burner. He bled the charcoal to start fire the fresh wood. It took some time to start. Now it was very smoky, but it didn’t affected him due to normality. Once the fire was on rage, he prepared the wok and added the oil to heat it. After five minute, the oil was ready and he started by adding the dough to fry it. As it was cold, he had some alcohol and roti in between the cooking. . He was half way done, when his mom came in after her laundry and scolded him for not waking up late. He didn’t responded and carried on cooking. But he asked her to taste the roti for its texture. She said it was fine and went out the room to do her other chores After which his dad also arrived from attending the herds. He drank the alcohol and tasted the roti. And told him to rush, as the dawn was breaking. After half an hour later he finished with the cooking. He gently packed the roti in the bag, which he would be carrying. And filled two bottle of water and packed it in as well. After which, the wok was cooling down, he removed the wok from the stove and placed it beside and covered it. He sprinkled some water on the charcoal to extinguish the red burning. Now that he finished the cooking and the chores, he was ready to get dress up.While dressing, his parent were already ready and left the house shouting to him that they had left and asked him to hurry up. He rushed up and lifted the bag and exited the house. Now outside, he locked the door by padlocking. He started to walk in a fast pace to catch up with his parents. About 5 minute later, he saw the sight of his parent. He quickly followed them. Finally he was just behind them. They were having a casual chat while walking. As they walked, villagers asked where they were heading to. His dad would respond by saying, they were going to another village. It was noon and they were getting a bit hungry and his dad suggested that they stop for lunch. They found a nice shady spot to rest and have their dinner. After settling on the clean grass, Suman took out the roti and water. Than he distributed the food to his parents and himself. He had 4 roti and some drink. They had a casual talk of the family member of the maiti house. He asked a lot of question of who were in the family member, what he was supposed to call them as respect. Finally after some time, they decided to continue their journey. They came along a lot of places, Suman tried to capture the route, so that he can take this route in the future. While they were traveling, Suman dad saw a jackfruit tree and asked his son if he wanted to eat jackfruit. They all agreed and Suman dad looked at the tree to decide which fruit could be ripe. After deciding, his dad started to climb the tree. He finally reached the location, and used his left hand to twist free the fruit. Finally after around a minute, it came crashing down. Suman and his mom went to the site and picked it up and bought it out to a location where it was safer to pry open the jackfruit. While doing that, Suman dad descended his climb. While opening the jackfruit, the place was filled with aroma of the fruit. It was so strong that suman mouth was filled with water. His mom selected the seed and gave it to Suman. Than his dad arrived and ate the jackfruit. They had their fill and the rest they tried to stuff it in their bag, the rest they threw it away. As there was no place to stuff it in the bag. They started to continue their journey. It was around 5am, and it was getting dark. They decided to rest at one of the villager’s house. The house was open and the landlord was outside. His dad asked the landlord for a night stay and in exchange, he will pay Rs10 for the accommodation. For food they had to pay an extra Rs2. Since his dad had only Rs40 left, and they had one more night to travel and back after that. They had the roti, which Suman cooked. After that they had a early night so they can start their journey earlier. It was 5am in the morning and they left the house after paying the landlord. So this continued for another night. Finally the 3rd day came and they looked forward for the journey. It took them around 6 hours before lunch to reach their destination.Finally they arrived their destination and they were welcomed with open arms from his grandparents. Especially for Suman, he was being hugged and kissed from his elder. Finally they entered the house and lunch was served. This was Suman great experience he will never forget..

FRIENDSHIP (04/12/2006)

Its been 2 weeks and there is still no news from him yet. Yes I couldnt stand him any more. He should have been here by now. What is taking him so long….
Actually, 2 weeks ago I and Harka promised to meet up at the park in the outskirt of town. We had looted a Bank and we had gone our separate ways to escape the police. As far as I know, he too escaped the area, or else I would have read it in the paper or seen it on news. So I suspected that he might have ran away with the goods. In my mind, I knew he wouldn’t desert me. But some how, I couldn’t think of any thing else but that. Now it was almost 6pm and it was getting dark. I got very frustrated and kicked the dust bin pretending that it was him. Than I made my way back to the hotel. Couldn’t believe this was happening to me. As I had passed the park, I noticed some people behaving suspiciously. As there was other people in the park too, I managed to follow them around. As I passed the area, i saw police cars parked in the car park area. Than I realized that police had came and they were searching fro me. I coolly made my way out of the area like other park user did. While walking, I realized that Harka was caught and he had given the wrong information to the police. As we had agreed to meet up before 6 and if after that, it will be sabotage for the police. I felt guilty about what I had thought about him, the other day. I couldn’t think of any thing but him, but the friendship he had committed and proven. Like they say Friendship never dies. So here I am deciding what to do. If I ran away, he will face the consequences alone and if I surrender, we will face it together. So I had already made up my mind that I am going to surrender myself too. Cause that’s whats friends are for and will be. So here I am surrendering to the police. I know I did the right choice.

