As i turned to look to the sight my mind had flashed across when i was
turning just about. It was a vivid memory of a look coming from
across the street. The very familiar face once i knew but my brain was
not working out who this person was. I tried to recall upteem times but
i just could not get what i wanted. My brain was dead and i was trying to
scan back every detail out of my past. I realised that it was no use any
longer as it just could not come and...

Well above is something i wanted to write but i could not carry on as i
am lost of idea and sentance. I think i need to improve more on my writing
in the near future.

Ok Saturday the 18th July 2009.. A bright morning and infact very
beautiful minus the haze. So what better way to have a bread and coffee
before my day starts. So life seems so very.. I dont know cause it no use
planning when you are not under your roof especially like me in LUAR
NEGARA(Foreigner). Ok its like this for me for the last 23years of my
life. So i am not settlled yet at a fixed place and i think it will not be my
last either.. May b once i go back i might search other area too. Cause
my country of origin has nothing to offer but many thing we individuals
have to contribute. It sad but true and i want to contribute maybe once
i am more stable. If not its ok.. at least we have the thought.

So as you know august coming soon and i been thinking lately of
returning for good. But the futures uncertainty cause the economy still
not too fixed up. Can have some hic-ups as whats goes down needs
time to come up and there might be obsticles along the way and due to
gravitional force it might plunge back. Never know, it all depands on the
stock player and the world. As you know North Korea their ass kind of
itchy and keep farting german gases and Terhan or Iran back to Moulsive
or Ahmadejin. And there are the disaster of plane crashing one after the
other. First the Air France crash on 1 June 2009 than Yemani crash
on and now Iranian Airways so it can be coincendital.. Its like a chain
reaction of some kind of ill fated fate. Well i am not too sure but my
condolance to all the dead and to their family and friends. Well we still
have to live and speaking of live my nature call is asking me to release.
But once i release this PC than i dont think i will be able to get it back.
I will try to hold on for some time just to surf a while longer..

Mondays coming and i am geared up for something and thinking of
a roller coaster journey if my fate comes along. Never know whats
written till i find out myself when the time comes and of course i
have to put in effort if not how will the ride comes about.

So this week end might be weeding or just passing and i really hate
to waste time. So hope my ends are worh of justification of how it
will be spent. Later at least one part of my right or left brain will say
ya i did that.

So i just edited my profile in facebook cause i am getting irriteated of
it. Cause its like a i dont know but i think i have other better things to
do than surf such things. So my bladder saying faster and i want to
hold on longer cause i have not finished yet..

Now finally i have finished what i was here for ok next time i will
write more..

Well here i am again.. Its really nice to be back and to type what my fingers
wants to type.. Its just blows my mind away and i am just writing what my
minds comes about. I think its unique or more nuiscance to do but the best
part is at least there are more pages or sentances for me to refer in the
coming times of passages. Even some of the things i have written previously,
i dont seems to understand mysely. I mean what i had wrote and i dont
understand what i have written. Well thats me.. maybe i did not check back
what i have written.. Cause i am really not so into checking.. you may call it
lazy or anything thats comes to mind.Any way most of the things that i have
typed are not the most 100% understandable and i can assuse readers like
me getting lost and frustrated. Actually i dont care cause this web page is
ment for me and only me. Lets forget this bullshit that i have written and
go on to.. 1031am 17July 2009 Friday. And like i previously written, its
mostly hazy in south east asia due to forest fire in Indonesia and Malaysia.
The country wants to clear lands to do some kind of shitty business and
to save a single cent they burn the forest blaming the heat to illegal
burners.. This fucking basterds are only after money.No standard practice.
But think again maybe they have no choice cause the big fish are the real
culprits and by the time it reaches the contractors he would have no choice
but to fire the place. This is called corruption. Frankly speaking corruption
is everywhere especially in asia. Especially developing nations. This are
the country where vast industralisation, economy are taking place.
And to get richer the rich are taking every opportunity in the corruptial way
to get rich. Cause like they say there will never comes a second chance and
since the countrys vast, the saying goes. If he/she did not get caught so would
i. And this lead to more greed and in the end a very corruptial nation. Well
money is the cause but it is true the population are too vast that greed is the
answer. So 90% has to stop dreaming of becoming rich. Any way i my self
dont know what i am writing. Well weekends round the corner and currently
i am reading Millionare secret(Frankly the titles i am not too sure). This is
another good book which i have alread read 1/4 and i find its a good
book. It not about how to win money, but a true story of JJ who wins 10million
pound(wow all that money). Well he gets all kind of trouble and how he nearly
got into a lot of trouble. Any way it tells of how he acted as sugar daddy to get
love. But non lasted and how he used a lying method to find true love.Any have
not finished the book but i can tell it a bit hilarious and very true story. Any way
i want to win like him too to get start my life. If not i accept a humble life. Ok
back to my life week end and i dont know where to go. May be the times
square to relax. I think its best thats way. I have not told you that they have a
first indoor theme park in Malaysia. It has rollercoaster and all kind of thems
coaster or what they are called exactly. Although i have not tried, i am
sure i will not try those super speed. May be the tortise speed i might try.
Cause i remember exactly in Singapore inside Haw Par Villa where there was
a boat ride and it was floating slope down 45degree at its own speed or
gravitional force plus the weight of us and you can imagine the high velocity..
twice it had to float slope down45degree and i was already in the first ride i
could not take it.. I mean i am not a coward or what ever its called, but speed
i just could not take it the sheer shock. may be it phobia.. i dont know but i
accept who i am and i cant take speed shock.. so back to times square it really
a nice place to be.. and the place is like 9 story of shopping
malls. There are i think more than 500 different shops to look around.. from
A-Z you can can find anything you are looking for( i mean middle class) Guys
this is a shopping mall not a rag and bone shop.
I have been thinking lately how should i take things cause 2 or less month is left
before i go back its been a hell and heaven experience for me in this place. Its
so different and i can tell i have never experience this kind of life iin my entire life.
It has opened my eyes bigger and also made it smaller. But more wiser or
foolisher. I dont know only time will tell as i move along. Dont know lets see how
it goes by.Well tonight i am going to have tapioca cause i just pulled the fruit from
the ground and its kind of big but i managed to only extract one roots.May be i
will go earlier and pull more if i can..which means the more the merrier..any way
its getting cold and i am just trying to write more.. i think i better not cause my
brains not working..Any way the times 1129am

Ahh.. i am here agian to write nonsense.. Todays Wednesday and its kind
of dark outside cause raining.. As far as i heard that its monsoon season
in Nepal and maybe the climate is blowing south.. I dont know exactly
but if i can i can check it in CNN weather forecast.. But to do that i have
to find cable network.. May be i should forget about it.. Any way its
natural to rain and shine.. Its makes the weather more finer compared to
sunny too much. Well i just finished reading a book titled RUNAWAY..
Its a good book telling a story of a girl how she actually faced the world
with her being abused and how she longed to get love from parents and
how she saw the life as a whole.. I actually love reading it.. I mean in my
life, i mean my whole life i have never read more than 5 novel.. But the
more important thing is that i finished it within a week.. I mean it took me
more than a month to finish a book in the past.. So you see the difference..
Any way i have targeted another book.. yet to start reading.. think its a
good book. The times 1127hrs and 15 July 2009 Wednesday.. Like
i said earlier its raining or drizzling.. so as usual i am going for a smoke
soon..

