US ARMY HARKA READY FOR A MISSION IN SAHARA DESORT
AND ME READY TO LEAD THE BATELLION..

DHAK AT HIS OFFICE. VERY STRESSFUL JOB AS YOU CAN SEE....

DHAK ME DHURBA

As life goes by, I can say that I am living and not regretting for any of my action. Except I wish I could settle the mess I am in as soon as possible and carry on with my life. This is what is expected in our life. Life is to face problem, or to create problem and to settle it within your capability. And than to face new problem and to settle it! I know I am, strong and I will succeed in whatever matters and problems I have created and to solve it. This is part of my phase of life. I guess the others life is a boring one, that’s why I believe I was created this way. I will fight till the end, till I cannot fight no more. So there is no time for regrets and regret is only a waste of time. So I have to make the best use of my time and to find a solution and solving it. All the best to me in what ever I am going to do.

29 October 2007
2240
In Vs Project Team Office, Listening to Pearl Jam "Last Kiss" song.
I know this is not the type of song i should listen to, but i am very lonely and i have no one to speak my mind. Wish i had a girlfriend who would listen to my problem cause she would be there for me, in every aspect of my life. But i dont have, so here lonely sad and no one to listen to my problem. But i know i have to be strong, one day everthing will be fine and i will find my true love. Till this song will comfort me now and make me strong.

We are the champ even if we lost(1st july 2007)

Well on 1st July, we lost in the quarter final, but we afelt like a champion. We were the best as we were the under dog for the competition. We held our head high and played to the last minute.

Like they say some time you win, some time you loose. So like a true champion, we accepted the result. But we will win all the next time...

We won, We are in Quarter(24th June 2007)

I guess 24th June 2007 will be one of my most memorable days of my life. It was almost 12 at noon, when we had our first match against our opponent Kakibunkai. We were losing 1 to nothing. After the first half I substituted Dhak in and the game turned to our advantage. In the early stage of the second half, he gave me a perfect pass and I volleyed passed the keeper. After that, we scored once more to win the game 2-1 eventually.
Our second game was against Alfonso. They were the security guard from VS Company. This game, we won by 1 to nothing.
Now we are 2 days to quarter final. Unfortunately most of my best player have work on that day. I requested for their release, but was denied. I wont blame any one. We will still play the quarter with or with out this player. I am hoping for a positive result. Till than I will write the rest of the coming events. I know that we will do well..

ME AND MY COLLEAGUE
HARKA
BEAUTIFUL SKY
MASTERPIECE

HARKA, KUL, KARAN, KEDAR AND MOHAN

MY COLLEAGUE AND ME IN THE STORE AREA

090207
0801 AM


THE LANGAUAGE OF FRIENDSHIP IS NOT WORDS BUT MEANING.
THE BETTER PART OF ONE’S LIFE CONSISTS OF HIS FRIENDSHIP.
WHAT WE ARE AND WHO WE ARE, HAS TO BE DEFINEDED.
WHAT WE DON’T KNOW IS HOW SPECIAL WE ARE TO SOMEBODY.
WE MAKE MISTAKE, BUT IF WE AMEND IT, IT IS CORRECTION.
IT IS BETTER TO GIVE THAN TAKE, SOMETIMES IT IS THE OPPOSITE.
WHAT MAKES A PERSON GOOD IS HOW SHE/HE CAN APPRECIATE LIFE AND DEATH.
THINKING IS GOOD BUT OVERDOSE OF IT MAKES IT BAD.
WHAT WE NEED IS ADVICE, BUT ALL ARE NOT ALIKE.
SOME TIMES, LETS LIFE COMES BY AND LET IT GO BY.
TO UNDERSTAND ONE SELF, UNDERSTANDS ETERNALLY.
LIFE CAN BE DEFINED UNIVERSALLY, BUT IT CAN BE DEFINED SIMPALLY TOO.
WHAT MAKES LIFE MORE INTERSTRING IS IF WE ARE ABLE TO RESEARCH MORE INTO IT.
SEEING IS BELIVING, BUT SOMETIMES IT’S DIFFERENT.
SO I WILL KEEP WRITING TILL I DIE TO MAKE MY LIFE MORE DEFINED AND UNDERSTOOD AND BE HEARD AND LEARNED

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A Miracle
090207 0727AM

I am lost, and I don’t know what I have lost. It’s like I am not the same old me and as if I am lost in some kind of vacuum of space. Just like a place of unknown, lifeless place where nothing can be done to be retrieved.

