well 1st June will be making my way exit from Nepal and going to
Abu Dhabi. Long sentance make it short, I am going there.......
Well kind of bored cause how much hours and minute and
not forgetting seconds are left for me to cherish my time here. It
only when i am there that i will start missing home. But a man got
to do what a man got to do. I feel half hearted and i am going on
a journey which i dont know whats it' like and have not thought of
it much cause i dont know exactly what the outcome is going to be
like. Well i Have to go and lets see the world out side asia. Middle
East here i come. Good Night.. Before i stop,, i called all the guys
my last call and the lucky guys to be here are, Harka, Nan,
Rajendra(Barns), Biray, Surya Samba, Pralhad, Sensa.. And of
course i gonna miss my family... So with a smile on my mind i will
be boarding my flight at around 20hrsplus and reaching there on the
2nd of June around 3hrs plus. So i write my last blog in Nepal
before i get out of Nepal.  So bye bye for now.

Hey 30th May and 12 more days for the inagural World Cup to be
offically opened in South Africa. Am i excited? No not really but
it is a 4 yearly competition for the countrys to participate so just
join in the mood cause this is how things works. Ha ha. Unless
there is other alternative. Well so how? Any way i dont have a
favourite team but if i have to choose the country that have
qualified than i would choose... um.. ok let me take Argrntina.
Although i dont really like them recently, where as when i was
younger i used to. I really am changing my perspective of this
kind of lame games cause this money pocketers are sucking up
the money from the commoners just to entertain the world. And
Best of all the cheque they are taking back are like so huge that
i dont think i will be able to earn my life time. I mean their monthly
cheque compared to my whole life work. So unfair. Its like a circus
which i think is pretty pair to the society where as the football is
like 80K people crammed in a single stadium and see 22 monkey
runnin for a ball. And if there is casuealty the 80K idiots which
jinx fools is going to die without any compensation. See what i mean.
Does it make any sense? Well this is just my comment thats all no
hard feelings. Well forget about that and something new.

Well nothing to say for now.

Well i will be sleeping now..

1109pm...

Uugghhh... I dont think i am that sleepy so why not waste time
writing something down. If it make sense or nonsense, i will just
try to write something. How fast time passes each and every
single day and suddenly you are like WHAT!!! Well this is reality
for every one not only those with big careers. Ya their only
advantage is that their is a bit of a bit advantage. You know what
i mean. After all everyone has a role in this world weather you are
a sinner or a saint. Time never stops and an act is always playing.
Its just part of human life. Some die early som die late, some are
lucky some jinx, some are always trying some need not. It just
part of ones life. So there is so many factor to think that some just
live life.. Well i am that fellow and i will do great things someday.
In terms of great which means what every one has been doing till
now cause the action which has happend already by others will
be great to me cause i have not experienced it yet. So for them is like
'what so great about it...." And for me is like 'Wow i am so and so.."
Than when new generation comes it will be for me 'What so great.."
Uugghhhh.. Understand what i maean. As of what i have written
a bit of it is sense and a bit of it is nonsense. See what i maen but
it is sure fun to write somrthing down. May be lets see how well it
goes later on.. Now's 1124pm and there is like 36 minute to
midnight. And Ramila just laugh ha ha and said 'How many times'
Well as the time passes so does our days of our rich lives. Most of the
time i am frustrated and so does everyone but when the time for the
lives stops that's when our priceless live stops and how much experience
is experienced in ones life. That's why they say 'Live your life like if
there is no tomorrow'. 