Courtesy of Ex-Gc fellow


Well what have we here.. some of the old games we used to play..
I mean it was very popular in our time or back in the days..
Brings back old memory..




Courtesy of Ex-Gc fellow

Bee-Bee.. this was the snacks we used to fill our tummy
back then.. as it was kind of popular.. i think..
ya it is.. memory slowly comong

The GC

The entire contingent is housed in Mount Vernon Camp, which is their one-stop location for work as well as personal life. While most new recruits come to Singapore alone since they are usually in their late teens or early twenties, they are allowed to bring along their wives and immediate family members to Singapore as they move on into the next phases of their personal lives.
Ultimately, the officers know they are here only on a temporary basis, further enforced by the fact that they are disallowed from integrating too much with local society. Due to their chief purpose as a neutral presence here, they are not allowed to marry Singaporean women, hence the allowance to bring their wives and children from Nepal to the camp. At the end of their contract, they are expected to return to their villages and back to a rural life dependent on agriculture. Only a handful have ever been known to have broken this tradition and chosen to stay in the city-state.
The camp itself is built on a relatively secluded area in Mount Vernon, taking over facilities previously occupied by the reserve units. Comprehensive facilities to create a self-contained township-like complex allows most daily chores and needs to be fulfilled within the camp without too much interaction with the outside world. This also helps to reduce the amount of traffic into and out of the camp for security reasons.
Still, dwellers in the complex are not prohibited from leaving the camp or utilising services and facilities outside it. Throngs of school-going Nepalese children regularly leave and enter the camp everyday, wearing the uniforms of national schools. The camp's close proximity to Bartley Secondary School has seen a significant number of Nepalese children being enrolled there, although they can also be found in schools much further away as the children become gradually assimilated into Singaporean society and culture. They cannot sink their roots deeply, however, as most of them are in the country on dependent passes, and are compelled to leave Singapore when they turn 21.
Still most of these young Nepalese are unlikely to follow their fathers' footsteps, and armed with education certificates, are expected to lead quite a different life compared to previous generations should they return to Nepal. They also have the liberty to apply for employment passes to work in Singapore, as is the case for any other foreigner seeking employment in the country, and it is possible to obtain permanent residence and even citizenship, although these young Nepalese receive no special treatment in obtaining permanent status.
The surrounding commercial outlets thrive on business brought about by the Nepalese community based here, and it is a common sight to see officers doing their daily recreational runs around the major roads close to the camp, albeit always in civilian running attire and running alone or in small groups to avoid drawing too much attention to themselves.
The Gurkha community has been known to extend aid to their fellow Nepalese in Singapore, such as during the operation to separate the conjoined twins Ganga and Jamuna at the Singapore General Hospital in November 2001, where they helped to raise funds for the medical procedure and daily expenses, accommodated the family at their Mount Vernon home for a period of time, and assisting in making logistical arrangements for the family's transportation and other needs.[7]
Back in Nepal, the Gurkha Welfare Trust seeks to preserve the legacy and heritage of the Gurkhas with the opening of Gurkha Memorial Museum in the premises of Hotel Nature Land at Pardi, Pokhara. There, uniforms and badges of the GC are on display together with those serving with the British Army [7]. Locals and tourists alike have visited the place, a reflection of the high regard local Nepalese hold for their counterparts who have served in these overseas organisations.
Despite their temporary employment basis, it is considered highly honourable to serve as a GC member back in Nepal, and there is always a ready pool of young men eager to join the contingent, with well over 20,000 applications seeking to join the British Army or the GC annually for just 370 places. The good income, way of life, and the affordable and excellent education for their children (or future children) are further draws. With the increasing concerns against terrorism and the continued security threat Singapore face, it is likely the GC will have an increased and sustained role in Singapore's future, despite original intentions of the contingent itself as a temporary security measure during Singapore's early turbulent years.



Mount Vernon Camp, also known as the Gurkha Cantonment, is an establishment of the Singapore Police Force built to house the training and residential facilities of the Gurkha Contingent's Gurkhas and their families. Located at Mount Vernon near to the secludedness of the Bidadari Cemetery, it has undergone expansion on the hilly terrain, particularly with the introduction of modern, high quality high-rise housing blocks for the over 2,000 officers and their families-in-tow.
The road leading into the camp is named Kathmandu Road after the capital city of Nepal. Built as a self-contained complex due to security concerns to minimise movements into and out of the complex, it has its own shops, schools and even playgrounds for the younger children, which contingent commander Bruce M. Niven equates to being a township all on its own.
Dwellers in the complex are not prohibited from leaving the camp or utilising services and facilities outside it. Throngs of school-going Nepalese children regularly leave and enter the camp everyday, wearing the uniforms of national schools. The camp's close proximity to Bartley Secondary School has seen a significant number of Nepalese children being enrolled there, although they can also be found in schools much further away as the children become gradually assimilated into Singaporean society and culture. The surrounding commercial outlets thrive on business brought about by the Nepalese community based here, and it is a common sight to see officers doing their daily recreational runs around the major roads close to the camp.
Phase 2B of the complex expansion commenced in 2001 costing S$42.2 million and added 93,568 m2 of largely residential space. Designed by PWD Consultants and built by the China Construction (South Pacific) Development Co, it was completed by 2003 [1]. The complex continues to undergo physical upgrading works today, with the government setting aside another S$47.8 million for the expansion works being carried out from 2004 into 2006 [2].


About 2,000 Gurkhas contribute to the Singapore government. After 6 years of service they are allowed to bring their wife and children to Singapore until the end of their service. However their children are not allowed to stay after reaching twenty-one years of age. If this rule is not met, they can be arrested by the immigration authorities. The children are only allowed to study in Singapore. The children along with their wives are also not allowed to seek any kind of employment

I happen to find this drawing

somewhere. It was drawn in

the office and scanned and

emailed. Think it should be

almost 2 years old or lesser.

