27th December 2010 and i am at my sis hostel.. Tomorrow hers flight
to Nepal after like 2 years of work here. Just came back from Boling
centre after our dinner at the Chinese restaurant. Her bf joined us.
After we had a pool game and arcade game. Well i am gonna miss her
for a month and i wish i could go with her. But my turn will come soon
and i have to be patience cause life will come when my turn will come.
any way i am happy that i will be able to look forward to my life thats
coming to.. Well thats all for now as my time to spend here is limited.
Any way chow.. and i will write for sure...

26th december 2010, christmas just over.. Well there is like 5
days to 2011 and i am looking forward to lot of changes in
my life if it is possible. I HAVE to cause i am not leading a
normal life. Any way my sis is going vacation on the 28th
and i am in her room to help her pack up and take some of her
stuff. Any way i am very angry with myself casue i cant
do things that i am thinking of. How useless can i be. I have to
change. Till next time..

30th November 2010 and tomorrow is going to be December
last month of 2010.. i have like 2 more days of off and today is
not included. Which makes 3 days of leave.. Its good to have
rest but whats the use if i dont have much interseting life that i
can say of. Ok like i have much to nag about. The price for
an hour of useage is 5drm and its not cheap. I have to make best
use of the money. I finally realise why i was so different from
others cause my right ear is not functioning and thats why i was
acting different from my early age.. And this has become a habit
 and its tough to change it since i am 32 now and the 32 years i
have acted this way and i dont think it will be easy to suddenly
change to a new person. I dont know why it took so long to
notice myself. Am i stupid or maybe i was concentrating on my
gambling and i was trying to be normal but instead everything
was going very bad. Because of this ifound my problem. Huh....
Well what i felt was i needed someone to understand me and
care for me. But i acted strangely along the way and my thought
for her.. like i was going to emberess her and i am always out of
topic.. I could not even greet her for her birthday.. least i could
have done even if she dont like me.. Some how i think i did stood
a chance.. and i have wasted it and i guess i have to accept the
reality and try to change my life. If i ever have to chance to know
her i will really appreciate her cause how long am i going to stay
this way.. this miserable life of mine.. I just wanted a normal life
but cause of my deafness normal is becoming disastirous.
Why was i so slow to recognise this madness. Thats why may be
she was my answer and.. Aahh.. i really hate myself..
2 more days to spend and
back to work... i just went to gym after like 3 or 4 week of
absence. I have to start doing gym to fill my gap and to be fresh
of my self.
There is like 40minute  left of my hour. and i have to write more
cause i have been MIA for so long and .... I guess i have to take
a lot of  my time to chabge for the better.. I have finished my reading
of the novel 'The Wrecker'. Finished it like in 15 days.. one of my
good record.. Am not proud of it cause if i had done this back when
i was younger,, i would have changed my destiny. ANy way no regrats
but i have to do something about it.. Any now surfing you tube.. any way
i hope my self the best ...good luck..

Ok.. cool.. well todays 3 days off.. cool huh..

Well tomorrow's her B'day and i am still in silence of it. Dont hve the
guts and the confidence of facing the,, For sure i am gonna drink
tonight to fill my sorrow and my loneliness cause thats who i am and
how the hell am i ever gonna change my... Any way i have dont much
yo say cause i am not in a situation where i can say what i like cause...
Least i am happy that i am still writing.. Drinking tonight and hope to
have a good time alone,...

25th November 2010 and what can i say...
I finally am able to write something after like may be
3 month of absence... I kind of forgot to write and least i can say is that
i finally found out the dilemma thats been revolving around me and
what can i say that am i a fool or what?
Why did not i think of it before.. may be i never felt that way and i was
focusing on something that was far from reachable...
I dont know what the outcome is going to be like thats coming my
way???

Any way life still moves on and i will write more the next time..
P.S- I have to strive harder and change new direction...

11/10/10

10/10/10 was yesterday and  i was not able to write due to lack of net access.
By the way it was also  t hotel staff party which i really enjoyed getting drunk.
Its been such a long time that i have enjoyed. I guess i will remember when i refer
this later on in the days that will come and i guess i am loosing my creativity cause
i cant seem to write more than this. And i will be ending my sentance pretty soon.
Need to go back to cook and i guess this is life and survival is necssary for human.
Chooaw for now.

Well well 7th September 2010 time 7:40pm. I think i was lost or i
was not doing what i had to do. So much had happened for the
days that i had not written and i dont know where to start and
i wont be able to write as the way it should have been.

I dont know exactly where to start with and i dont feel like
starting...

Lost of words and lost of mind,,, loosing my life and i dont know
how deep i am lost and my precious sight is making my life even
harder..


Ok cool is the word i am using for right now. Just chat with sis
and used the cool words too often. and the topic will be 'cool'


2 days of my off and back to work. one day gone and one more
left and i believe it will be very interesting with chhring and the
guys.. planning to go to the beach..actual plan is to sun tan.. ha ha
for me.. but i think the guys will not like it..


Ramadan is coming and i wish all the muslim in the world a wonderful
Ramadan and a joyus occassion..

well thats all for today.. next time i will try to writ more.. hopefully..

27th July and its a very early morning.. 211am exactly. Just finished
watching a movie titled 'The Ringer'. Its a hilarious movie involving
disabled people. Had fun watching it cause it was funny and romantic.
The lead actor had pretended to be disabled to complete in the
olympic for the disabled. In between he falls for the volunteer who is
helping the disabled. It was sure fun watching the movie after a week.
Well currently i gave up the remote control for a couple as i believe
they need some privacy. So here i am taking my time to write something.
As far as my days is going on, the first of the next month i will be
attending my orientation after 2 month. I am not exactly looking
forward to but just take as it.Got like 3 more days to night shift and
it will be seeing the day light of day shift.


So how do i start it. August 07 i left early in the morning after i
said my last good bye to my friends. I had just carried my bag with
a few cloth. I took a cab to the bus stop and wondered at the city
for sometimes wondering what i would do as i was pretty lost. I made
my new card and got it. later on i tried to withdraw the cash but it was
not setteled yet. So i was thinking what i would do? Finally around
early afternoon my luck changed and i withdraw my last pay around
1100.. I took my lunch and snacks wondering around thinking. I
bought some tickets for the time. Called Dhurba and told him i will
be taking the 4pm bus. I boarded the bus and i tried to leave behind
my misery hoping for a new chapter of my life. I was not excited now
was i nervious. I was confused and well i dont have any words to
explain it. The journey reached the bus interchange for a short break
for food and toilet. I had my supper and i headed back to the bus.
There the driver shifted me to another bus for the direct route to KL.
Well as the passanger was not much they wanted to shorten their
journey and cost. So my ride coninued and i was on my road to
my new destination. I reached the terminal at around 8 plus. I called
my friend and wondered around the new city. I took U41 bus from
just opposite china town and it was one long journey. I reachd
Sungai long around 11 plus and had my dinner at the indian stall.
As i was having my food Dhurba arrived and we headed back to
the room. It was a small room and my first meeting with Bikash.
Well my new life started from that night.. Till than the next eposide
will be stated in my coming times...