Maybe I will have to wait for a miracle or something else to restart my fire back again. I can only hope and hope and pray I will be given back my old self again. A ‘miracle’. But than again as time pass by and at the same time as my life goes by, I know I can never be the same again.

So to let my sorrow pass by and my heart to cool down, I can only write this to console myself. To keep me away from this harsh reality of sickness.

Dec 26, 2005 5:23 PM
Just writing...


Well I have been feeling a lot better for the summer if the winter had’t came..
It been very chilly for the past few weeks and it looks like it is going to be worse..
I have to prepare for the winter and do a lot of stuff needs to be prepared,,,
I don’t know how long I am going to survive but I have to keep on going as the race goes tougher. I cant just give up yet.. All though I am slacking at the moment.. I will not give up. I have to understand what I am thoroughly capable of.. One thing for sure I am in a race which will never end until my last breath… So I have to keep on going and keep on improving the race, by learning understanding and not to give up where I have achieved so far… Well there are times when obstacles arises and I have to tackle it no matter how difficult the situation will be.. There are sometimes that you have to do any thing to go past that obstacles.. I had been feeling low for the past years of my life, I guess this is the time for me to look ahead and say that there are opportunities for me and I can do something in my life rather than feeling dull and desperate and hoping for a better day, instead I must do whatever I can to make it a better day…Hope to achieve something. Good night

Well lately I have been smoking a lot lately and I think my lungs are as black as charcoal. I just cant quit it, I guess my habit are getting worse as the days goes by.. Like they say once you start, you cant stop it.. But again I believe I will quit one day, Although I don’t know when exactly but I will.. I have the faith

Met Harka and Baburam today at Gurrkha chok… It was a half an hour ride which cost me NSR 8. It was very packed and I had to stand almost through my journey till I got my chance when passenger alighted at Koteshor.. When I reached there non of them was there and I walked down the road to check if any one had arrived and looked for them. As I made back to where I alighted, there he was. Baburam his name had came. We had a brief hand shake and asked him where Harka was and learned that he hadn’t arrived and he was not a punctual person. So we decided to wait for him… finally he came and surprise his wife was with him. We did a brief hand shake and learned that he had came from his wife home and was taking her back to his home.. There again we had to wait for him. So I told Baburam that I wanted to use the internet and went to a near by CyberNet which I had earlier seen. As the place was packed and there was non available to use, we sat on a sofa since we were waiting for Harka and hoping at least one of the net will be available to be used.. We made some conservation and Baburam learned that I couldn’t hear from my right ear and told him I was deft right ear.. Finally one of the Net was available and I took it as Baburam followed me to the empty seat. I pressed on the button and used the Hotmail messenger and typed my user id and password. Once logged in Om was also on line and had a short chat.. As time passed by Baburam told me Harka should be arriving and we left the net and paid the counter NSR for the usage.. Then we went out to check Harka out he was no where to be found and we went in a coffee house and ordered two cup of tea.. In between we had chat… Harka arrived. We had many topics and one of the topics was that they were planning to open a business venture of FISH BALL. We discussed in a wide ranges from the ingredient to marketing to budgets. It is one of their idea to open up a market in Nepal.. In between we had ordered cups of tea and in one point I had ordered a Fanta orange.. Well the conservation lasted from 2pm till 0530pm.,, than finally we headed for home.
It is already morning and I still cant sleep.. did not sleep the whole night. 2 hours ago had followed my sister Kamala to the FM station for her first live show..Which is one of the criteria for her to be selected for a job in radio jockey..Well she did fine even it was her first live show. I think that she will be selected.