I was just kind of bored and

just for pass time drew it.

Well today 28th June 2009 time 1010am and theres like 3 days more for

me to wait for.. Ok i have to be more patience and think of the... I really

dont know what to say.. Well i better forget what i am supposed to say

only i know what its suppose to be.. And than well i am now surfing

facebook checking photo.. I mean nothing to surf so just surf whats on

the sites. Ok its very not so interesting after all. I mean its childish if

you need to write what you are doing every now and than when the net is

running 42hrs non stop. It like no life at all.. even if u shit u will have the

habit to write in the web. Well this is the new generation of getting in

touch with friends in cyber especially when its run 24hrs.. Like i said

just be careful what you write.. Dont just.. cause you never know when

you without knowledge write something thats so sensitive that you

wish you would not have.. Any way i been thinking its not so out of

this world after some time of using it.. I kind of felt bored but there are

no other sites that i have known thats why i am sticking with facebook.

So enough of this shit and i feel i need to keep my blog personal. cause

there are sensitive things in and it may cause damage to some others..

i mean i cant satisfy everyone.. even sometimes i feel like what the hell

did i write.. with this just imagine the people reading it.. They have all

kind of stupid views or trying to be smart ass. So its best to be isolated.

I aint earning anything by writing this but for my future refrences. So

why must i need to share.. I think i will for the time being and keep it

open.

So here i am agian.. cant think of what to write.. all the
thoughts that was in my mind its all gone and i am
kind of lazy what to write except to waste time..
Well let me make up some story so to fill the gap
of my time.. Well actually i got a Gap jeans which is
very unique so far what i have worne till now. so what
so special is that its more loose than compared to Levis.
I always felt Levis was ment for me.. but some how it was
always too tight even when i wore loose fitting.. than i
found Gap.. It was totally out of this world.. it felt very
comfort and its button,, not jeep.. any i been trying to
find another pair but i dont seem to find it.. and my
current ones almost worne out.. looks like i have to
use other brands.. just to hide my lower body.. Well
other than my jeans.. i have 2 t-shirt which i bought
in Nepal costing Rs500 each. The brands Tommy
Hilfier.. but its China made and the quality really sucks
and i dont have the heart to throw it away cause my
1st sis accompanied me to buy it some where at New
Road in Nepal.. So even its bad quality, i still cherish
the moment with my sis. Well i used to miss too many
things.. but as time goes by i realise i was not missing
instead i was simply not thinking.. The brain is so
very stuipid that its goes round and roumd making
ones confused.. and i have to learned to look beyond
the circle of trap.. i realise time will only be the factor
thats going to heal and to hail our life.. Oh todays 26th
June and how time flies. Cant believe i am in such mess.
Dont know if i would be able to solve but it does not
matter cause at least i have tried or thought of it.. no
regret or what so ever. Only time will tell the out come
than again head will spin cause thats part of life. And i
been thinking lately to be able to do somethiong about
the crises in Nepal.. But than again thats a differnt story
maybe i will share it in the future even if i cant do it..
Well back to Malaysia.. i with Goa(actual name Surya
Limbu) went to meet some guys in Jalan Imbi on the 23th
June to collect some document. There were like 6 guys all
older than me. Called them Dai and like all Nepali tradition
had wiksy and lunch with them. And of course to spend
time in Malaysia the only other pass time was to play
Marriage.. Its a game card thats contain 3 deck of 52 cards.
And 21 cards are distributed to each player.. Minimun 3
players and maximum 5. Its kind of a good way to pass
time.. Any way we left and on 24th i got a messae that
one of the guys again invited. not sure why.. i just went
along and found that he wanted to teach him basic in
computer.. He had just bought a new Lap top and he wanted
to learn. well i did not hesitate and taught him the basic.
After which i left around 10 plus in the morning.. The
lap top was sure nice thing to use.. It had Wifi plus
bluetooth.. Although the HD was less.. Any way its good
to owe a lap top.. It kinds of remind i used to owe a few
back than. One of the first was a AST computer back than
may be around 1995.. Its was a windows 3.1 operating
system.. Although i did not really made use of it that much
i learned some basic.. Than came along HP later on with
windows 95 and Windows XP than the Acer Laptop..
Well it was sure good to owe such brains but now it
does not matter and at least i am planning to owe one soon.
Now the times almost 1107am in the morning and i am
feeling a bit colder due to the aircon.. I really want to do
is to go up and raed the paper.. rather than surf cause its
so easy to surf but reality is true.. Web site just so easily
steal information from the papers where Journalist pay
so much effort to cover the story and web just in a few
clicks steals and it int he web.. Its like u cook your lunch
and your room mates finishes it.. Well the computer
wireless died and most of the things i wrote was not
saved.. so with this.. is all that i can post.. now
almost 1700hrs.. ok

Well its been so long i have not written and well many things
are about to change. And its a drastic super fast changes thats
coming my way.. Kind of in rush now..