Was me just posing for the picture...

Well this is me.. just posing for the picture.. location is at the presidential place..

This is the second biggest Mosque in United Arabe Emirates.. Taken from the top of the tower of Sangrila Hotel Abu Dhabi in the early morning.

24th July 2010 a very early morning at Abu Dhabi the time
617am and i am at work. The situation is not much of a
busyness so just surfing and what better way to write my
blog. My data reading at's 7am and i have like quite some
time before i am on my move to do other stuff's. Well
cant say much of late things as nothing so special cause
i am wondering of how i will be spending my time the
next days and days. Just so can the will be of other way
of the way how we do things.

Any way one of my lyric for my new song will be like...

'Its been since a long time
since i saw you.
Wish you were here
with me

Days of my lonely days
Spending my time
all alone
thinking of you

This's guitar's my only friend
singing my song
wondering if i
ever see you again.
.
.
.
I wish i was strong enough
to say the words
thats in my mind
to you


This is one of my songs thats i have written and i hope
do write more songs.. hopefully

Morning 1034am and its 22nd July 10. Just finished doing
gym and was making my move back to my room and i just
remembered to use my blog and i came back and lucky
enough the computer that can be accessed was not occupied.
Actually the computer room was empty best describes it. And
as i had mentioned earlier that i know how to use the new way to
access this blog and it did work. Ok so far i had uploaded my old
article which was way back a week ago.. i think..
Well i have nothing much to say and i will or must have cook lunch
cause the breakfast that i had in the morning is gone from the gym
that i had did. So need to re energise before i sleep. If not i will
not be able to sleep. Speaking of this a few days ago it
was almost 12pm and i had just fallen asleep for maybe 5 minute
and i suddenly woke up due to empty stomach. The feeling was
so bad that i quickly cooked instant noodle and hurriedly gubbled
it down my throat.So you see i have to eat or else i will have to
wake up again half way and my sleep spoiled. Well i just
remembered that my aircone is down and its 2 days.. Dont know
if its good for my breathing cause there was insident in Malaysia
where people had died in their sleep. The reason was that due
to lack of air flow in the room and the heat, had caused the person
less oxygen. And this was why people died in their sleep. Well
here is almost the same insident and best part is that the
temperature is even higher that Malaysia will less humidity. So
maybe ..... I dont know let me not talk about it. OK.. Almost
1050am and i can feel a bit hungry.. gonig off soon and make
myself chicken dish and rice for lunch. Ohhh.. my mouth almost
watery as i think of it. Ok chow.. going off.. 

ok here i am and i can say i am loosing interest in what

i am doing. But do i have a choice? No is the answer and
i have to carry on what i am doing and what i studied for.
Have to stick to it for some time as there is no other way
out due to my wrong choices in my history of my 32 years.
And best of all my finance... Dont know what i am doing
sometimes cause half my age is gone and maybe half my
brain is dead too. This i think could be the answer cause
my experience is not working well on me in my life.
Especially the one who i was thinking of asking. Still in
my dream land and the feeling i felt for and the feeling i
wanted to show..Guess i wont be able to express it. Cause
i feel i dont have what it takes to be a gentleman to ask.
Any ways she has someone who was waiting for her and i
dont think its nice to be the devil and snatch her. But
what can i do i feel helpless cause its the eye that had
sight on her and i think i will not be able to vanish her
thought from my memory. Cause you know the
brain is a weak part of our entire body as it is the one that
keep reminding us of that particular image or insident.
And than the weak part comes into action,, you know the...
HEart... SO sickening.. Really hate my self for loving you
especially when i cant even say it to you. So just does nt
makes any sense. Why me me me... Well feel like
running away but why this situation. I have to work and
do some responsibility from my side.
Any way i hope to erase it by end of this month cause my
shift changed and hopefully i can cope my job as well.
Many things to do in my remaining life and of course i
have to cherish this wonderful life that i have and of course
my sis and dad and mom. LIfe goes on and i will be off
tomorrow and likely i will be gong to the city to have some
sightseeing and to look around Abu Dhabi City. Although
the place is like a furnace its good to be in new environment.
I need to erase the thought and by the way i am listening my
HEE DAE KO BATO one of my original classic whaich i
composed in Malaysia. Its sure is good thing that i got a
guitar from my sis but there is no improvement in my
composing of songs.Cause i have only composed one
song in all this one month. Its a disgrace and i really hate
my self any way the title of my song is AUUTAA KHAATHA
CHA. By the way its not fully composed and the tune is
still need to fine tune it. See how snail i am. I just hope i
can forget and i must. Any way tomorrow will be going to
city and need to buy hard drinks cause need to sober myself.
Cause i am a man. By the way i just for some how thought
of the future. I know i will get married someday and i really
dont know who my lovely wife would be?? And if you just
happen to read this.. Dont be angry or over reactive cause
this is my life and i am just writing down my feeling and my
problems of my life cause i have no one to share with. So
just writing it down was the best way for me. Any way i
am kind of tired and the time here in UAE is 1:40am and
i need to be heading to hostel cause tomorrow morning need
to go gym need to trim my body cause i dont like to look fat
and i love to sweat and do tough training. Well thats all for now
cause its late. BY the way i wanted write on my blog but
could not open it as the site is difficult to open and the admin
might have blocked the site. Any way will be pasting it in my
blog when i visit my sis or the hotel computer. Lets see how
whichever comes first. Today is 6 July a very early morning.
Going off soon,,,,

Well a good morning and i am in a rush cause i will be
taking the morning bus to hostel. Its almost 821am
and i cant write much as i dont have much time. ok
now i know how to post blog the other way. ok
making my move.. chow for now

Well been some time for now that i have not written.. Any way i will always
try my best to write something down.
Ok let me say something about Abu Dhabi.. Its actually a desert and all round
what you can see are sands.. very fine sands. |You wont be able to see any rain
fall may be once or twice a year cause i am still new here. But since this place
is rich in oil, the money that came is being used very wisely by the ruler since
the discovery around (ithink 1940s to... not too sure). And where there is
money to be made there will be people looking for better prospect in life. And
thats why the country is developing very fast. And speaking of developing, they
have spend a lot in greenery. Imagine greenary in a desert where the ground is not
fertile and where there is no rain at all. Well the only answer is technology. ANd
this technology is after all money. ANd now its very better off in some parts of the
places. The only thing that i like about UAE is the greenary. Well lets see how
far can this country go. ANy way thats about for now.