It’s almost three month and I am so desperate. I haven’t been doing anything and life seems wasted. I never thought that I will end up in this situation. I had called up Baburam and had asked him for the position for the petrol attendant. Hoping to get that job to start a career into the money business. D

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24012007
20:24PM

I CANT STAY HERE FOR LONG. UNLESS MY HEART CHANGES. I HOPE IT CHANGES FOR BETTER. I AM A FUCKING SICK PERSON. AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I AM SICK AND I AM REALLY SICK. I HATE MYSELF AND I WOULD RATHER DIE THAN LIVE. I CANT EVEN HOLD A SINGLE STICK. BUT MAYBE THERE IS A REASON TO IT. BUT WILL I BE ABLE TO TOLERATE THE SIGHT, WHICH I WILL BE SEEING FOR 3 YEARS. I WILL ONLY BECOME WEAK. I HAVE TO PLAN TO LEAVE THIS PLACE TO RELEAVE MYSELF FROM THIS MISERY. I KNOW I CAN BUT HOW CAN I WHEN IT IS SO CLOSE, YET WHO WOULDNT ACCEPTS ME BECAUSE OF MY STUIPED MISTAKE, CANT BLAME IT BECAUSE I AM TO BLAME. I CANT FORCE IT SINCE IT HAS ALREADY MADE UP ITS MIND, NOT LIKE MINE WHICH CANT EVEN DECIDE. I AM TO BLAME FOR ALL THIS FUCKING MESS. I AM THE ONE WHO SHOULD BE PUNISHED NOT HER. I AM SCARED THAT I MIGHT GO CRAZY OVER THIS ISSUE. BUT I AM STRONG, I WILL TOLERATE. ITS HAPPYNESS IS MY HAPPYNESS IF ONLY IT WAS FAR APART. BUT IT IS SO CLOSE. I AM TO BLAME FOR ALL THIS HURT. IF ONLY I WAS MORE DECEISIVE AND POSITIVE ABOUT IT. I AM REALLY SORRY ####. I CAUSED THIS PAIN TO YOU AND ME. PLAESE FORGIVE ME, AND I WILL DO THE SAME IF I CAN. BUT IF I CAN’T, I WILL PLAN, A PLAN TO VANISH AWAY FROM YOU SO YOU WOULDN’T FEEL THE SAME SUFFERING AS ME BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO STAY TILL THAN, BUT I CAN, SO I HAVE TO THINK WHAT IS BEST FOR BOTH OF US. I AM SORRY AGAIN ****. WISH THIS THING DIDN’T HAVE HAPPENED. AND I AM RELLY SORRY FOR THE HURT WHICH I HAVE CAUSED TO YOU AND I AM REALLY HURT DEEP INSIDE, BUT I WILL BE STRONG, CAUSE I REALLY RESPECT YOUR DECISION. WISH I COULD TURN BACK TIME AND CHANGED EVERYTHING, BUT I CANT AND I HAVE TO ACCEPT THE FACT.

Tragedy (041207)

The smile on her face was all that I needed to see, before I could rest in peace. I knew I was going to die, as I have battled the un curable cancer in my stomach for almost a year. As I lay in bed, trying to keep my smile as the pain keeps getting worse. Shuchi was crying beside my bedside. I tried to console her as I couldn’t bear her to see her crying. I told there was no point to be sad, as it will affect my condition. She put on a brave smile, but deep inside she was painfully wounded. As I was having a casual chat with her, she rushed out of the room as she couldn’t control her emotion. I lay there thinking back of what and how we had met up.
It was in 2001, I was working in a manufacturing company as a technician. It was my first day, and I was totally new to the company. I was supposed to be given an orientation by the clerk, but some how she was very busy with her work. As I wondered all by myself in the company, not knowing any one! Some would give me a smile, while some would say Hi. I was observing the place, when I came across an operator. I politely said hi, she responded with a hello. I decided to ask her that I was new and I was checking out the place, as she looked easy to communicate with and approachable. She kindly offered to orientate me. As I didn’t know the place well enough, I accepted her kind offer. She toured me around the place and described the purpose of the company. Finally after an hour, we came back to her designation area. I thanked her and proceeded to the office. In there the Clark told me she will orientate me, but I told her I had been orientated already and all I needed to know was what I was supposed to do. Once I was assigned what to do, the rest was history for the rest of the working hour.
Work was normal, and I would often meet up with Shuchi. As time passed, we were very close. And I could feel the affection I felt towards her, but I always kept it within. I was scared of rejection and I thought the time was too early to tell. 3 month had already passed, and I could tell she felt the same way as I did. But both of us never confronted each other for the chemistry we felt for each other, I guess. We will share good times and often have casual chat at work. But as time passed, the love for her kept getting stronger. One fine day, I decided to try my luck. I proposed to her, but she rejected it. I think it was due to my jokes from the past and the pranks I had played on her occasionally. That why she rejected my proposal. I was totally disappointed and was in total shock. After a while, she came back with a serious face and proposed to me. I was very surprised to hear it from her. She told me she was not playing any pranks on me. My mind was very surprised and all I wanted to respond was a Yes. But my words couldn’t come out from this shock that I received. Finally I accepted her offer by shaking my head. This was how I got to know her. It was only 3 years back, when we had a big quarrel and we split up. After which, I hadn’t seen her for the next 3 years. Now was here to see me in my death bed after one of my friend had told her. I did wanted to see her for the last time, but at the same time I didn’t wanted to let her see me in this state. But none the less she came to see me. The door opens as she enters with tears on her eye. She had bought some snack too. She sits beside my bed and combs my hair with her hand. I feel relaxed. As I ask her how she had doing the past 3 years. While chatting, the pain inside me from the cancer was unbearable but I control myself. I cough and cough, till blood flows out from my mouth. She tries to pat my back to control my coughing. But it was no use. She was about to rush out to get a doctor, as I grabbed hold of her hand. She screams to the doctor and nurses outside, but no ones come inside. I told her to cool down, but she keeps struggling to get the attention of the hospital crew. I told her no one will come, as all the hospital staff had been informed not to come in. As she hears this, she sits beside my bed and hugs me. She asks me why? I than told her that this was my last stage, and I will be dying soon. As I talk to her, she keeps crying and denies that I will not die. Finally after about some time, I could feel I was going to die. So I requested her to smile, as I wanted to see happy. She put on a brave face and smiled while she was crying. I felt so happy, as I was able to see the one I loved before I die. I advised her not to loose hope in life and carry on living. She just nodded her head. Than I reached for her to plant a kiss, before I could kiss her…………………