LIFE (30 NOVEMBER 2006)

What is life, this is a question which many of us know and don’t know. Many of us ask this question regularly in our every day life. But do we get a satisfying answer for our hungry question? No is the majority answer, to understand life, from my perspective is life is something we face in our daily life and beyond our capability. The things that revolves in our every day life, for example, the happiness, sadness and the extra ordinary things that we receive in our life package. It also comes with the good and the bad package to maintain the life form. Or else it would be too perfect world to live in, So this good and evil thing needs to be existed to consider life to be balanced. One such example is that, one day every body dies. But don’t know exactly when. Some will enjoy their ripe age while some will die in their early stage.
So cherish your life every minute, seconds of it till you leave this world. This is your life to be lived and be understood. We only live once, so make the best use out of it weather good or bad. That is life.

Some encouragement to brighten our lives.

Escape

(28 November 2006)

This is a story that revolves around a group of friends. Namely Suman(Main Character.), Harka, Duk. Baburam, Surjay and etc. Well they were normal friends from a very young age. And abou them is an extraordinary story about an escape. Well let me start of the story. This group of guys used to hang out at coffee shop at Tai Seng coffeeshop. One fine sunny day they met up at the coffee shop after lunch. They ordered their drinks and started their conversation, the usual chat. While having their conversation, they wouldn’t miss the view of the opposite sex passing by. This was what they enjoyed most. After sometime, Suman suggested that they go to town to check out the places and hanging out. Not all agreed to this proposal. So the decider persisted the others to change their mind. Finally every one agreed to go. So they decided to meet up after one hour at the coffee shop. They than left the place and headed for home. As Suman reached his house, he saw his mom doing her usual chorus, he greeted her. Then he told her that he was going out and he needed some cash for the outing. She told him in an angry tone that she hadn’t much at home, and needed to buy some groceries for the night. Now Suman was devastated and now all his effort was going down the drain. So to keep up with the plan, he decided to call up his friend to ask for some loan. So he called Harka. He was about to explain to him about his situation, when he interrupted and told suman that he was broke. Now the situation was worse. So not to disappoint him, he told Harka that he had just enough for him self. But he told Harka he will ask some one else for help. So he hung up the phone. Then he decided to try his luck on Baburam. Hello the voice said. It was His mother. When he asked for Baburam, she told him that he had already left. Suman was now very pissed off. He called the rest and the response was the same for the rest. Now, no one to ask for help he decided to tell the truth to Harka. He called him up and learned that he too had left home. So now not knowing what to do, he decided to meet up with his friend to tell the truth. He left his hom

Showgirl
24th November 2006

Well this is a story about a girl. Her name was lolla. She was a show
girl. Although she hated this job, the money was good and she could earn 5
times the amount of any office girl could earn. She was very popular among
the customer and she was demanded in almost every show.
Now what really happened, or let me say why she was forced into trade is
because she had just finished her collage and learned that her dads family
business was failing and there was a lot to pay back to the creditors.
After closing the business, her dad paid the client. But it was not
enough. And there was a pile of creditors knocking on their door. Even
their close one didn’t even bother to say hi. And sooner her dad health
worsened and was hospitalized. He was so weak that he couldn’t even talk.
With this problem, she had to do something. Although she was a bright
student, she lacked a degree and worse still, no working experience. So
she decided to apply for a strip club performer.
Its been 2 years now and she has almost paid most of the creditors. Now
all she had to do is to work 6 more month and she could get a proper job
or apply for a scholarship. Her Dad condition was also improving.
It was Friday and she was performing her usual show when she saw a
familiar face in a corner. All the customer was cheering her and blowing
whistle at her. But this was a different scene. As she tried to think who
this person could be, but it didn’t appear.
After the show, while she was changing in her room, there was a knock on
her door. A very familiar voice which she had heard before. She asked him
to enter. As he entered, in he looked very familiar, in the same time
looked very mature. She tried to recall who this person was. While she was
recalling, He said “Hi, names David. Remember.” In a swift moment every
thing flashed into her mind. David a playful classmate of her who never
was involved in school work, but had secretly had a crush in her. Had
heard rumors from other student, but she was not interested in such kind
of relationship. But he was here so mature, and good looking. She almost
had fell for it. “I am David, remember me. We were from the same class.”