well its been 4 days since my arrival and its kind of very hot from the rest
of the region that i have been to. Its like almost 50 degree and luckily the
accommodiation is airconditioned. If not i can tell you i will be rosted in
this kind of environment.Well work is so far not tough cause of my
back ground but its nice to be here. So chow for now

well 1st June will be making my way exit from Nepal and going to
Abu Dhabi. Long sentance make it short, I am going there.......
Well kind of bored cause how much hours and minute and
not forgetting seconds are left for me to cherish my time here. It
only when i am there that i will start missing home. But a man got
to do what a man got to do. I feel half hearted and i am going on
a journey which i dont know whats it' like and have not thought of
it much cause i dont know exactly what the outcome is going to be
like. Well i Have to go and lets see the world out side asia. Middle
East here i come. Good Night.. Before i stop,, i called all the guys
my last call and the lucky guys to be here are, Harka, Nan,
Rajendra(Barns), Biray, Surya Samba, Pralhad, Sensa.. And of
course i gonna miss my family... So with a smile on my mind i will
be boarding my flight at around 20hrsplus and reaching there on the
2nd of June around 3hrs plus. So i write my last blog in Nepal
before i get out of Nepal.  So bye bye for now.

Hey 30th May and 12 more days for the inagural World Cup to be
offically opened in South Africa. Am i excited? No not really but
it is a 4 yearly competition for the countrys to participate so just
join in the mood cause this is how things works. Ha ha. Unless
there is other alternative. Well so how? Any way i dont have a
favourite team but if i have to choose the country that have
qualified than i would choose... um.. ok let me take Argrntina.
Although i dont really like them recently, where as when i was
younger i used to. I really am changing my perspective of this
kind of lame games cause this money pocketers are sucking up
the money from the commoners just to entertain the world. And
Best of all the cheque they are taking back are like so huge that
i dont think i will be able to earn my life time. I mean their monthly
cheque compared to my whole life work. So unfair. Its like a circus
which i think is pretty pair to the society where as the football is
like 80K people crammed in a single stadium and see 22 monkey
runnin for a ball. And if there is casuealty the 80K idiots which
jinx fools is going to die without any compensation. See what i mean.
Does it make any sense? Well this is just my comment thats all no
hard feelings. Well forget about that and something new.

Well nothing to say for now.

Well i will be sleeping now..

1109pm...

Uugghhh... I dont think i am that sleepy so why not waste time
writing something down. If it make sense or nonsense, i will just
try to write something. How fast time passes each and every
single day and suddenly you are like WHAT!!! Well this is reality
for every one not only those with big careers. Ya their only
advantage is that their is a bit of a bit advantage. You know what
i mean. After all everyone has a role in this world weather you are
a sinner or a saint. Time never stops and an act is always playing.
Its just part of human life. Some die early som die late, some are
lucky some jinx, some are always trying some need not. It just
part of ones life. So there is so many factor to think that some just
live life.. Well i am that fellow and i will do great things someday.
In terms of great which means what every one has been doing till
now cause the action which has happend already by others will
be great to me cause i have not experienced it yet. So for them is like
'what so great about it...." And for me is like 'Wow i am so and so.."
Than when new generation comes it will be for me 'What so great.."
Uugghhhh.. Understand what i maean. As of what i have written
a bit of it is sense and a bit of it is nonsense. See what i maen but
it is sure fun to write somrthing down. May be lets see how well it
goes later on.. Now's 1124pm and there is like 36 minute to
midnight. And Ramila just laugh ha ha and said 'How many times'
Well as the time passes so does our days of our rich lives. Most of the
time i am frustrated and so does everyone but when the time for the
lives stops that's when our priceless live stops and how much experience
is experienced in ones life. That's why they say 'Live your life like if
there is no tomorrow'. 

29th May 2010  1046pm

I am so fresh that i dont think i will be able to sleep the whole
night as i just woke up 30minute ago. I had fallen asleep from
watching television after dinner around 8pm. It was not agood
habit as this has affected my sleep at night. For the past few
month since arriving back to Nepal i have been sleeping very
late at night after mightnight. Sometimes almost when the
sun is almost rising. Its just that i am so sick back in my country
that affecting my lifestyle. I try to adjust myself but due to too
much outside of Nepal caused me to feel this way. Now i will
be going out again any moment soon and i think i will be lost
in my search for career. Its not something big as i am doing
some jobs which i think will not lead me far but just survival.
In the end i have to come back to Nepal and get lost again.
I really hate it but this is how i have to face every now and
than. I dont know how my job will lead me this time or how
i will lead my job. This is something i have been fighting
for cause i am in some shit which has made me do a bit
of this and a bit of that. Well 32 is a big age and i think its
sweet to be sweeter and am happy about it. Like my dad
used to say "Do something and Die".. I am doing something,
and the only thing is am i doing the something??? Well i
dont know if its the choices i made wrong or the lack of
seriousness that i lack. Or is it the passion that i lack. Well
32 is a very difference as i look at people around me. Maybe
maybe.. later on.. Abu Dhabi here i am going to come.
I am not so enthusiastic or am very proud that i am coming
there but i will say i made some good choices and some to
write in my resume or my life story. I am not so proud and
am not emberessed that i am starting a job that is expected
of my study case.. well let just say i made a right choice with
the help of my sis. Thanks and looking forward to the flight
as everything is cleared from the interview to the visa, insurance
and the clearance from Nepal Foreign Employment. Just
waiting for the e-ticket for the flight.
Back to where i am now, will i be able to sleep? I have to
cause no choice and i will try to. Ha ha.....

Well well its been very long after all.. May be i am getting bored or..
i dont know.. Well firstly i feel i am not improving on this blog or
what.. Ugghh.. Never mind.. Try to write somrthing rather than
nothing.. So as far as i can say i am not in good moods lately cause
too much time wasted and nothing learned i can tell. DOnt care is my
attitude which makes me sulk.

Well looking forward to some things.. ANd trying to write more..
Next time hopefully..

Well as far as i can say its been so long since i have typed...
So far so good and life is going on smoothly and i am happy
to be able to say something. So lets see how things will
work out...

Well now almost midnight which means 25th of March...
Returned on 19th around 4 plus local time and its great
to be back home after so long and i am on top of the world..
No regret time to move ahead cause long road ahead to
conquer.. Well its been 5 days and i am helping out at
home plus winter almost over least experiencing the
cold climate fading.. Well lets see what i am going to do
for the later part.. ok chow for now...

Well a new day and i am very fresh.. I just bought a new
spectacles which cost me 310 and the vision is very blurry
due to my old glasses that i have been wearing.. I mean it was
kind of old like 5 years old and due to the bad clearity my
sight have been bad. Ok so far so good, had to say no choice
if not the mood will follow the bad side so being positive is
a good thing..