My Daughter

(060107)

Well today was a fine day for me, except for the hassle at work. Hi my name is Suman and I am working as a manager in a private firm. Now at home, I need to look after my baby daughter who is 3 years old, and her name is Kartika. She is my precious gems, because she is my only child and my only love. Well you see, my wife passed away when Kartika was born. And it has been a juggle of work and baby sitting my daughter. I don’t find it hassle, but the time spent on her is less. So she has to spend the day at the Child Care Centre and in the evening, I fetch her. She always gives me a hug whenever I fetch her. She tells me she hates the child care center. But I always tell her I have no choice, as I have to work to support ourselves. I don’t know if she understand, but she gives me a nod. I believe she understands it. Sometimes she would ask me why she does not have a mum like every one of her friends. I will try to tell her that her mum has gone for a long holiday. And she will return some day. This brings tears to my eyes. She will ask me why I was crying, and I have to lie to her that I have an eye problem. I know she will one day find out, but till date, I have to keep it from her. On Sunday, I will always make it a point to go out with Kartika, as I will miss her most of the time during the week days. I will take her to amusement park and shopping centre. She loves stuffy toys and I make it a point to buy for her. There was a point when I thought of getting a second wife to look after Kartika and the house. I have dated a couple of ladies, but non of them seems interested in my private life. I was about to give up, when my mobilerang. It was my friend Harka. He told me that there was this girl who is the perfect for me and my daughter. This remark he gave me since day one of my dating. Now I was pretty bored with his tactic, so I just gag in the line. But before I hung up, he told me she will be in JB restaurant at 8 pm sharp. Her names Helda. As usual, I gag and hung up the line. The rest of the day was fine at work, except for the constant thought of my daughter. Finally it was 5pm and it was time for me to leave and fetch my daughter. So I headed to my daughter school and as usual, she was waiting for me in the gate with a long face. But once she saw me, her face changed and rushed toward my car. I alighted and gave her a hug and asked her how her day was. She told me it was boring and asked why I was late.
We were home by 7 and I was about to prepare the food, when my mobile rang. I looked at it and it was Harka. Pretty pissed with him, I rejected his call. But it rang again. This time, I answered it. In the speaker, all I could hear was “Suman don’t forget 8 pm, JB restaurant”.I tried to explain to him, I cant make it, but he hung up the phone. So here I was one hour to meet this new girl and I was not even ready for it. My mind fiddle and I didn’t know what to do. So I asked my daughter what I should do. She told I should go. Now my problem was I had always left my daughter with the neighbour but I thought why I don’t take her along and she will reject me directly. So I quickly changed and helped Kartika change into a new pair of cloth. Now it was 7:30pm and it will exactly take me 30minute to reach JB restaurant. I quickly grabbed Kartika and carried her in my chest and rushed out the door. I hate making people wait for me. I started the engine and droved like crazy. My daughter was pretty excited to meet this lady, she mentioned how she looks and stuff like. I told her that she was very ugly and she always scolded small children and beat them. With out any knowledge of knowing her, as from the experience I received from my other relationship. At first she was a bit scared but later she told me I was lying. So I just explained to her that I too did not how she is like. Finally we reached the destination. It was already 10 minute late, I quickly parked my car and carried my daughter in my arm and rushed to the restaurant. The door opened and the waiter called me. Mr. Suman, Miss Helda is waiting for you in table 7. Well I figured out her name was Helda since the waiter told me so. As I put my daughter on the ground, I hold herhand and led her to the table. As we arrived to the table, Helda back was facing us. Now we were beside the table and I adjusted my throat to grab her attention. As she turned, she looked very pretty and I was dumb folded for a moment, until my daughter pulled my trousers and patted me on my leg as she spoke “papa she is very beautiful”. I didn’t know what to say, as Helda introduced her self and complimented my daughter. She squeezed Kartika on the chick and instantly grabbed and hugged her. I was surprised as Kartika accepted the hugging from stranger, as she often rejected the grabbing from other people. They got along so well, I forget that we were in the restaurant until the waiter came along to take order. I asked Helda what she would like to have for dinner. She ordered a steak, the same as mine. She also ordered for Kartika a kid meal. We chatted along the meal, as Kartika would often disturb her during her meal. I kind of found Helda attitude pleasing and felt some affection for her. After dinner, we walked at the park and kept chatting. After which we exchanged number to keep in touch. We keep in touch and she would often come to my place to meet up with Kartika and me. Now my daughter was livelier compare to the last time since Helda came into our life. She would fetch her and take her out if I was busy.Finally one day I proposed to her and we got married on 07 January 1978. As they say the rest is history….