Missing

24November

well today was a fine day for me. But as usual, I had to deal with a lot of problem at home. I can’t say much but will mention a bit to relieve my inner complaint. What really happened was that David my cousin pissed me off as we had a big quarrel last night and we nearly had a fight. What really happened was because of a small misunderstanding. That night I couldn't sleep as I kept thinking about the cause of the problem. After about half an hour later, I realized that I was the problem to that. And because of me, Ithe whole family was in this situation. With this guilty sense, I decided to apologize to David first thing in the morning. With that I felt asleep. The dawn was breaking and it was 5:30am. I quickly rushed to the toilet and did my early morning wash up. Then I went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast for my cousin to make him feel better because of last night quarrel. I turned on the stove and grabbed 2 eggs from the refrigerator and a packet of fresh milk as this was his favorite breakfast. As the pan was heating, I poured some oil. When the time was right, I broke the egg and laid it in the hot pan. I quickly got a handle and scrambled the eggs while frying. When it was cooked, I took it out and placed it in his signature plate and poured the milk in the glass. Then I took out the pepper and salt. I put everything in the tray and headed to David room. As I was approaching his room, the door was wide open. I thought to myself maybe he might have woken up and went to the toilet.So I went in his room and placed the food beside his bed. As the light was on, I decide to wait for him. After waiting for some time, he still didn’t turn up. So I decided to look him up in the toilet. As I was approaching the toilet, the light was off. Than I thought to myself where the hell could he have gone to? I than went to all the room to search him. But I couldn't find him. I frantically tried to think where he could have gone to. As today was Sunday, he wouldn't have gone to work. Or he wouldn't
have gone for a morning walk. As he was the lazy one in the house! As time passed by, I started to worry more. In my mind, I felt very guilty about it, and I kept blaming myself. I then went out side to check if his shoes was there? While walking towards the door, I kept imagining that hopefully one of his pair of shoes was missing. When I finally reached there, all his shoes was there. Now I was even more worried. I quickly went upstairs and woke my parent. I asked if David had left home the previous night.They were still in their sleepy mood. They just said they don't know anything about it. Finally when I said that he was not in his room and all his shoes was in the shoe holder, they too woke up and got worried. My dad asked me to search at the garden while my mum searched the entire house and he would look at the park. Then we would meet around 20 minute to get track of our progress of searching. Finally we met out side the house and none of us had found him. Then my dad blamed me for the incident the previous night and my mum stepped in and said its no use to blame anyone as it will only make the matter worse. So my dad finally decided to lodge a police report. So we were getting ready to make a report, when the telephone rang. I quickly rushed to pick it up. I was hoping it would be David. On the other line, it was David. He apologize saying that he was sorry that he didn’t informed us, as he was at his friend place. I was thinking of scolding him on the phone, but it was enough of yesterday incident. So I advised him to tell the family member if he wants to leave the place. At least we wouldn’t be so worried so much. I than hung up the phone and informed my family member!