Now almost 1913hrs 6th of Feburary 2009 and i am surfing the
net to pass the one hour mark.
Nice pictures i am checking out.. And it brings out good thoughts
in my mind. I guess i am happy where i am and happy for the
others where they are cause its changes that i am seeing rather
than the same things thats happenning. Really cool...

Well thats all for now..

Well The new year started and its almost 1/6 of the year..
How time goes by so fast that i seemed to loose track of it..
And now the time has come for me to revive and to start
my life a better of the second half and i am ready for it..
Time is the other factor and patience and clear thinking
which i have to carefully use and of course there is reward
for every thing if the combination is complete and its just
natural cause of the exposure of the initial.. Later on its
normal life. So how will i fare, time will tell and i know i have
to do it..

Any way 2010 already started and left's like 10 more month to
2011.. Hey wait.. i am getting older, i mean my age.. not my
youth.. ha ha.. But i think i am missing out too many things..
I have to catch up and go a step ahead of it.. so how???


Ok todays Thursday.. 5th Feburary 2010 and the time is
1346hrs and now i am at Sungai Long.. Just came back from
KOta Raya from LaliGuras restaurant due to some work..
And one step cleared and leaves many steps to concoure..
Feeling very fresh cause before this had an apple and a
yogurt.. Need to get vitamins too for my body.. Cause this
body is only for this life and i need to take care of it for tomorrow.


Been so long have not written anything on the blog so
trying to make up for the lost time.. Any way i ahve wrote
some songs in Nepali with the molody from the guitar
which sounds almost the same for all the songs.. Any way
its my song and its for personal pleasure so why should i
give a shit what others say.. But still its comforting singing
and playing the guitar to keep me balanced..

OK my time almost up.. so this is it for now.. The alert
for TIME UP icon just popped out telling me to either
pay for another hour or my time is almost up..
\ ok chow for now..

Well 11/11/09
The same pickpocket tried to pocket again but
i was alert enough to realise what was going to
happen and avoided it. Any way i think they
were unsuccessful in pocketing their Negro
victim as from the scene he did avoided..
Well this pickpocket are a bunch of gangs
comprising both sexs and lucky for me as i
monitered their behaviour. And its best not
to be hero in my case as they might counter
accuse me as one of their partener a female
was beside me. I kept sitting down not
wanting to give up my seat to the elderly as
what one of the suspect did to make me
feel felial pity for the aged people. Well like
they say once bitter twice shy and be careful
in this kind of situation..
(September 23 and October things got lost)
My past misforctune..

Any way now at library waiting for 2 more days and i almost
can feel the roller coaster breeze cause its going to be very
fast and i know i will be 'someone'.

Ok chow for now and till than Next Time..

Well well well its been so long that i am kinda losing interest
in the blog that i have created. But i try to remember it even
though.. So far so good and so bad.. Its the package in life.
Well well well.. Ha ha ha.. Cant complain can i? Even if i..
Its the package.. Well well well.. Huh dont know what to
write.. Just bla bla bla.. How times changes everything from
who i was before and who i am now. From physical to
mental changes i am evolving. Very rare cause it would for
most of others would be mental changes. I did not realise
i was changing into my physical as well.. Bla bla bla..
I dont really know until some one notices cause i cant
tell if its really that changes are evolving... So let me be the
new person if i am.. so stopping here my typing and go for
the news...paper...

Another day and another time of a new dimension to follow the path of
something which we all have in common. How the times of changes
leaves us in a parallel dimension and makes us wonder how it is really
what we are and would it be a matter of our existence? I am longing for
that answer and so do the rest of the species. What are we really
looking for and what are the changes thats keeps our mind distracted
and makes it focused on others? Is it something that what is undeliably
something. Curiocity are the fact that makes me write such stuff and
i dont know if i will find the answer to my question or rather everyone
Question. I have always wondered in my thoughts and its a vast wide
thoughts thats seemingly 90% illusions and thats what keeps me
occupied most of my time life maybe 60% to where i am today.
Its something which we cant get our focus out of and its really
sometimes a piss of the mind. How strange are we and how do we
tackle such things.. There are answers to it but will i be able to make
it. I think do it than again it just drift my concentration and i get
lost in my own world. Well i am confused and maybe i should get
my mind focused on something rather than just get lost in my
thoughts. It would kill the life out of me and maybe i might be
someone one day. How i wish to eloberate more and am thinking
i need to do something to change to be a beer person of who i
am currently. Todays 15 October and the time is 1014am and
i am doing my best to be. 2 more month to 2010 and am getting
older year by year. Seems like only yesterday and now its like
how times goes so fast and i think i am missing so many things
of my talent and i am learning every bit of my inner self and kind
of trying to let go of my past and concentration forward. Ok so
far i am in positive mode and lets see how long thats last..
Ok next time more..

Well another photo from courtesy of Kamal Gurung back in 2007 or 8 cant remember in Johor Bahru near Singapore Border. Well cant believe i am looking too old.. Maybe age is catching up.. Ha ha.. Well this was before Kamal left for Australia.. He is there by now..

Here harka and Kamal at the Starbuck.. Well thanks for the drink Kamal.. I mean of course u have to to cause comparing the dollar and ringget. its sure was vast in difference..

Well i always kind of felt this was very different of me.. well getting too old.. thanks Kamal found it at facebook while just surfing..

Well this was i think in 2004 or 5 or 3 cant really remember but it was at National Stadium.. This was the place where i was almost turned into a Negro..Even my dad called me.. well got it feom Om Prased facebook.. although i am not here.. we had a good coperation working together..

Well so long yet so deprerssing are the words to be written here.
What can be so new is a depriciation of the life of mine.
Dont know what exact words to type.. but to type something.
How time been wasted or what defination words can i write...
Just a waste of some of the days of smeere waste i guess.
Hoping something which is hopeless and not giving up the
thought of loosing everything.. Well its life after all..
I think its makes us stronger or weaker in cetrain phase of
time and doing the most is to.. checking out photos in
facebook and its sure good way of wasting time cause
mind of brain not working and its damned to lazy to other
things except to see the times goes by. Its sure good way to
relax the yime which i will for sure later on think what the
hell did i do with the precious time.. This is what happens when
the brain losses the moment and later on say such stuffs..
Sometimes its just inspires you and sometimes its just makes you
feel different.. You know most of the guys are out and seems
very lonely.. i mean who do they have the same batch of friends and
a few new guys.. its like lost in the desert.. the smiles on their
faces looks very fake this is what i think.. All our life being a
foreigner and now dont know if career can get the foundation
in a new environment.. Trying their best to live a lie., I kind of
feel sad foe them and many things.. Its like when a girls gets married
and have to stay with her husband..I guess this is what most of the
general people are doing to carry on i think.
I felt i wanted to go to but as time passes my mind set keeps
changing too. Still i am confused. Here stuck in my own fucking
mess and no way to look forward and even if i do.. what are the
chances of success?? this is the delimma that i am in and i am
fucking it away and just pass time and see what happens after all
i am living this life and like i say not everyone are supposed to be
BOSS n everyone of us are different generally. So WIth a smile on
my face i am typing this sentance of damned nonsense. But somehow
i feel like i will make it and somehow i feel like will i be able to. Only
time will tell and seems like new friends are not much of a help cause
their aim are not as high as what their limit are and thats what keeps
them satisfied. May b i am asking too much or maybe my mentality
is so wrong. As i think there seems nothing wrong to think too high
but may be the direction i am going wrongly. But i dont know other
ways.. there is but it wrong..ha ha.. lets see.. only tiem will tell
So chow and next time..