U41

18 June 2009 around 1630hrs plus, as usual i had boarded U41 bus
from Sugnai Long to come to my work. It was almost empty as usual.
I took my seat at the usual spot at the handicap seat. (As for the interior
seat arrangement, from the enterance of the bus to the exit the passanger
seat is facing each other at the side. From the exit to the back end the
seat is faced front.) The one reason why i take this seat is because the
air-con is cooler at this particular spot, i dont really know the reason
but i observed it. And at the back, it gets hotter cause of the engin and
i dont think the bus is serviced on time. By mid way through the journey
the bus at the back will be like SONA room due to the packed passenger
and its in the late afternoon. And the bus will be so packed that movement
is little among the passenger and more will board even if its packed cause
the waiting for the next bus takes almost half hour or one.. never knows.
Some times i wonder what if there was a causalty.. this scares me.. And
from my previous experience, i gave up my seat to an elderly passenger
and instead my wallet was pick-pocketed. 2 weeks later my phone
followed as well. I never thought i would face such situation. But it was
very frustration.
Well back to my story, as i sat down i cooled myself using my t-shirt
which i was wearing. By doing so i scanned the bus and there was like
less than 10 passenger. I noticed one particular passenger who was seating
at the front seat after the exit door and i was seated at the last from the
entrance. To look at her i had to slightly turn my head and for her she just
need to turn her eye ball.. Actually from her position and mine it was in a
45* angle. She was eating some fried kuay and i observed her. She had a
sweet face, not so pretty and pretty as well.(i mean everyone of us has a
defination of beauty.. thats why they say beauty lies in the eye of the
beholder.) I maen she looked nice. She was wearing a pink t-shirt ithink..
jeans and pink shoe.. nice combination..Hair was shoulder length and neat.
Her eyes not to big not to small, just perfect. I guess her eyes was the
sweetest of all. Pinkish lips, i could tell she was not wearing
makeup like some other girls.. I mean i have no offence but i prefer natural.
From my observation she might be below 25 and above 16years. Normal
figure and fair skin. She had a bag on her lap and some plastic bags of goods
on the floor. As she ate i stole a glimpse of her. Later on she must have
realised and she looked back. I mean not really turn and directly look but
instead she just turned her eye ball. And every now and than i glimpsed
her and she did it back.. Think it was pure innocence.. I kept wanting
to look at her so i stole glimpse after glimpse and so did she. Finally the
bus moved and i tried to take my concentration away from her by looking
in the front or watching the mobile T.V. But i could not and kept stealing.
After some time as i was almost forgetting her, when the bus was filled with
fresh smell of burger. I mean the mayonese aroma was so strong that i turn
back to see who was having the burger. I can say i got hungry too. There
was this 2 girls who were sitting just behind her. I took this opportunity
and looked at them unrap the burger and they ate. In between i stole her
glimpse. It felt wonderful, but she did turn her eye ball for sure. As the
bus was moving i had lots of thoughts going on in my mind like i am a
foreigner and i dont even have one'C' not mentioning 5'C'. With this thought
i thought of my problems and tried to concentrate in other things. But i could
not and i kept stealing glimpse and so did she. At one point, think a Bangla
boarded the bus and he sat directly opposite me. He was neatly dressed
except that one of the button of his shirt was missing and his belly could
be seen as it was a tight fitting. This caused me to laugh, i mean it was a
funny incident. I tried to hide my emotion from him and the back. By now
the bus was getting packed as new passenger boarded from new spots. Her
view was disappearing and i had to look down the passenger legs apart to
see if she was still there. Sometimes when the passenger jerked i got to see
her for a short while. I waited for this and saw her. The train station was
approaching, i was thinking she might alight. I was thinking i might as well
alight and start a conversation. I will pretend to be a HIP and get her
information. But she did not alight. And so begain, i waited for the bus to
jerk and this caused the passenger to jerk and i got to see her view for a while.
This went on and on until i gave up my seat before my destination. I wanted
to look at her. My destination arrived and i half-heartedly moved to the exit.
I looked at her and she was looking at me too.. Those eyes, as i alighted kept
me thinking. I tried to walk a bit fast so as to overpass the bus to get to see
her. But the bus surplus me. I ran across the road desperately but the bus
was gone. And she was gone too. As i walked, i knew i would never see her
again. When i close my eyes, her image appears and especially her eyes. And
i for sure as time passes by her image will disappear from my mind and life
will be normal again. I wish i had done something about it, but i was just too
scared of the outcome and i did not have the confidence. Than again i wish
her the best of life thats comes along her. I also hope i could see her again
but what are the chances. Any way it made my stay here a special one to
remember although the rest was not a good one. This experience just took
my breath away and i just dont know when and how it comes by. It was so
suddenly. Describing it is so difficult thats why i am writing this in the
memory of you..SPECIAL ONE

Well i just took 2 cigreat and my credit is rm4.5 and am puffing and walking
towards my.......

OUR DREAM

I HAD A DREAM. EVERYONE HAS A DREAM. BUT MY

DREAM DASHED. SOME WILL ONLY GET THEIR DREAM.

SO DONT WORRY EVEN IF YOUR DREAM DOES NOT

COME TRUE. INSTEAD YOU ARE ALSO INVOLVED

IN MAKING OTHER PEOPLE DREAM COME TRUE.

MEANING YOUR DREA CAME TRUE IF ONLY YOU

UNDERSTAND LIFE. SO YOU MY FRIEND WE HAVE

TO THINK DIFFERENTLY TO UNDERSTAND

OURSELVES BETTER INSTEAD OF DROWNING IN

SORROW.

To a special friend of mine.. Life is something that we cant just
decide ourselves cause there are others who are more precious to
us. Some times we have to think for others to carry on the
journey of within. Happiness can be compromised, but some
choose their destiny. This are the strong ones who needs our
affection. I wish i was one of them but i have to think for others
too. This is what lack me. I cant blame nor complain but to
accept it with embrace like an adult. Not every ones life a fairy
tale and we have to accept it like whats been happenning from
the past till the present. All we have to do is to accept our fate
and create a new generation to carry on. Love is something we
experience in our lifetime.. maybe once or multiple.. But love
alone cant move us forward. But living each and every day that
makes us better than the great Romeo & Juliet or other iconic
figure. They are just a lesson for us. But those who live till their
times are the ones that gives a good example of mankind. What i
can say is that we human are strange that evolves in this world
and always trying to find new meaning in our life. With this i
would like to say 'live your life and cherish it in whatever
possible way weather you are up or down and never feel you
are alone. This same experience is faced by everyone in their life
With this let live... 2015hrs March 15 2009..

Well the time 11:27am and i am surfing.. i was surfing and had chat
with Keshav in Australia.. Its kind of cool chatting with him..
Well after that i am thinking of reading the paper.. cause thats my
favourite pass time.. Any way i think i need to rest as well
kind of sleepy and my back hurts cause it was strained 2 days
ago.. dont know how long more to recovery till than i have
endure the pain..

Hello there.. well i am trying to update every now and than..
Its kind of no time and no money thats causing this lacking..
But i am still taking the effort to update.. More than if i had
the finance,, may be i would not have even created this site..
May be sometimes its good that we dont get.. i mean only
sometimes.. many times we neeed it.. So we have too
much complain.. may be its meant to be this way.. and
lets not forget certain things.. ok thats it for now..

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

Geography of Nepal

Geography of Nepal is uncommonly diverse. Nepal is of roughly trapezoidal shape, 800 kilometres (500 mi) long and 200 kilometres (125 mi) wide, with an area of 147,181 square kilometres (56,827 sq mi). See List of territories by size for the comparative size of Nepal.
Nepal is commonly divided into three physiographic areas: the Mountain, Hill, Siwalik region and Terai Regions. These ecological belts run east-west and are vertically intersected by Nepal's major, north to south flowing river systems.
The southern lowland Plains bordering India are part of the northern rim of the Indo-Gangetic plains. They were formed and are fed by three major rivers: the Kosi, the Narayani, and the Karnali. This region has a hot, humid climate.
The Hill Region (Pahad) abuts the mountains and varies from 1,000 to 4,000 metres (3,300–13,125 ft) in altitude. Two low mountain ranges, the Mahabharat Lekh and Shiwalik Range (also called the Churia Range) dominate the region. The hilly belt includes the Kathmandu Valley, the country's most fertile and urbanised area. Unlike the valleys called Inner Tarai (Bhitri Tarai Uptyaka), elevations above 2,500 metres (8,200 ft) are sparsely populated.