Life Is Beautiful

(20 December 2006)

"1978", "1978", I heard my prison number being repeated in the hallway. I was thinking, finally I was going to get out from this cell after three decade of being locked up in the cell for the crime of murder. In the beginning I was sentenced for life, but I was pardoned for good behavior and being released after serving 30 years of my sentence. I was very confused, weather I will be able to adapt to the totally new environment, and how I will survive in this ever changing world. I knew of know one and no place to go for shelter. My wife of three years would have married off, as I told her to find a better husband, as I will never be released from prison. And I wonder how my daughter and son be doing in this current time, and weather they were with my ex-wife or with some one else. The thought of it made me change my mind of being release. I asked for the prison chief and waited for him. Finally he arrived and I told him, that I wanted to carry on staying in the prison, as I had no one and no place to go to. As I had grown closer with him during my sentence, he told me not to give up hope and everyone needs a second chance. He also told me some one would be waiting for me out side the prison. But I told him there was no one I knew of and there was a mistake about it. But he just advised me to not give up hope and wished me all the best. There I was not wanting to get out and a friend advising me to join back to society. I had no choice, but to agree with him. I started cleaning up my cell and met up with my jail mate, they bid me fare well. Almost every one I knew of bided me farewell and wished for the best. As I walked through the clearance room, I was wondering the harsh reality of the outside world than again I wanted to see it before I die. So with two different thought, I entered the room. Once in, they called me by my number and read through my sentenced and told me to obey the rule of the law and not to commit crimes.They wished me for the best, and gave me my belongings. After changing to a new pair of cloth, I was ready to leave. There was two police to escort me to the exit of the prison. As they led me to the exit, I was totally unsure of the image of the out side world. Finally I reached the exit, the door opened and the sun was shining brightly and I could smell the fresh air as I walked out, I felt free like a bird out of a cage. Bang, I heard the door closed behind me. Now out side, the place had changed a lot after serving 30 years of my prison sentence. There was some kind of mechanism that ran on four wheels something that I haven’t seen before starting my sentence. This amazed me. There were people doing their daily activity. As I was walking, I noticed a group staring at me. There were two ladies and a man. One of the ladies looked quite old and the girl and the boy looked young. I guessed the older lady must be the mother of the two. As I carried on walking, they kept looking at me. I was thinking they must have been curious as I just got released from the prison and avoided their look as I walked. Finally I had just passed a foot in front of them, when I heard my name being called. “Suman” I felt strange, as I didn’t knew of any one else. As I turned behind to look who it was, I realized it was my ex-wife Kartika. Her eye was filled with tears as she cried. She asked me if I had forgotten them in all this years while crying. I tried to hold back my tears but I wasn’t able to. I told her I missed them dearly and gave her a kiss and hug her firmly. Then I heard “Dad” called by the other two. Kartika then told me that two, were our kids. I felt so happy that my kids had lived with my ex-wife. I kissed and hugged them. I than asked my ex-wife, how she was doing and how her new husband was doing. She waited a few second and with a gasp she told me she hadn’t married and raised the kids all by her self. Now my eye was filled with more tears and realized how strong she was, as she raised the kids all by herself. This time I hug her even tighter and my kids concealed us. After about some time, we finally left. In my mind, I was very happy and thanked god.