23 September 2009 1010am
and its a beautiful Wednesday to start of the day formally. Saying and
feeling are two different meaning to speak the mind and after the hours
has passed and the reality of the thought comes to conclusion but thats
life isnt it? Well its the world we live in and many complication arises
and we are not sometimes certain of the objective. But i am also
sometimes not certain what i am writing and it can be a nuisance and
you dont have to really believe what i write. Its just pass time and no
other words to define it.

999

Well another special year and the opportunity to type my view.

999 as they say 9th Day, 9th Month and of course the year 9

which is a special combination number to be cherished. Not this

lifetime of others are able to witness this day may by come another

100 years later. Well like 888 i am truely able to write something.

Last year there was Dhurba and Ravi to type something in my blog.

But this year i am alone to write my self and i guess its the way of

ones life to be described. How the one year has passed and many

thing has happened and knowledged gained or loss. I dont really

know the answer to that but to use it as new lease of times comes

by. Be it better or worse, its just the way of life and to deal it with

the outmost way possible. Life is after all a life. Nothing will change

the way it should be heading. But without the presence of everyone

it makes life dull after all. Many ways to see it after all. And i guess

its worth every single seconds of it and 999 its great to be alive and

going. Hope i will be able to write again on 101010... Ok my ending

is i am who i am and i did no wrong what i did and i will do what i

need to do and i am happy who i am. Cause there is only one ME.

So to others, there is only one YOU. So....

5th September 2009 903hrs..
Fundmental is a certain words which we have to apply in our daily
life. Without it, mass theory will be lost and i have made a mistake
and many will along the way. We learn and make mistake too
often that we dont realise where we are or who we really are. And
i have been there and still there unless i change my way of thinking
of the very basic way of fundamental. I come to understanding
whats past is past and this is one last opportunity for me to change
and make my life better for the coming days. Yes there are other
opportunity along the way but it goes back to the basic and we
have to accept that. To be able to start in the middle i need the
needs of my ability to go above the middle to the higher. Or else
i will always have to start low no mattter where i will start. Hard
work is another things that is very important to the success of the
road ahead and i will write my progess as i go along. This is one
big opportunity and it will not come again.. There are limitation
which i have to face it or better explain to them. Lets see how it
really goes in the coming weeks to come.......

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Well yesterday as usual around early 8am i as usual was doing my
pull up at KLCC Park. As usual i was doing i noticed a helicopter
circuling the Petronas Twin tower. I was thinking to myself why of
a sudden such dcene? I thought to myself maybe it was one of the
way of patronism since after Merdaka(National Day) on the 31st
August. I did not though much but i did think the Al Queda was
going to attack was one of my funny side of thoughts. And carried
on with my pull up and headed for my destination. Well as usual today
i did my pull up again and took the Sun's paper at the Ampang
Train Station. As i turn over the next page i saw the article
"Spiderman" arrested after scaling Petronas Tower.. I was like
what... I read the story.. Alain Robert a French national 47years
old had concured the tower in just 2 and a half hours due to wet
wather. I mean can u believe that he climbed without any safety
equipment and without any other people knowledge. He succeeded
and was reprimended by the police. He had tried before but was
not allowed or other reasons. Man i was there and i did not knew
such was happenning. I felt very proud of him.. He gave me
encouragement even though i was low in the morning and i learned
we have to keep trying until we succeeded and less of other
knowledge.. Well Alain Robert you have my respect and thanks
for the success u have done. Nothing is impossible. Hope i can
emulate like you and i want to fight my rights and go on even if i
cant.. Cheers to you..

Well i am too free to write.. i guess i got the liberty aint i.. ha ha.. So
todays a fine and a bit rainy outside compared to inside and i have
the time to sightseeing some of the places...

922am and well Harka n Kul is on his way back in RA to Nepal and now i suddenly
like it was only yesterday we came here.... How time flies.. Well today Pralhad one
of my good freind is going back too.. Not forgetting Kedar Gurung my hostel mate
too is leaving.. Well reminds me of the time we stayed under the same shelter
and all the memories with drinks and many things we adapted to the living
environment exposed. Well they are gone and the latter today. So i guess my time
will come soon with Dhurba Khadka. Ok now i am surfing Google map and it
one of a kind of futuristic sites.. I mean i can actually be anywhere and check out
the street and places of interest. Its good though but i can only access some places.
Its better than non.. Well if the speed was much better i would be able to access
much quicker around the places.. But its ok also.. All right than i want to do some
sight seeing...

Well i am here and i am going there soon. I do know..
Ok.. it my turn so i am ready..

28th August 2009 and tomorrow Harka and Pralhad and not forgetting Kul are
flying back concurrently of one day difference. Well Its 3 years of career and
without family members beaside us and the life had effected us dearly and
an experience which each one of us has a differnt view of expressing oneself.
My turn will come to go back and i am looking forward to it. Guess i have
been away too long and sure miss my family back home and it makes me more
stronger to survive individually and spiratually. Well i dont really know how
to express it but to experience it will eventually prevail the words that i wish
to write. But one thing its good writing.. Ok Biray (he is married to)
mailed me.. and tells me Duk is in Nepal with his family.. Well hes a father
already to a beautiful daughter and what can i say.. Wish him more baby and
be a good father.. I guess thats what we are more capable in this other than..
well i dont really know.. Well here i think its the monsoon season ant its
been raining and drizzling continousely for the past 17 hours and i think it
will continue to non stop.. So its pretty cold out here except too many places
flood here and there.. Hate it cause i have to walk like an hour to my destination
and by the time i reach, my shoes all wet in and out. No use for the umbrella..
i mean only for the upper part of the body.. And the best part is when there is a
path of flood at the road (i mean almost every where cause the road are mass
made and not to quality standard) and whan car pass by, suprise of splash
of water form the two different motion. And i really hate it cause it diry.
Well lets put the pen down and rest for now..