Pnk

24th November 2006 Time 07:40am

Well come to the fiction world of crazy story. Some partly true, some none, but they have one thing in common, to make a good story for you and me to read about it. So grab me and start reading about it. You won't regret reading me because this is what you and I want and this is what we get.This is a fiction story about a village. There was a town name Cycl in the middle of the forest in the Amazon rain forest. The population was around 500. And they led a very simple life, by hunting, fishing and picking fruits. These people were short, average around 1meter and they had a dark complexion and very rough feature. Due to their nature of living, they had these complexities. And they were happy living this lifestyle.The head of this village was a very courageous leader named Pnk. He was selected as a leader after the 4th leader passed away due to old age. And this is his story.
Now what extraordinary about this place, every time the old leader die, they have to choose a new one from the whole village. Every one from the village will be eligible for the leadership. So before anyone is selected, they have to be nominated from the local and they had to go some physically training and mentally solving problem. So when the candidate was selected, there was a total of 10 people and one of them was Pnk. As humble as his father and a straight forward person! He was liked by most of his fellow people. But he never thought, or wanted to join the leadership competition. He was really surprised as his name was mentioned. He wanted to back out, but his fellow people persuaded him and told him that the others were only completing for the greed and power status. As the others were only interested in the power and nothing more! With this he promised his people that he will do his best and he will become the leader. He said that he will vanish himself from the village if he looses. With such courage, he took blessing from the villagers and set his journey to the capital. Finally he arrived his destination in an hour time. All the other competitor had arrived and he knew almost all of them. There was Ri, Dul, Myt, and the rest were from the other village. From here he realized that they were not fit for the leadership, as none of them had a potential for the post. Some were physically built, but lack mentally, or vice versa. He realized that his people were right. He promised himself that he will do his best to lead this battle and to win it with great pride and to lead this village with great responsibility. "Here we have the 10 contestant who are vying for the leader ship of this village. We wish them the best and some one will take over as a great leader." "So our future lying on this fellow men, let the competition begin”. “Said the judge”.Pnk and the rest of the competitor were let to a semi built house for rest, as they had arrived from different village for the competition. As they were led to the house, he had a talk with one of his fellow villagers. Ri was his name and he was one of his close friend, and who had wanted to grab the leadership. Ri was very surprised to learn that Pnk was also in this competition and knew that he never had this intention of getting this status. So out of curiosity, he asked Pnk. With that question, Pnk told him that it was not his decision but more from the villagers. And now he was even more determined to excel more. With these words, Ri was a bit worried, as he knew Pnk was far better than him in many ways and more. He had always despised Pnk. With that, they went to their room. During the night, they were served dinner and every one had a alcohol except Pnk. But he was forced into saying that he didn't respect gods drink. Someone even said, "We work all year round, and in this one year we deserve a consolation. That why this alcohol was made for us by the god. And how could we not accept god will." With this strong sentence Pnk joined in. Praying to god and thanking them for this wonderful drink. He drank a bit and had a chat with the rest of the other competitor. That night, he dreamt, and he saw god. In it he was advised that, if he didn't succeed in becoming the head, the village will be in ruins.The competition begun and it lasted for almost a week. And the last two remaining was Pnk and Zu. Since this was the last stage, they had to battle each other to clinch the leadership. They battled was so intense that it lasted almost a day. Pnk emerged victorious and he was given a ceremonial leadership. Till this day, he is respected by all his villagers.