Mount Everest
The Mountain Region, situated in the Great Himalayan Range, makes up the northern part of Nepal. It contains the regions of highest altitude in the world; the world's highest mountain, 8,850 metres (29,035 ft) height Mount Everest (Sagarmatha in Nepali) is located here on the border with Tibet. Seven other of the world's ten highest mountains are located in Nepal: Lhotse, Makalu, Cho Oyu, Kanchenjunga, Dhaulagiri, Annapurna and Manaslu.

The arid and barren Himalayan landscape.
Nepal has five climatic zones, broadly corresponding to the altitudes. The tropical and subtropical zones lie below 1,200 metres (3,940 ft), the temperate zone 1,200 to 2,400 metres (3,900–7,875 ft), the cold zone 2,400 to 3,600 metres (7,875–11,800 ft), the subarctic zone 3,600 to 4,400 metres (11,800–14,400 ft), and the Arctic zone above 4,400 metres (14,400 ft).
Nepal experiences five seasons: summer, monsoon, autumn, winter and spring. The Himalaya blocks cold winds from Central Asia in the winter and forms the northern limit of the monsoon wind patterns. In a land once thickly forested, deforestation is a major problem in all regions, with resulting erosion and degradation of ecosystems.
Nepal is popular for mountaineering, containing some of the highest and most challenging mountains in the world, including Mount Everest. Technically, the south-east ridge on the Nepali side of the mountain is easier to climb; so, most climbers prefer to trek to Everest through Nepal.
Until the Sugauli Sandhi (treaty) was signed, the territory of Nepal also included Darjeeling, and Tista to the east, Nainital to the south-west and Kumaun, Garwal and Bashahar to the west. However, today these areas are a part of India. As a result, Nepal shares no boundary with Bangladesh now and the two countries are separated by a narrow strip of land about 21 kilometres (13 mi) wide, called the Siliguri Corridor‎ or Chicken's Neck. A huge majority of Nepalese still live there (almost 2 million). Efforts are underway to make this area a free-trade zone.[28] The border dispute between India and Nepal has often been a cause of tension between the two countries.

Prehistory

Kathmandu Valley
Neolithic tools found in the Kathmandu Valley indicate that people have been living in the Himalayan region for at least 9,000 years. It appears that Kirant ethnicity people were the first people to settle in

How we came about and History of our ancestors..




Kirat-or Kirati- means people with lion nature. It is derived from two words Kira= Lion and Ti- people. It refers to the Kirati group or a Kirata confederation that includes the Limbu, Rai, Yakkha and Sunuwar ethnic groups of Nepal. They were the earliest inhabitants of Nepal. Dhimal, Hayu, Koch, Thami, Tharu, Chepang, and Surel ethnic groups also consider themselves to be of Kirati descent.[1]

Religion

The Kirant follow Kirant Mundhum. Their holy book is the Mundhum also known as the Kirant Veda.[6] Kirant Rai people worship Nature and ancestors, Animism and Shamanism, believing in a their primeval ancestors, SumnimaParuhang. Some names for festivals they celebrate include Sakela, Sakle, Toshi, Sakewa, Saleladi Bhunmidev, Chyabrung, Yokwa and Folsyandar. They have two main festivals: Sakela/Sakewa Uvauli, during plantation season; and Sakela/Sakewa Udhauli, in the time of the harvest.
Kirant Limbu people believe in Supreme God Tagera Ningwaphuma, who is also known as the supreme knowledge .[7] Ancestor Yuma Sammang and God of War Theba Sammang are second most important deities.
Many of the Kirant that were outside of Hinduism did convert by the ruling elites of later days Nepal[8]
There is a giant Linga of the Kirant at Kirantaeshvara. It possibly had a Kirant name but all such evidence was destroyed by the next rulers of Nepal[9]
There is a tradition amongst the Kirant Limbus there the reclining Vishnu found at Budhanilakantha is the ancestor of the Limbus. Many of them don't know because Brahmin or Chetri people who live in Kathmandu won't let them to pray budhanilkantha. There are mainly three Budhanilkantha and no one knows which one is original. [10]

History


[edit] Mentioned as Kiratas in Mahabharat epic
Main article: Kirata Kingdom
The Kiratas (Sanskrit: किरात) mentioned in early Hindu texts are the tribals of the forest and mountains. They are mentioned along with Cinas (Chinese). Kirati languages belong to Tibeto-Burman family of Languages . Kiratas have been identified as the present day Rai, Limbu and Sunuwar of Nepal.

King Yalamba Haang- First Kirata King
In Yoga Vasistha 1.15.5 Rama speaks of "kirAteneva vAgurA", "a trap [laid] by Kiratas", so about BCE Xth Century, they were thought of as jungle trappers, the ones who dug pits to capture roving deer. The same text also speaks of King Suraghu, the head of the Kiratas who is a friend of the Persian King, Parigha.
Hindu myth has many incidents where their God Shiva has imitated a Kirat person. [11]
History of Kirats describes some of the achievements of Kirata people in eastern Nepal


Background

Historians today are convinced that a widespread cultural conflict took place in the eastern Himalayan region between the indigenous inhabitants – called the Kirat – and the Tibetan migrant population, reaching a climax during the 18th and 19th centuries. Another wave of political and cultural conflict, between Gorkhali and Kirat ideals, surfaced in the Kirat region of present-day Nepal during the last quarter of the 18th century. A collection of manuscripts from the 18th and 19th centuries, till now unpublished and unstudied by historians, have made possible a new understanding of this conflict. These historical sources are among those collected by Brian Houghton Hodgson – a British diplomat and self-trained Orientalist appointed to the Kathmandu court during the second quarter of the 19th century – and his principal research aide, the Newar scholar Khardar Jitmohan.