Oh well back again to the world of ups and down. What would it be like if its
was one way going. I really cant or have the exact answer for this intricating
question myself. So any way the only way to find out is to experience it.
So here i am down for so long and i believe it time to pick to reach higher
for better tomorrow or better days. Cant always go low can i!! Ok time to
change the chart and new climate. So where are have all the days coming to
only time and fate can say the least as it comes and to top it up.. good luck..
Ok kind of feeling the way every day i was feeling and finding the time of
going for the changes of the less ordinary. Cant think of much just to write
some crap to fill my day to look at the time just passing by. Its just how
time is passed to fill the gap of seeing new things thats comming soon. I
cant forward it so to go with the time and obey its law. No choice everyone
has to obey its law. So how shall we describe the worls as?? Its has its own
defination and its way of showing life to the living. Can u just imagine how
did civilasation came about?>? Its complication and scientific has priven it.
But do you trust every bit of it.. Its depends on every individuals and i am
50-50. Cause there is truth and for sure there is Lie. So just say Ya Ya..
and move on.. Cause there are morans saying this is and that is making sure
they get you hooked in their point. Well lets forget about this moran and lets
go on to something more fun for the day.. So here i am walking to a shop to
buy some stuff and as it was a long walk and deserted path.. I decided to
sing some silly tunes.. Tunes just comes out from my mouth and try along
the way to melodise it.. I did not or by excitement as i carry on the singing
the vocal along the way was getting high pitches. Or other term high volume.
I made the pop to alternative and sudenly to heavy.. I did not realise someone
was behind me until he bypassed me with his finger on his ear and my brain
was told me to mute or just carry on slightly softer. So here i am emberessment
or just liberty.. any way this was not the first time i was singing and carried on
except the unfortunate was well forget about it and this is my life, who the hell
is he and i have the right as this is public and i am not going against the law.
Freedom and every human had the rights to it as it does not go against the
boundary of the so called Law. Well i did enjoy myself cause singing is
something which makes out emotion go wild and make us like a bird flying so
high that there is no direction and which ever way we go it makes us feel
liberty. Well it was one awsome experience and i would like to do it on stage
but insted of flowers or panties thrown in, i think bottles and all sort of hurting
tools will be thrown in thats why i am in the limit of not doing such stuff..
Its personal and not publicity. I rather enjoy than get bullshit review. Ok so
much of fun and here is a true story. Just last night i was looking across the
road and this neighbour grows all sorts of vegatation just out side of their
house. It is ment for purely decoration i believe. Any way i believe its just
some time pass for the grandma of the house. I mean she is old and i believe
in her young she was in agriculture and this was her only mean of pass time.
The family is rich and its a good kind of hobby to fill her days. So as you
know there is like 3 papaya tree and all of them bearing fruits and its was
almost or beginning to ripe. So here my mind fickring what to do decided it
wants my tummy with fresh fruits. So without any thought my legs walks to
the tree and shakes the trunk. Water droplets falls like as though it was
raining. Previously it had rained and water was collected on the leaves of the
papaya thats why when i shaked the trunk water dropped. The first shake was
not strong enough and i had to do it again and 2 dropped just beside me. And i
just picked it up and went back to my place like as though it was mine. Well
i did not care and i washed it and peeled of the skin. It was ripe and not 100%.
It was crunchy and i and Joe enjoyed the freshness just previously from the
tree. So it was a daring experience at this age. Well i dont know what i was
doing but i sure did enjoy the fruit. Any way behind the house there is a
banana tree and its just beared fruits. I am thinking of letting it grow a bit in
size and store it in so that it ripens up. Its kind of disappointing cause i
thought the size was bigger but to my dismay its size is small and nevermind
as long there is banana edible its worth it. I just hope it will be ready by some
time soon. Well i guess thats it for today and next time..

Well well.. its 14th Friday 2009 and 1033am and i am here just to write some things
before i forget what i want to write.. Any way thats all for today..

This is from National Geography.. And i am uploading cause its very unique as the
Squirrel is also wants not to be missed in camera.. I guess its trying to say ''Cheese"
before the shot..

Well tomorrow 7th August 2009 is going to be an anniversary for me. It not something
to be proud or celebration of. Any way how times flies and how life has come to this
situatuion. By the way 21th will be the day what i had started off with.. Anyway its
kind of feeling good. mayybe its more of a better days to come or not but the key
word will be 'optimistic' and looking forward to it. Ok enough of this and i been reading
some books which is good or maybe not. It depends when the time comes for its
particapation, before that i need something which is, lets call it 'ignation'. Time has gone
and new times coming and sounds very awkard or nevermind.
So lets me be the one to say ok 'Lets start anew form tomorrow'.

1st August 2009... 10:11am Saturday// weekend and its great to be back to write buisance!!
Well as i said it was great but something just made my day a less not so.. Any way what
can i say.. wanted to say something but i think i better not and i think i should keep it to
myself and maybe its for the best of me.. And let me write nuisance if i can think of
something that my brain might come out of.. Ok i am thinking and looking at the admin
side to check if the case is clear.. seems ok but still i might not have such previlage in the
coming days. Nontheless i dont think i need to care so much of such things..cause i think
i have other better things to concentrate.. Well i guess i will be writing less from now on
and i will try to write even though i dont have much space.. Ok any way chow for now.

Ok Saturaday and its ok for whats past has passed and looking for my
brain to write something today. Its 10:10am on 25th July and i have like
3 weeks to go down south to meet up friends and settle some things.
I am now well ok.. nothing to write..

As i turned to look to the sight my mind had flashed across when i was
turning just about. It was a vivid memory of a look coming from
across the street. The very familiar face once i knew but my brain was
not working out who this person was. I tried to recall upteem times but
i just could not get what i wanted. My brain was dead and i was trying to
scan back every detail out of my past. I realised that it was no use any
longer as it just could not come and...

Well above is something i wanted to write but i could not carry on as i
am lost of idea and sentance. I think i need to improve more on my writing
in the near future.

Ok Saturday the 18th July 2009.. A bright morning and infact very
beautiful minus the haze. So what better way to have a bread and coffee
before my day starts. So life seems so very.. I dont know cause it no use
planning when you are not under your roof especially like me in LUAR
NEGARA(Foreigner). Ok its like this for me for the last 23years of my
life. So i am not settlled yet at a fixed place and i think it will not be my
last either.. May b once i go back i might search other area too. Cause
my country of origin has nothing to offer but many thing we individuals
have to contribute. It sad but true and i want to contribute maybe once
i am more stable. If not its ok.. at least we have the thought.