29th May 2010  1046pm

I am so fresh that i dont think i will be able to sleep the whole
night as i just woke up 30minute ago. I had fallen asleep from
watching television after dinner around 8pm. It was not agood
habit as this has affected my sleep at night. For the past few
month since arriving back to Nepal i have been sleeping very
late at night after mightnight. Sometimes almost when the
sun is almost rising. Its just that i am so sick back in my country
that affecting my lifestyle. I try to adjust myself but due to too
much outside of Nepal caused me to feel this way. Now i will
be going out again any moment soon and i think i will be lost
in my search for career. Its not something big as i am doing
some jobs which i think will not lead me far but just survival.
In the end i have to come back to Nepal and get lost again.
I really hate it but this is how i have to face every now and
than. I dont know how my job will lead me this time or how
i will lead my job. This is something i have been fighting
for cause i am in some shit which has made me do a bit
of this and a bit of that. Well 32 is a big age and i think its
sweet to be sweeter and am happy about it. Like my dad
used to say "Do something and Die".. I am doing something,
and the only thing is am i doing the something??? Well i
dont know if its the choices i made wrong or the lack of
seriousness that i lack. Or is it the passion that i lack. Well
32 is a very difference as i look at people around me. Maybe
maybe.. later on.. Abu Dhabi here i am going to come.
I am not so enthusiastic or am very proud that i am coming
there but i will say i made some good choices and some to
write in my resume or my life story. I am not so proud and
am not emberessed that i am starting a job that is expected
of my study case.. well let just say i made a right choice with
the help of my sis. Thanks and looking forward to the flight
as everything is cleared from the interview to the visa, insurance
and the clearance from Nepal Foreign Employment. Just
waiting for the e-ticket for the flight.
Back to where i am now, will i be able to sleep? I have to
cause no choice and i will try to. Ha ha.....

Well well its been very long after all.. May be i am getting bored or..
i dont know.. Well firstly i feel i am not improving on this blog or
what.. Ugghh.. Never mind.. Try to write somrthing rather than
nothing.. So as far as i can say i am not in good moods lately cause
too much time wasted and nothing learned i can tell. DOnt care is my
attitude which makes me sulk.

Well looking forward to some things.. ANd trying to write more..
Next time hopefully..

Well as far as i can say its been so long since i have typed...
So far so good and life is going on smoothly and i am happy
to be able to say something. So lets see how things will
work out...

Well now almost midnight which means 25th of March...
Returned on 19th around 4 plus local time and its great
to be back home after so long and i am on top of the world..
No regret time to move ahead cause long road ahead to
conquer.. Well its been 5 days and i am helping out at
home plus winter almost over least experiencing the
cold climate fading.. Well lets see what i am going to do
for the later part.. ok chow for now...

Well a new day and i am very fresh.. I just bought a new
spectacles which cost me 310 and the vision is very blurry
due to my old glasses that i have been wearing.. I mean it was
kind of old like 5 years old and due to the bad clearity my
sight have been bad. Ok so far so good, had to say no choice
if not the mood will follow the bad side so being positive is
a good thing..

Now almost 1913hrs 6th of Feburary 2009 and i am surfing the
net to pass the one hour mark.
Nice pictures i am checking out.. And it brings out good thoughts
in my mind. I guess i am happy where i am and happy for the
others where they are cause its changes that i am seeing rather
than the same things thats happenning. Really cool...

Well thats all for now..

Well The new year started and its almost 1/6 of the year..
How time goes by so fast that i seemed to loose track of it..
And now the time has come for me to revive and to start
my life a better of the second half and i am ready for it..
Time is the other factor and patience and clear thinking
which i have to carefully use and of course there is reward
for every thing if the combination is complete and its just
natural cause of the exposure of the initial.. Later on its
normal life. So how will i fare, time will tell and i know i have
to do it..

Any way 2010 already started and left's like 10 more month to
2011.. Hey wait.. i am getting older, i mean my age.. not my
youth.. ha ha.. But i think i am missing out too many things..
I have to catch up and go a step ahead of it.. so how???


Ok todays Thursday.. 5th Feburary 2010 and the time is
1346hrs and now i am at Sungai Long.. Just came back from
KOta Raya from LaliGuras restaurant due to some work..
And one step cleared and leaves many steps to concoure..
Feeling very fresh cause before this had an apple and a
yogurt.. Need to get vitamins too for my body.. Cause this
body is only for this life and i need to take care of it for tomorrow.


Been so long have not written anything on the blog so
trying to make up for the lost time.. Any way i ahve wrote
some songs in Nepali with the molody from the guitar
which sounds almost the same for all the songs.. Any way
its my song and its for personal pleasure so why should i
give a shit what others say.. But still its comforting singing
and playing the guitar to keep me balanced..