Life is like a road trip
Just like us, as we are growing up
Always concentrating our direction
Filling up the petrol
To keep growing
This is the way to our road trips
That never stops
By: Suman Rai

Let us be thankful to what ever we have.
Cause it is different for the rest of the world.
Without effort and determination, we will not succeed
Cause cheaters only loose.
Let us be happy
Cause sadness will only bring sorrow.
And be thankful to the world
Cause without this world, we will not succeed.
By: Suman Rai

Some say life is too short.
Some say life is too long.
If only it could be balanced.
Like they say life is good.
Like they say life is bad.
But without it,
Life won’t balance.
There is equal in every thing.
This is the way of life.
By: Suman Rai

True Love

(07/12/06)

Like they say every rose has its throne, like every man has a woman. Well this is a story of a young man Suman Rai and his woman Rita. It started in a small town called Khotang in Nepal. It was the first day of college in the summer of 1998, Suman Rai 18years old first day of class. He was walking in the school premise, unfamiliar and totally new to him. Senior student totally stared at this newer student. Not only him, but there were other student too. And there was a whistling in one corner of the area. Out of curiosity, Suman tried to see what was happening. He couldn’t see the view, as other student blocked his sight. He approaches nearer to get a better view of the commotion. As he slightly pushed the front student to see what was going on, he saw a glimpse view of this person in front. He again pushed the front student. Now he had a better view of the person who was being whistled. Her face as sweet as honey, her eye as beautiful as ruby. Suman couldn’t take his eye of this beauty, he had never seen such beauty in his entire life. He was totally blown away and kept staring at her in a daze. He didn’t realize, he was in the middle of the path way. Other student had given way as this beauty was taking this path to her destination. Now he was blocking her, and she was approaching. Her path was blocked and asked him if he could give way. As Suman was in his fantasy and totally lost in reality, he didn’t respond. Now she was frustrated and pushed him hard. As he was pushed, Suman came back to reality. He was very embarrassed, as other student were jeering him. As she walked past him, he managed to slightly shout at her that he was sorry. She responded without turning, “whatever”. Now the jeering was even louder, and his face was so red that he bowed his head and continued his search for his class. He was walking at the ground floor and he came across his village friend, and asked him for the direction of his class. His friend obliged and showed him the direction. Now he got the direction of his class, he made his way to his class. Finally he approached his class. The class was full of student and the lecture had already begun. He asked the lecturer for permission and apologized for being late. The lecturer warned him not to be late again and asked him to proceed to his seat. As he faced the student, he could see some of their faces grinning. It could be because of the morning incident, he thought. He tried to avoid the look of their faces, and proceeded to find himself a seat. As the class packed, it was tough finding a seat. He saw an empty seat and proceeded to it, but the guy forbids him the seat. Now Suman was quite pissed of with him, so he looked for another seat. The same thing happened. Now he was wandering why this guys behaving oddly. His blood was boiling and he was about to quarrel back, when he heard a voice. It said, ”there is one seat vacant over here”. It was sweet and caring. He looked around to see who it was. To his surprise, it was the same girl that he saw in the morning. Now his face blushing to red, he slowly walked towards her seat. Now he realized why the other student didnt gave him their seat. In his mind he was thanking this other student. Now he was beside her. He pulled his courage to say Hi to her, but she didn’t respond. He pulled the chair and sat down while putting his bag on the floor. He thanked her in a soft voice, and introduced himself. She just nodded but didn’t reply back. He found her not sociable, so he just concentrated on the lecture. While the lecture was going on, he saw her name in the front of the book. It read Rita. He stole some glimpse on her. The more he spied on her, the more he liked her. Finally the lecture was over and it was time for their next class. As they had to go to another room, he took the courage to ask her if she was attending the next class. She replied yes and asked her if he could go with her as it was his first day of school. She nodded and they left together for the