The Map of Limbuwan.
For over two millennia, a large portion of the eastern Himalaya has been identified as the home of the Kirat people, of which the majority are known today as Rai, Limbu, Yakha and Lepcha. In ancient times, the entire Himalayan region was known as the kimpurusha desha, a phrase derived from a Sanskrit term used to identify people of Kirat origin. These people were also known as nep, to which the name nepala is believed to have an etymological link. The earliest references to the Kirat as principal inhabitants of the Himalayan region are found in the texts of Atharvashirsha and Mahabharata, believed to date to before the 9th century BC. For over a millennium, the Kirat had also inhabited the Kathmandu Valley, where they installed their own ruling dynasty. This Kirat population in the valley, along with original Australoids and Austro-Asiatic speakers form the base for later Newar population. As time passed, however, those Kirat, now known as the Limbu settled mostly in the Koshi region of present-day eastern Nepal and Sikkim.
From around the 8th century, areas on the northern frontier of the Kirat region began to fall under the domination of migrant people of Tibetan origin. This flux of migration brought about the domination by Tibetan religious and cultural practices over ancient Kirat traditions. This influence first imposed shamanistic Bön practices, which in turn were later replaced by the oldest form of Tibetan Buddhism. The early influx of Bön culture to the peripheral Himalayan regions occurred only after the advent of the Nyingma, the oldest Buddhist order in Lhasa and Central Tibet, which led followers of the older religion to flee to the Kirat areas for survival. The Tibetan cultural influx ultimately laid the foundation for a Tibetan politico-religious order in the Kirat regions, and this led to the emergence of two major Tibetan Buddhist dynasties: in Sikkim and Bhutan. The early political order of the Kingdom of Bhutan had been established under the political and spiritual leadership of the lama Zhabs-drung Ngawang Namgyal. Consequently, Bhutan used to be known in the Himalayan region as the ‘kingdom of [Buddhist] spiritual rule’ (in old Nepali, dharmaako desh). The Tibetan rulers of Sikkim were also known as Chögyal, or spiritual rulers.
Both of these kingdoms adopted policies of suppression of indigenous practices, replacing them with those of Tibetan Buddhism. Bhutan's religious rulers established a tradition of appointing religious missions to other Himalayan kingdoms and areas, through which they were able to establish extensive influence in the region. Bhutan's ambitious missions were sent as far west as Ladakh. Even before the founding of modern Nepal by Prithvi Narayan Shah of Gorkha in 1769, Bhutan's rulers were able to establish spiritual centres in several parts of what was to become the former's territories, including Kathmandu, Bhaktapur, Gorkha and Vijayapur in the midhills, and Mustang, north of the central Himalayan range.
Sikkim had long been home to Lepcha Kirat people and culture. Under the guidance of Tibetan Buddhist lamas, however, their self-rule and cultural independence was suddenly taken away. Sikkim kings were even able to subdue the entire far-eastern part of the Kirat region – historically known as Limbuwan – for at least a short period of time. Here, the new rulers adopted policies of religious and cultural subjugation, encouraging Sikkim lamas to travel to places of strategic importance in order to establish monastic centres. But the indigenous population did not easily surrender themselves to this cultural invasion. Limbu and Lepcha manuscripts collected by Brian Houghton Hodgson in Darjeeling indicate significant resistance by the Kirat against Tibetan Buddhist rule and cultural domination. While much of this struggle consisted of attempts to strengthen cultural awareness, there were also violent engagements between Kirat communities and their new rulers.

RAI

The Rai, also known as the Khambu(people of Khumbu region). They are one of Nepal's most ancient indigenous ethnolinguistic groups. The Rai(Khambu) belong to the Kirati group or the Kirat confederation that includes the Limbu, the Sunuwar, Yakkha Dhimal, Koche, Meche,Hayu ethnic groups.
According to Professor Dor Bahadur Bista(anthropologist,Tribhuvan University) and late Professor Suniti Kumar Chatterji(linguist and Kiratologist,Calcutta university)Kirats migrated from east via north Burma and Assam along the mid-hills(lower mountains) along with their pigs in ancient times.(ref.30,31).
According to Prof. Suniti Kumar Chatterji(linguist and kiratologist) and other prominent linguists,Rai,Limbu,and Dhimal languages are Pronominalised(Austric/Kol influence)strongly indicating earliest migratory wave of these peoples compared to other Tibeto-Burmans whose languages are non-pronominalised.(ref.31)
The traditional homeland of the Rai(Khambu) extends across Solukhumbu,Okhaldhunga (Wallo Kirat or Near Kirat), home of the Bahing,Wambule subgroups), Khotang, Bhojpur and the Udayapur districts (Majh Kirat or Central Kirat),home of Bantawa,Chamling etc. in the northeastern hilly/mountainous region of Nepal, west of the Arun River in the Sun Koshi River watershed. Rais are also found in significant numbers in the Indian state of Sikkim and in the northern West Bengal towns of Kalimpong and Darjeeling.





According to Nepal's 2001 census, there are 635,751 Rai(Khambu) in Nepal which represents 2.79% of the total population. Of this number, 70.89% declared themseleves as practising the traditional (Kiranti/Kirant) religion and 25.00% declared themselves as Hindu. Yakkha were measured as a separate ethnic group of which 81.43% were Kirant and 14.17% were Hindu. The Rai are divided into many different sub-groups - Bantawa, Chamling, Sampang, Dumi, Jerung, Kulung, Khaling, Lohorung, Mewahang, Rakhali, Thulung,Tamla, Tilung, Wambule, Yakkha, Yamphu, Sunuwar, Jero (Jerung) , etc. Some groups number only a few hundred members. The languages together with the traditional religion of the Rai is known as Kirant.
More than 32 different Kiranti languages and dialects are recognized within the Tibeto-Burman languages family.Their languages are Pronominalised Tibeto-Burman languages,indicating their antiquity. The oral language is rich and ancient, as is Kiranti history, but the written script remains yet to be properly organised as nearly all traces of it was destroyed by the next rulers of Nepal, The Lichhavis and almost eradicated by the Shah dynasty.
The traditional Kiranti religion, predating Hinduism and Buddhism, is based on ancestor-worship and the placation of ancestor spirits through elaborate rituals governed by rules called Mundhum. Sumnima-Paruhang are worshipped as primordial parents. A major Rai holiday is the harvest festival, Nwogi, when fresh harvested foods are shared by all. The Bijuwa and Nakchhung (Dhami) or Priest plays an important role in Rai communities.
They do not truly belong to the Caste system or Varna system although few have accepted the kshatriya status.Majority of Rai have never accepted Casteism and never adopeted a Caste(Nepal Federation of Indigenous Nationalities and Nepal government have recognised this fact)(29)
Because of the fiercely independent nature of the Rai community and its location at the eastern end of the consolidated Nepalese nation-state, the Rai were given exceptional rights of Kipat autonomy and land ownership in their homeland of Majh (middle) Kirant.
Subsistence agriculture of rice, millet, wheat, corn and even cotton is the main occupation of the Rai although many Rai have been recruited into military service with the Nepali army and police, and the Indian and British Gurkha regiments and Singapore Police Force.
Rai women decorate themselves lavishly with silver and gold coin jewellery. Marriage unions are usually monogamous and arranged by parents, although "love marriage",bride capture(in the past) and elopement are alternative methods. Music (traditional drums and string instruments: yele, binayo, murchunga, dhol and jhyamta), dance (Sakela or Sakewa dance) and distilled spirits (alcohol) called aaraakha, ngashi, or waasim are central to Rai culture.
Sakela or Sakewa dance is the greatest religious festival of Kirant Rai.