OK my time almost up.. so this is it for now.. The alert
for TIME UP icon just popped out telling me to either
pay for another hour or my time is almost up..
\ ok chow for now..

Well 11/11/09
The same pickpocket tried to pocket again but
i was alert enough to realise what was going to
happen and avoided it. Any way i think they
were unsuccessful in pocketing their Negro
victim as from the scene he did avoided..
Well this pickpocket are a bunch of gangs
comprising both sexs and lucky for me as i
monitered their behaviour. And its best not
to be hero in my case as they might counter
accuse me as one of their partener a female
was beside me. I kept sitting down not
wanting to give up my seat to the elderly as
what one of the suspect did to make me
feel felial pity for the aged people. Well like
they say once bitter twice shy and be careful
in this kind of situation..
(September 23 and October things got lost)
My past misforctune..

Any way now at library waiting for 2 more days and i almost
can feel the roller coaster breeze cause its going to be very
fast and i know i will be 'someone'.

Ok chow for now and till than Next Time..

Well well well its been so long that i am kinda losing interest
in the blog that i have created. But i try to remember it even
though.. So far so good and so bad.. Its the package in life.
Well well well.. Ha ha ha.. Cant complain can i? Even if i..
Its the package.. Well well well.. Huh dont know what to
write.. Just bla bla bla.. How times changes everything from
who i was before and who i am now. From physical to
mental changes i am evolving. Very rare cause it would for
most of others would be mental changes. I did not realise
i was changing into my physical as well.. Bla bla bla..
I dont really know until some one notices cause i cant
tell if its really that changes are evolving... So let me be the
new person if i am.. so stopping here my typing and go for
the news...paper...

Another day and another time of a new dimension to follow the path of
something which we all have in common. How the times of changes
leaves us in a parallel dimension and makes us wonder how it is really
what we are and would it be a matter of our existence? I am longing for
that answer and so do the rest of the species. What are we really
looking for and what are the changes thats keeps our mind distracted
and makes it focused on others? Is it something that what is undeliably
something. Curiocity are the fact that makes me write such stuff and
i dont know if i will find the answer to my question or rather everyone
Question. I have always wondered in my thoughts and its a vast wide
thoughts thats seemingly 90% illusions and thats what keeps me
occupied most of my time life maybe 60% to where i am today.
Its something which we cant get our focus out of and its really
sometimes a piss of the mind. How strange are we and how do we
tackle such things.. There are answers to it but will i be able to make
it. I think do it than again it just drift my concentration and i get
lost in my own world. Well i am confused and maybe i should get
my mind focused on something rather than just get lost in my
thoughts. It would kill the life out of me and maybe i might be
someone one day. How i wish to eloberate more and am thinking
i need to do something to change to be a beer person of who i
am currently. Todays 15 October and the time is 1014am and
i am doing my best to be. 2 more month to 2010 and am getting
older year by year. Seems like only yesterday and now its like
how times goes so fast and i think i am missing so many things
of my talent and i am learning every bit of my inner self and kind
of trying to let go of my past and concentration forward. Ok so
far i am in positive mode and lets see how long thats last..
Ok next time more..

Well another photo from courtesy of Kamal Gurung back in 2007 or 8 cant remember in Johor Bahru near Singapore Border. Well cant believe i am looking too old.. Maybe age is catching up.. Ha ha.. Well this was before Kamal left for Australia.. He is there by now..

Here harka and Kamal at the Starbuck.. Well thanks for the drink Kamal.. I mean of course u have to to cause comparing the dollar and ringget. its sure was vast in difference..

Well i always kind of felt this was very different of me.. well getting too old.. thanks Kamal found it at facebook while just surfing..

Well this was i think in 2004 or 5 or 3 cant really remember but it was at National Stadium.. This was the place where i was almost turned into a Negro..Even my dad called me.. well got it feom Om Prased facebook.. although i am not here.. we had a good coperation working together..