So as you know august coming soon and i been thinking lately of
returning for good. But the futures uncertainty cause the economy still
not too fixed up. Can have some hic-ups as whats goes down needs
time to come up and there might be obsticles along the way and due to
gravitional force it might plunge back. Never know, it all depands on the
stock player and the world. As you know North Korea their ass kind of
itchy and keep farting german gases and Terhan or Iran back to Moulsive
or Ahmadejin. And there are the disaster of plane crashing one after the
other. First the Air France crash on 1 June 2009 than Yemani crash
on and now Iranian Airways so it can be coincendital.. Its like a chain
reaction of some kind of ill fated fate. Well i am not too sure but my
condolance to all the dead and to their family and friends. Well we still
have to live and speaking of live my nature call is asking me to release.
But once i release this PC than i dont think i will be able to get it back.
I will try to hold on for some time just to surf a while longer..

Mondays coming and i am geared up for something and thinking of
a roller coaster journey if my fate comes along. Never know whats
written till i find out myself when the time comes and of course i
have to put in effort if not how will the ride comes about.

So this week end might be weeding or just passing and i really hate
to waste time. So hope my ends are worh of justification of how it
will be spent. Later at least one part of my right or left brain will say
ya i did that.

So i just edited my profile in facebook cause i am getting irriteated of
it. Cause its like a i dont know but i think i have other better things to
do than surf such things. So my bladder saying faster and i want to
hold on longer cause i have not finished yet..

Now finally i have finished what i was here for ok next time i will
write more..

Well here i am again.. Its really nice to be back and to type what my fingers
wants to type.. Its just blows my mind away and i am just writing what my
minds comes about. I think its unique or more nuiscance to do but the best
part is at least there are more pages or sentances for me to refer in the
coming times of passages. Even some of the things i have written previously,
i dont seems to understand mysely. I mean what i had wrote and i dont
understand what i have written. Well thats me.. maybe i did not check back
what i have written.. Cause i am really not so into checking.. you may call it
lazy or anything thats comes to mind.Any way most of the things that i have
typed are not the most 100% understandable and i can assuse readers like
me getting lost and frustrated. Actually i dont care cause this web page is
ment for me and only me. Lets forget this bullshit that i have written and
go on to.. 1031am 17July 2009 Friday. And like i previously written, its
mostly hazy in south east asia due to forest fire in Indonesia and Malaysia.
The country wants to clear lands to do some kind of shitty business and
to save a single cent they burn the forest blaming the heat to illegal
burners.. This fucking basterds are only after money.No standard practice.
But think again maybe they have no choice cause the big fish are the real
culprits and by the time it reaches the contractors he would have no choice
but to fire the place. This is called corruption. Frankly speaking corruption
is everywhere especially in asia. Especially developing nations. This are
the country where vast industralisation, economy are taking place.
And to get richer the rich are taking every opportunity in the corruptial way
to get rich. Cause like they say there will never comes a second chance and
since the countrys vast, the saying goes. If he/she did not get caught so would
i. And this lead to more greed and in the end a very corruptial nation. Well
money is the cause but it is true the population are too vast that greed is the
answer. So 90% has to stop dreaming of becoming rich. Any way i my self
dont know what i am writing. Well weekends round the corner and currently
i am reading Millionare secret(Frankly the titles i am not too sure). This is
another good book which i have alread read 1/4 and i find its a good
book. It not about how to win money, but a true story of JJ who wins 10million
pound(wow all that money). Well he gets all kind of trouble and how he nearly
got into a lot of trouble. Any way it tells of how he acted as sugar daddy to get
love. But non lasted and how he used a lying method to find true love.Any have
not finished the book but i can tell it a bit hilarious and very true story. Any way
i want to win like him too to get start my life. If not i accept a humble life. Ok
back to my life week end and i dont know where to go. May be the times
square to relax. I think its best thats way. I have not told you that they have a
first indoor theme park in Malaysia. It has rollercoaster and all kind of thems
coaster or what they are called exactly. Although i have not tried, i am
sure i will not try those super speed. May be the tortise speed i might try.
Cause i remember exactly in Singapore inside Haw Par Villa where there was
a boat ride and it was floating slope down 45degree at its own speed or
gravitional force plus the weight of us and you can imagine the high velocity..
twice it had to float slope down45degree and i was already in the first ride i
could not take it.. I mean i am not a coward or what ever its called, but speed
i just could not take it the sheer shock. may be it phobia.. i dont know but i
accept who i am and i cant take speed shock.. so back to times square it really
a nice place to be.. and the place is like 9 story of shopping
malls. There are i think more than 500 different shops to look around.. from
A-Z you can can find anything you are looking for( i mean middle class) Guys
this is a shopping mall not a rag and bone shop.
I have been thinking lately how should i take things cause 2 or less month is left
before i go back its been a hell and heaven experience for me in this place. Its
so different and i can tell i have never experience this kind of life iin my entire life.
It has opened my eyes bigger and also made it smaller. But more wiser or
foolisher. I dont know only time will tell as i move along. Dont know lets see how
it goes by.Well tonight i am going to have tapioca cause i just pulled the fruit from
the ground and its kind of big but i managed to only extract one roots.May be i
will go earlier and pull more if i can..which means the more the merrier..any way
its getting cold and i am just trying to write more.. i think i better not cause my
brains not working..Any way the times 1129am

Ahh.. i am here agian to write nonsense.. Todays Wednesday and its kind
of dark outside cause raining.. As far as i heard that its monsoon season
in Nepal and maybe the climate is blowing south.. I dont know exactly
but if i can i can check it in CNN weather forecast.. But to do that i have
to find cable network.. May be i should forget about it.. Any way its
natural to rain and shine.. Its makes the weather more finer compared to
sunny too much. Well i just finished reading a book titled RUNAWAY..
Its a good book telling a story of a girl how she actually faced the world
with her being abused and how she longed to get love from parents and
how she saw the life as a whole.. I actually love reading it.. I mean in my
life, i mean my whole life i have never read more than 5 novel.. But the
more important thing is that i finished it within a week.. I mean it took me
more than a month to finish a book in the past.. So you see the difference..
Any way i have targeted another book.. yet to start reading.. think its a
good book. The times 1127hrs and 15 July 2009 Wednesday.. Like
i said earlier its raining or drizzling.. so as usual i am going for a smoke
soon..

Courtesy of Ex-Gc fellow


Well what have we here.. some of the old games we used to play..
I mean it was very popular in our time or back in the days..
Brings back old memory..