Shower

Well It all started when I was a child about 8 years old in the out skirt of Khotang. I still remember vividly how my child hood was like than. I used to stay with my grandfather in an old prehistoric house. We had cattle's, pig and other consumable animal in our farm house. My grandpa took care of the animals, plough the land. He used to tell me how happy he was with me rather than not having me. I used to be a mischievous boy and I would disappoint my grandpa most of the time by not obeying him and playing truant from school. I used to live a carefree life. I used to hang out with my friends from the nearby village. We would often go fishing and insect catching. Just to name some of the few guys in my group was, Harka, Duk, Hem and so on. The most memorable thing that happened was, we were fishing. 30 minute walk from our village. We were having a great time catching tiny fishes and soaking in the cold water due to the heat from the sun. While we were deeply having a time of our own, I noticed some one. Pale looking, straight combed hair and she was a she. I stopped my activity and concentrated on her. She had pinkish lips and she was smiling, like as though she wanted to befriend us. I shouted to my friend that some one was spying on us. As I didn't wanted to be inferior especially when my friends were around! In a second, all eyes were focused on her. One of my friend splashed water on her. Then the other started and before I could do anything, I was also joining them. She backed from the splashing and she left running. We were all really giggling and laughing about the splashing incident. But in the back of my mind I felt a guilty sense. I was thinking what she did to deserve this. I kept thinking and the thought just vanished after some times. Well it was Sunday and I was taking the sheep for grazing in the field. While taking the sheep, I came upon the same girl whom was at the pool side the other time. She said hello in a soft tone, but I tried to ignore her thinking I would look macho. As I by passed her, my mind kept thinking what on earth was I doing. I turned back to face her and in a rough tone I said, "Ya what is it". She just gave me a smile and said, "I am Kartika and I just shifted from another state and I am living with my mother in this village". She than asked me my name. As usual, in a rough tone, I said "Suman". She pronounced it correctly and said I had a nice name. She than told me she was lonely and had no friends in this village as she was new and asked me if she could be my friend. I was thinking what would the other boys says when they find out about my new friend, especially those concerning the opposite sex. But something told me not to reject her proposel. With that I agreed to let her be my friend with a disagreeing tone. As days passedby, I was herding the cattle. I was lying back on the fresh green grass, with my eyes shut. And there was a shadow above me, thinking who might it be, I opened my eye and there was this dark complexion, which I couldn't recognize due to the effect from the sun. I quickly struggle to stand up and see who this person was? While getting up, this voice says, "remember me I am Kartika, we met the other day". I was still trying to recall who the hell was this person. Finally everything came into my mind. With a lazy and stern voice, I asked her what she was doing here. She told me, she was bored at home and thought if she could get my company, as well as hers. With that she sat down on the flat soft grass which I had made it as my bed. As we talked I found her more interesting. She was a very friendly, polite and down to earth person. While talking, she put her hand on her left pocket and took out some sweets. In those days, sweets were considered delicacy. I had always asked my grandpa, if he could buy me the sweets. But he never bought for me, due to the price for it. But now here Kartika was offering me. I tried to reject it, but when she opened one of the wrapper, and stared suckling it. I couldn't resist the temptation of the sweet. I was swallowing my own saliva. But she insisted on giving me, like as though she could read my mind. Finally I accepted it. While turning away from her I quickly unwrapped it and put it in my mouth like a hungry pig. I heard giggle from her. She said slowly take your time or else you might choke from it. While she was saying that, I nearly choked. Finally after all my cattle had their full, I bid her bye and left for home. That night, I kept thinking about Kartika, after all she is not a bad girl. While thinking, I had fallen asleep. That night I had a strange dream. In that dream, I dreamt that I was about to being swallowed by a huge a creature. I was shouting and screaming for help. But no one could hear me. Finally I was about to be eaten alive that an angle came and sacrificed herself for me. Than I woke up with sweat flowing like water. I was totally soaked with sweat. Still from the trauma, I couldn't help but buried my face with fear. The next day was normal for me, I was heading to gaze my cattle and to meet Kartika. While on my way, one of my friends Harka told came rushing to me. He had a serious expression. I knew something was wrong. I quickly asked him what was wrong. While panting, he told me Kartika was dead. I was in disbelieving, as how such young person could die……. As days went by, I realized that she had a illness which was incurable. Till this day, I still miss her dearly, my friend Kartika.

ME THE TRUTH

Ever Since the evolution of mankind, there was only one man. A man with no objective and no future. 1000 years had passed and he lived a lonely life. And a lonely self. One day he got so bored that he decided to grow plants. He even
Writer .Well it is not easy to write novel. But what I need is more practice and more research. This way I might improve or worsen. This is fact about life and its way. I had alwayswanted to write good novel. To capture my readers attention and to addict them to my story! To do this I have to have a good introduction and good imagination, before I start. This way my reader will want to read more of my story. There are many examples, from story to books which will help me in doing so. What I need to do is research from other books and to gain more knowledge if I want to really improve in time. Most important of all I have to start from writing short novel. Something sweet and short to start off with! Another way is to write and give people to read to get feedback from them. This is all relevant in our everyday life. What I can say is that we all live once, and we need to concur the hearts of the nature. As long as we are pleased when our time comes, we will die without regrets. That's why every human wants to achieve something in his or her life. They want to leave back some important history about themselves in this life. And to pass it down to the future generation! Human are human after all, some take it for granted and some cherish it. Its what every individuals counts. So for me I will want to forget about the past and think for the future, if I can or am given a second chance. I know the outcome, but am not really sure about it. So let see what awaits me in the coming days.