Well the times 1151am and the dates 13th May 2009.. And i am here..
Well many things happened and on 8th May 2009 Dhurba left with
Hemantha Dai, Chabi Dai and Narayan. Well it was a suprising they
left. I dont know but maybe its for their best. Ones need to decide
whats best for themselves... I dont know but well its kind of lonely
now days.. And other than that finance not so good and spending
times in library.. to kill the time and the... Well nothing special except
day in day out.. but its better than nothing.. Any way later going down
for a Dunhill cigarette.. And

By the time you receive this sms you would be sleeping soundly..
lost in your dream.. Its very true, sometimes when we plan no
matter how much effort it is put into, nothing works out. Thats
why some just go with the flow. And this is what is happening
to me and i am getting lost. Dont know if i would ever be able to
make it out of my lost world. Even if i do will i be able to live a
normal life.. this confuses me..guess i think too much.. may be
this is where my mistake is .. i dont know and i will fight for
my own and try to make it out.. if not i will accept what ever
may come.. cause some people are not ment to lead.. and i
will still accept it..





We are only human being.. we make mistake or are forced to
make mistake. We are vanurable creature but most important
we learn an important lesson in out every day life. We cant
regret but become stronger person day in day out. I have
learned to accept life the way it is and to forget and forgive
the past mistake i have made in my life..





Life is like so funny, sad, unpredictable, strange, mystery, and
so on.. The things we want in life we never get.. Although we
strive we are never happy with the outcome.. we try to content
our heart but always feeling something is lacking.. Some times
confused and lost.. Dont know exactly who we are.. Just follow
what may come by and accepting to be who we are.. Its just
expression that we want to show thats all and lets face this
life that we have to face..





They say that marriage is made in heaven.. But i say no cause it is
between two souls committing in a relationship and finding out that
they are ment to be for each other.. And thats when they take vow
in " I DO'.. With this i would like to say congraluation..





Love is what i felt something magical.. But as i analyze. I think it is
something of a communication, trust, understanding, respect, bonding,
forgiving,,, Cause it is what we call the sharing the life with each other
till the time..





Dont know why my tears drops.. I think it is better to let it..so that all
the sorrow and pain will flow away with it and i will be able to face a
new lease of life.. Its better to release than to carry it around.. at least
it will be a comfort to the heart rather than keep.. At least i am being
honest rather than hide it...





Well i am happy so long as i am living and going forward and nothing
stops my journey as i move on. I dont really care what i do and how
shameful i get myself into as long i dont blame others. But frankly i am
where i am because of others.. Its my right to blame others or their
their right to be blamed..





As i smoke my cigarette.. Inhale and exhale the smoke.. It gives me
the pleasure of releasing my inner doubt and refresh myself.. What is this
drug that i cant live without having a puff or two.. I tried to quit but just
cant and its taking my finance away.. What must i do to eliminate this bad
habit of mine.. Or what measure must i take to quite.. But will i be able to..
I dont know,, but i must try..





Our eyes only wants to see beautiful things.. Our heart only wants to feel
happy.. Our lips only wants to smile.. Our ear only wants to hear good things..
If we want all this than we are perfect human. Which means we are not
human. And i rather not want that..instead i will live my life to experience
that by engaging mysely in everything i do bad or good.. This will give more
meaning to my life and be able to experience all the emotion of human being..





31 years of my life has gone by and what can i say about myself. How
times passes by and how my mind passed by facing each and every obsticle
weather i learned anything or just wondered around. How i see the world
changed and how people cahnged. How i meet a whole lot of people and see
through their life and how they have taught me. How i longed for certain goal.
Some i achieved while most failed. Different mood in different situation
always telling myself it is ment to be this way. The problem created and still
trying to rectify. Some i leave it cause ther is no solution. Some times cherishing
my life and most of the time grumbling how it turned out this way. But as i
look back neither i can regret nor change it but to accept and move along
and bringing changes. Will i make it i dont know but i have to try. I just
cant believe i am 31





As i sit at the shade of a tree to relax my mind of all the problem that i
have.. How beautiful she looks with all the flowers bloomed and the wind
gently blowing giving me a piece of mind.. The very essence to life.. one by
one the flower drops after its lifetime of life.. how gracefully it drops
dancing in the air till it reaches the ground.. The birds in grouy playfully
enjoying the nectar from the flower and dancing with delight cause they will
have to wait for another season to bloom again.. how it gives life to other
creature to survive their daily life.. Without it there wont be anything.. What
better way to describe it than to see it with my own eyes and experience the
very meaning of life.. I feel very proud to be alive and cherish who i am cause
there can only be ME..





Well now i am at the same place where the tree bloomed last week. Even
though the tree has stopped blooming flower, it still give the birds shelter and
foods in other ways. The birds chippering way and enjoying the atmosphere
it gives. How meaningful it has given to the living things and how it stands
proudly day after days. And how beautiful she looks at the place where it
stands alone from cicilised atmosphere.. Without it how dull the place will
be.. Sometimes i think, how will the newer generation be able to experience
this beautiful nature. But as i grow older i realize we are the ones who is the
destiny to the newer generation. It is us that decides their fate. And if we
dont do something about it than the newer generation will not be able to
experience it...







WELL ABOVE WAS TYPED IN MY MOBILE PHONE
WHEN I HAD THE TIME TO TYPE.. SOME OF THEM
ARE ALMOST 3 MONTH OLD.. ITS JUST I COULD NOT
OR HAD THE TIME TO BLOG IT..

12th May 2009 1115hrs

Well its been almost 2 month since i have not written on this blog.. Call it busy or

just did not have the mood or could not... Ya there are many reasons.. But thats

not the point.. At least i am writing now.. Well the 2 month just passed like any

ordinary days and wish i could have done something but what could i have

done. Any way i will be attending to this blog for some time till i will get lost

again for some time.. Well the world is getting all sort of problems from the

Swine flu H1N1 to unrest in Sri Lanka to my mother land Nepal.. Well the

Moaist PM wants to fire the army general but is supported by the President

and the opposition.. So in this drama, PM resigns to play psychology.. This

is what the opposition are thinking.. And there are many reasons for the

opposition not to support the PM.. Well politics is a very dirty game and it

will only become worse if it is in 3rd world country that has no means and

ways to be devoloped n especially when the world are getting develop..