next class. While heading for the next class, she finally started to talk. She told him her name was Rita and she asked him his name. She even told him that she didn’t have much friend as she too just started school. Suman took the opportunity and told her that they could be friends since both of them were new in the school. They arrived for the class and the rest of the day was spent on lecture and tutorial. Finally class was over and they bid farewell and left for home. It was next day and Suman headed for class only to find Rita in the canteen alone. He took the courage to join her. She obliged and they both had their breakfast together. As 2 years of school was almost over, they had become best of friends. One day before the final examination, Suman proposed to her if she would like to go steady with her. She told him that he needs to wait, as she told him that she needs to concentrate on her University first. After their result, they headed for separate University and separate town, as both had a different faculty. But they promised that they would meet up after graduations.
Finally 4 years had gone by and Suman had a honors in Business. But he never forgets Rita. He longed to see her, and made a trip to her town. He searched for her every where, but couldn’t find her. But he never gave up.
Two years had gone by and he was working now in a Business firm company as a manager. He was a successful in his work, but there was always something lacking him. He dated other girls, but never came across any one like Rita. He always thought, “The first love is the deepest”. Any way he never gave up hope on her. He just continued his daily lifestyle. One fine day at work, he was invited for dinner at his boss home. At first he declined to go, but he was persuaded to go as it wouldn’t look good in the view of his employer. So he agreed to go. The day finally arrived and he gathered with his colleague to go to the employer house. They were greeted by their boss and they entered the house. It was large and beautifully decorated. Once inside, they helped them selves with the food and drinks. The place was big and there were a lot of guests. As Suman was having his meal and talking with the guest, he heard a familiar voice. He knew in his mind that he had heard this voice some where before. He excused himself from his guest and made his way to find this person. He approached nearer to where the voice was coming from. Now he was just behind her and excused her. As she turned, he saw that it was Rita after all. Thank god his search was over. He shouted with joy. She too recognizes him, and replied she missed him so much. They viewed back the times they missed together and alone. After which, as they say the rest is history.

Trapped (06/12/2006)

I couldn’t believe my eye. It was as though I was in dream land and I couldn’t control of it any more. I tried to escape but couldn’t. It was as though I was going to get stuck at this place forever. I tried and tried but it was no use. Finally I gave up and rested on the ground. As I was resting, I observed the cell. It was fully enclosed with an approximately 15 centimeter gap bar. The bar was thick. It was neither metal nor plastic. It was something different about the bar. Even the ground was sealed with bar. As I observed more, I realized there was no chance of escaping. I decided to sleep for a while to get fully energize. I was about to fall asleep, when I heard a familiar voice. Suman, Suman the voice said. I opened my eye to look for him, but couldn’t see him. So I shouted for him, and asked where he was. There was no reply for a moment. But there the voice came back again. I tried to find the direction of the sound. I frantically looked for him, but there was no sight of him. Then I heard his voice again, this time, I realized that he was shouting from a distance, as he mentioned where I was. I shouted back to give him the direction of my location by my audio signal. I realized he got the message as I could hear his voice nearing. Finally he arrived at my destination and asked me how I was trapped in this cell. I told him it was a long story and asked him to get me out of the cell first. At first he tried to use his strength to bend the bar, but it was no use. He than took out his machine gun and asked me to go to the corner. I made my way to the corner and he started to fire at the bar to break it. He shot a few round, until it cracked a bit. He observed it and continued firing to break it. Finally after around 20 round of shot, he managed to break 2 bar, just enough for me to get out. As the bar was hot from the firing, I waited for a minute to cool down. I than got out and thanked Martin, or else I would had starved to death. Now I was out, we decided to head back to camp.