Oxygen

Like they say the sky is always blue, but it can be dark, If we don't take care our nature, it will one day be unimaginable. So we need to educate our newer generation in conservation of the nature and lead a positive life. One of the most common plants are trees, shrubs, and etc… So what I believe is that if one can stand up, so can the rest. So let us spread this message and educate the people and lets bring every one close together. By doing this we will feel secure and feel a pride of achievement. Let us take this opportunity to pray to nature for it contribution in bringing us human in this world and giving us what we need most, OXYGEN.. Thanks

Planning on a trip

Its been some time that I realized that I need to go out and have a time of my life. But what I really need is to get financial help from the Bank to get my desired need. So tomorrow I am going to the Bank to seek for a loan of about $100K. This will be enough for my entire trip from Europe to Africa. But I need to convenience them that I can repay them back once I start work. My current salary is $5000. With that I can pay a monthly deduction of $500. This way I will be able to pay back the bank within 2 years of work. With that I need to carefully plan what I need to be bringing with me. First of all I need to make out a schedule of what I should be carrying with me for my whole journey. From my pants to shoes to my smallest necessities! With all of that I need to buy guide books to get information about the country and the culture and religion. With all this settled, I need to exchange currency. This are one of the most important details which tourists needs to consider before heading out for an adventure. So to all who are planning to have a time of your life. Plan carefully.

Money

What do we understand by the term, money! Well some say that money is the root to all evil. And some say money is everything. Well for me, money is both as mentioned as above. Now is the 21st centaury, money is a must. Without it, survival is very slim. We have to work to earn a living, just to feed our self and our family. The world has changed so drastically that even the happiest people from the poorest country, understands about money. It is may be the fact that they do want to live a comfortable life too. And use the latest gadgets. In this way, it is also polluting the people mind. That's why there are a lot of crimes going on every where. There are some who are even willing to take other life for the sake of money. So there are two side of money, just like human being. So to balance this theory, I will say "just like me, I know what is good and bad about my self. And the same concept goes for people who handle money".
Thank you.

Definition

Like they say beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. And beauty is only skin deep. What we forget to see is how well behaved is this person and how is his/her character. That's why we can't judge a book by its cover. Once we read it than we see the clearer picture. To understand this person, we have to have mutual conversation and good behavior ethics. Like they say the grass is greener on the other side. May be we might be able to have a good friendship with this person after some times.

To my Beloved

To my Beloved

Kartika.

Well the war seems almost over, and I have been looking forward to peace again.I missed you a lot and sometimes in battle too, I kept thinking of you. You are my inspiration for me being alive and hoping for a new day from the enemy bullets. Well I really missed the times when we would spend the afternoon with our two lovely kids together. By the way how is our lovely daughter Sandra and son Sam? I hope they are all right. And tell them that I am all right. And please tell them I will bring them their favorite chocolate when I return, and Papa misses them dearly. I believe the war will be over within a month. As we have now advanced in the border of the enemy line. What we really need is a good strategy to win this battle. Honey, please take care of yourself and the kids. I will be all right. I will write you within a week.
Bye for now

Love
Suman Rai
17 May 1945

To my dear

Suman

Well I am really happy to hear from you, especially our kids. They miss you a lot. Life over here is normal. Wouldn't it be ok if you came back earlier? I am very worried of you. I keep praying every night for your safety. And I can’t sleep till the wee hour of the night. Please reconsider your priority and come back. I can’t afford to loose you. Please come back early.

Love
Kartika
28 May 1945

To My Beloved
Kartika

I really wish to come back. But I really can’t, due to my contract with the National Army. I really can’t stand the blood sheds and the decaying bodies. And the pain the wounded are facing, it is really making me sick. But as we are emerging victory, I will fight for our country till we are victory. Don't worry about me, I will be all right. Just take care, and be a strong person for the sake of our kids.

Love
Suman Rai

15 June 1945

My Dear

Suman

Well I wish I could hold back my tears. Just yesterday Sally was asking me when you will be back. I had to lie to her you were working. So how long must I have to lie to our kid? I am praying that the war will be over very soon. Please be alert all time, and come back safely.

Love

Kartika

27 June 1945

To Mrs Kartika Rai

We are sorry to inform you that Mr Suman Rai PC 56789 is no longer. He was shot in the enemy crossfire early in the morning. He was a great soldier in the battle and with his fellow army men. We are deeply saddened by his sudden death. He will be remembered in our hearts as long as we live. He will be given a National Burial on the 15th July 1945. We will be sending his body first before we proceed his burial. Once again we are deeply sudden of his death.

From Captain
Mark

01 July 1945