Well while the world prospers Nepal will be the same and i hope that we

can accept who we are and live on in Nepal or else its habitants will perish.

As i believe even if the world developes and becomes rich there is certainly

something will bring them down like they say what goes must come down.

Any way i hope i will be writing more for this few couple of days..

17 March 2009 0840am and i have like exactly 10 minute
to write something cause i dont have enough cash to pay
the counter. Well i have wrote something in the past few
days except i cant remember it as it is somewhere..So i
would we writing it sometimes soon.. And i know i dont
really have much time but beside me is small Lama
playing the new National Anthom of Nepal. Its the first
time i have heard of it and its sounds more of folk song
and its more of communist type or maybe i dont really
understand. Any way now is a new Nepal and hope
everything works out for the people of the nation and
i hope i can do something for the country..Like create
jobs or some kind of charity or more of a helping hand
to the unforctunate.. Caues if i have opened my eyes
and can teach or show the way to the underpreviledge
it will give me strength..Ok times up.. Bye..

Well the time 11:36am and the date 15 March 2009..
Today i am at cyber at Sugnei Long and kind of
with Bikash and Dhurba..We just came to surf the
net..Well i got nothing much to say except
maybe i will work for part time with the lighting
company..I mean my former work.. Well i have just
requested some condition to edger who will be doing a
show in Malacca..If all the condition works out i will be
taking a 2 days leave to work..Well other than that todays
Sunday and i am kind of OK in mood and i dont know
what to write..So i will maybe stop here..Cause there is
nothing much to say..Ok let me just write some bullshit..
Just to lengethen my article..
Its been a long time since the days of our life has passed the
outmost of ourself..and what can be said or cant be all depands
on the outcome of the days that finishes the time..Well i also
dont know what i am writing..maybe i will stop here ok
next time..

"Best I Ever Had"

So you sailed away into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay, love can be so boring
And nothing's quite the same nowI just say your name now.
But it's not so badYou're only the best I ever had
You don't want me backYou're just the best I ever had.
So you stole my world, now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl leaves me down and lonely
Well send it in a letterMake yourself feel better.
But it's not so badYou're only the best I ever had
You dont want me backYou're just the best I ever had.
And it might take some time to patch me up inside
but I cant take it so I, I run away and hide
And I might find in time that you were always right
You're always right.
So you sailed away into a grey sky morning
Now, I'm here to stay, love can be so boring
Was it what you wanted?Could it be I'm haunted?
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You dont want me back
You're just the best I ever had.
You're just the best I ever had

Well todays a new day to start with.. Many things to say..
But some are personal and its not very convenience to say..
And the rest are too problematic to say and i wont say either..
Any way todays Thursday 5th 2009 time 10:31AM and 2 more
days to go before something big might happen or not,, i dont
really care cause its part of life and how times flies and how lost
i feel sometimes..And how happy i feel suddenly..I just cant
define whats this life about..Problem after problem and once
its settlled lifes resumes normal and out of the blue another
problem arises. I just dont know what to say but just follow
it and try my best to settle it..Some i cant and i just leave it
and after some times its keep bugging my mind.. like i could
have hepled it..And this keeps me low..Guess the drinks are
calling me cause its been so fucking long that i have not drank
till i droped dead..The last was almost 7 or 8 month ago.. I was
so fucking pissed that i drank the 2 or 4 bottle of quarter
without any thing..When i was at hostel..i was like a nuscience
luckily friends put me to bed,,But i kept falling,,You know no
matter how fucking drunk i am i still have conscounce,,Any
way if this Sunday plan fails,, i am planning to drink with
Dhurba one of my good freinds..Its been almost 2 years since
we had a good driink together..
Ok lets forget about drinking now..Well reading from the paper
i really dont know how bad the economy is going to fall or not..
But the other thing is that too nuch news around the world other
than economy crises..Just few days Mutinity in Bangladesh..Well
i have bangladesh freinds who are quite helpful but are shocked
at what had happened since the mitilitary rule was over ruled by
Democracy..I fear that the old rule might come back and take away
Democracy..I personally believe that it might be unstable cause of the
population and the things happenning within not forgetting
economy crises..Other than that whats happenning around the
world is making me sick too..Or is it because something really
bad is going to happen..
Like when there was a depression in the 1920s..War arose..
Luckily at that time 70% of the nation didnt suffer cause they were
either not developed or were totally not in the region yet..But nows
different if it really happens i can feel that its going to be very nasty
.. i mean especially the developing nations.. Like what had happened
in Indonesia around 1998..Or worse.. I dont know but just prepare
to go back cause it will only be stupidity to stay along..
And the other thing is the research that happenning in..i cant remember
the one thing that the universe was created by the "THE BIG BANG'
Scientist are experimenting it.. Its sounds scary.. Dont know what will
happen if the experiment goes wrong..I mean total destruction is ok..
But what if it paralyse the world..I dont know also.. i just forcasting..
Just like the weather forcaster or the economist..
Ok forget all those..Now i am more free compared to last time and
i have the time to write as much as i can (nonsense) cause sometimes
soon i dont think i will have as much freedom as this few days..It is
only when i am broke my mind works perfectly..But whan i am loaded
i do so much stupidity that i dont know what i am doing..
P.S most of the previous pages or almost entirely pages were written
when i was broke..
I was planning to write in the newspaper column about the foreigner
plight..Cause you know Malaysia totally 60% or more depends on
cheap labour for their job market..Its because they dont have much
man power or they just have too much talented people..I mean there
are more talented cheap foreigner its just that they were let down by
their country or their political..There are many reasons to it..Like me
too..Of all places i had come to Malaysia..But i dont regret,, cause
it has made me learn some important things in life and still learning..
Back to the topic..not only the foreigner are pais cheap most are
conned..i dont know what to say about this but its only best to
fight for them cause there are universal reaasons and things
happenniing. The one reason is that today morning while i was
listening the radio the government said that they can bypass the
1998 economy recession..The reason kick out the current cheap
labour and hire the local..This sounds very bad from my point of
view.. I mean what kind of thoughts..They should at least
compromise..See this are some of the things i really hate.. Any way
i dont think i will complain cause, i know my article would not be
printed cause the last time i sent,,it was not printed..cause i blamed
the local to being lazy..Any way the political situation here is getting
worse..or shall i say this is true dremocracy..I dont know but i just
read what happens next cause it will have an impact in the country..
ok so much of bullshitting and bla bla..
I knd of miss one thing that is alcohal..I am just waiting for this Sunday
or Saturday cause it can be like 'out of the blue thing' Like suprises..
I think i should be able to write tomorrow too..But i dont know..it just
depends on my mood..