Well so long yet so deprerssing are the words to be written here.
What can be so new is a depriciation of the life of mine.
Dont know what exact words to type.. but to type something.
How time been wasted or what defination words can i write...
Just a waste of some of the days of smeere waste i guess.
Hoping something which is hopeless and not giving up the
thought of loosing everything.. Well its life after all..
I think its makes us stronger or weaker in cetrain phase of
time and doing the most is to.. checking out photos in
facebook and its sure good way of wasting time cause
mind of brain not working and its damned to lazy to other
things except to see the times goes by. Its sure good way to
relax the yime which i will for sure later on think what the
hell did i do with the precious time.. This is what happens when
the brain losses the moment and later on say such stuffs..
Sometimes its just inspires you and sometimes its just makes you
feel different.. You know most of the guys are out and seems
very lonely.. i mean who do they have the same batch of friends and
a few new guys.. its like lost in the desert.. the smiles on their
faces looks very fake this is what i think.. All our life being a
foreigner and now dont know if career can get the foundation
in a new environment.. Trying their best to live a lie., I kind of
feel sad foe them and many things.. Its like when a girls gets married
and have to stay with her husband..I guess this is what most of the
general people are doing to carry on i think.
I felt i wanted to go to but as time passes my mind set keeps
changing too. Still i am confused. Here stuck in my own fucking
mess and no way to look forward and even if i do.. what are the
chances of success?? this is the delimma that i am in and i am
fucking it away and just pass time and see what happens after all
i am living this life and like i say not everyone are supposed to be
BOSS n everyone of us are different generally. So WIth a smile on
my face i am typing this sentance of damned nonsense. But somehow
i feel like i will make it and somehow i feel like will i be able to. Only
time will tell and seems like new friends are not much of a help cause
their aim are not as high as what their limit are and thats what keeps
them satisfied. May b i am asking too much or maybe my mentality
is so wrong. As i think there seems nothing wrong to think too high
but may be the direction i am going wrongly. But i dont know other
ways.. there is but it wrong..ha ha.. lets see.. only tiem will tell
So chow and next time..

23 September 2009 1010am
and its a beautiful Wednesday to start of the day formally. Saying and
feeling are two different meaning to speak the mind and after the hours
has passed and the reality of the thought comes to conclusion but thats
life isnt it? Well its the world we live in and many complication arises
and we are not sometimes certain of the objective. But i am also
sometimes not certain what i am writing and it can be a nuisance and
you dont have to really believe what i write. Its just pass time and no
other words to define it.

999

Well another special year and the opportunity to type my view.

999 as they say 9th Day, 9th Month and of course the year 9

which is a special combination number to be cherished. Not this

lifetime of others are able to witness this day may by come another

100 years later. Well like 888 i am truely able to write something.

Last year there was Dhurba and Ravi to type something in my blog.

But this year i am alone to write my self and i guess its the way of

ones life to be described. How the one year has passed and many

thing has happened and knowledged gained or loss. I dont really

know the answer to that but to use it as new lease of times comes

by. Be it better or worse, its just the way of life and to deal it with

the outmost way possible. Life is after all a life. Nothing will change

the way it should be heading. But without the presence of everyone

it makes life dull after all. Many ways to see it after all. And i guess

its worth every single seconds of it and 999 its great to be alive and

going. Hope i will be able to write again on 101010... Ok my ending

is i am who i am and i did no wrong what i did and i will do what i

need to do and i am happy who i am. Cause there is only one ME.

So to others, there is only one YOU. So....

5th September 2009 903hrs..
Fundmental is a certain words which we have to apply in our daily
life. Without it, mass theory will be lost and i have made a mistake
and many will along the way. We learn and make mistake too
often that we dont realise where we are or who we really are. And
i have been there and still there unless i change my way of thinking
of the very basic way of fundamental. I come to understanding
whats past is past and this is one last opportunity for me to change
and make my life better for the coming days. Yes there are other
opportunity along the way but it goes back to the basic and we
have to accept that. To be able to start in the middle i need the
needs of my ability to go above the middle to the higher. Or else
i will always have to start low no mattter where i will start. Hard
work is another things that is very important to the success of the
road ahead and i will write my progess as i go along. This is one
big opportunity and it will not come again.. There are limitation
which i have to face it or better explain to them. Lets see how it
really goes in the coming weeks to come.......

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