Courtesy of Ex-Gc fellow

Bee-Bee.. this was the snacks we used to fill our tummy
back then.. as it was kind of popular.. i think..
ya it is.. memory slowly comong

The GC

The entire contingent is housed in Mount Vernon Camp, which is their one-stop location for work as well as personal life. While most new recruits come to Singapore alone since they are usually in their late teens or early twenties, they are allowed to bring along their wives and immediate family members to Singapore as they move on into the next phases of their personal lives.
Ultimately, the officers know they are here only on a temporary basis, further enforced by the fact that they are disallowed from integrating too much with local society. Due to their chief purpose as a neutral presence here, they are not allowed to marry Singaporean women, hence the allowance to bring their wives and children from Nepal to the camp. At the end of their contract, they are expected to return to their villages and back to a rural life dependent on agriculture. Only a handful have ever been known to have broken this tradition and chosen to stay in the city-state.
The camp itself is built on a relatively secluded area in Mount Vernon, taking over facilities previously occupied by the reserve units. Comprehensive facilities to create a self-contained township-like complex allows most daily chores and needs to be fulfilled within the camp without too much interaction with the outside world. This also helps to reduce the amount of traffic into and out of the camp for security reasons.
Still, dwellers in the complex are not prohibited from leaving the camp or utilising services and facilities outside it. Throngs of school-going Nepalese children regularly leave and enter the camp everyday, wearing the uniforms of national schools. The camp's close proximity to Bartley Secondary School has seen a significant number of Nepalese children being enrolled there, although they can also be found in schools much further away as the children become gradually assimilated into Singaporean society and culture. They cannot sink their roots deeply, however, as most of them are in the country on dependent passes, and are compelled to leave Singapore when they turn 21.
Still most of these young Nepalese are unlikely to follow their fathers' footsteps, and armed with education certificates, are expected to lead quite a different life compared to previous generations should they return to Nepal. They also have the liberty to apply for employment passes to work in Singapore, as is the case for any other foreigner seeking employment in the country, and it is possible to obtain permanent residence and even citizenship, although these young Nepalese receive no special treatment in obtaining permanent status.
The surrounding commercial outlets thrive on business brought about by the Nepalese community based here, and it is a common sight to see officers doing their daily recreational runs around the major roads close to the camp, albeit always in civilian running attire and running alone or in small groups to avoid drawing too much attention to themselves.
The Gurkha community has been known to extend aid to their fellow Nepalese in Singapore, such as during the operation to separate the conjoined twins Ganga and Jamuna at the Singapore General Hospital in November 2001, where they helped to raise funds for the medical procedure and daily expenses, accommodated the family at their Mount Vernon home for a period of time, and assisting in making logistical arrangements for the family's transportation and other needs.[7]
Back in Nepal, the Gurkha Welfare Trust seeks to preserve the legacy and heritage of the Gurkhas with the opening of Gurkha Memorial Museum in the premises of Hotel Nature Land at Pardi, Pokhara. There, uniforms and badges of the GC are on display together with those serving with the British Army [7]. Locals and tourists alike have visited the place, a reflection of the high regard local Nepalese hold for their counterparts who have served in these overseas organisations.
Despite their temporary employment basis, it is considered highly honourable to serve as a GC member back in Nepal, and there is always a ready pool of young men eager to join the contingent, with well over 20,000 applications seeking to join the British Army or the GC annually for just 370 places. The good income, way of life, and the affordable and excellent education for their children (or future children) are further draws. With the increasing concerns against terrorism and the continued security threat Singapore face, it is likely the GC will have an increased and sustained role in Singapore's future, despite original intentions of the contingent itself as a temporary security measure during Singapore's early turbulent years.



Mount Vernon Camp, also known as the Gurkha Cantonment, is an establishment of the Singapore Police Force built to house the training and residential facilities of the Gurkha Contingent's Gurkhas and their families. Located at Mount Vernon near to the secludedness of the Bidadari Cemetery, it has undergone expansion on the hilly terrain, particularly with the introduction of modern, high quality high-rise housing blocks for the over 2,000 officers and their families-in-tow.
The road leading into the camp is named Kathmandu Road after the capital city of Nepal. Built as a self-contained complex due to security concerns to minimise movements into and out of the complex, it has its own shops, schools and even playgrounds for the younger children, which contingent commander Bruce M. Niven equates to being a township all on its own.
Dwellers in the complex are not prohibited from leaving the camp or utilising services and facilities outside it. Throngs of school-going Nepalese children regularly leave and enter the camp everyday, wearing the uniforms of national schools. The camp's close proximity to Bartley Secondary School has seen a significant number of Nepalese children being enrolled there, although they can also be found in schools much further away as the children become gradually assimilated into Singaporean society and culture. The surrounding commercial outlets thrive on business brought about by the Nepalese community based here, and it is a common sight to see officers doing their daily recreational runs around the major roads close to the camp.
Phase 2B of the complex expansion commenced in 2001 costing S$42.2 million and added 93,568 m2 of largely residential space. Designed by PWD Consultants and built by the China Construction (South Pacific) Development Co, it was completed by 2003 [1]. The complex continues to undergo physical upgrading works today, with the government setting aside another S$47.8 million for the expansion works being carried out from 2004 into 2006 [2].


About 2,000 Gurkhas contribute to the Singapore government. After 6 years of service they are allowed to bring their wife and children to Singapore until the end of their service. However their children are not allowed to stay after reaching twenty-one years of age. If this rule is not met, they can be arrested by the immigration authorities. The children are only allowed to study in Singapore. The children along with their wives are also not allowed to seek any kind of employment

I happen to find this drawing

somewhere. It was drawn in

the office and scanned and

emailed. Think it should be

almost 2 years old or lesser.

I was just kind of bored and

just for pass time drew it.

Well today 28th June 2009 time 1010am and theres like 3 days more for

me to wait for.. Ok i have to be more patience and think of the... I really

dont know what to say.. Well i better forget what i am supposed to say

only i know what its suppose to be.. And than well i am now surfing

facebook checking photo.. I mean nothing to surf so just surf whats on

the sites. Ok its very not so interesting after all. I mean its childish if

you need to write what you are doing every now and than when the net is

running 42hrs non stop. It like no life at all.. even if u shit u will have the

habit to write in the web. Well this is the new generation of getting in

touch with friends in cyber especially when its run 24hrs.. Like i said

just be careful what you write.. Dont just.. cause you never know when

you without knowledge write something thats so sensitive that you

wish you would not have.. Any way i been thinking its not so out of

this world after some time of using it.. I kind of felt bored but there are

no other sites that i have known thats why i am sticking with facebook.

So enough of this shit and i feel i need to keep my blog personal. cause

there are sensitive things in and it may cause damage to some others..

i mean i cant satisfy everyone.. even sometimes i feel like what the hell

did i write.. with this just imagine the people reading it.. They have all

kind of stupid views or trying to be smart ass. So its best to be isolated.

I aint earning anything by writing this but for my future refrences. So

why must i need to share.. I think i will for the time being and keep it

open.

So here i am agian.. cant think of what to write.. all the
thoughts that was in my mind its all gone and i am
kind of lazy what to write except to waste time..
Well let me make up some story so to fill the gap
of my time.. Well actually i got a Gap jeans which is
very unique so far what i have worne till now. so what
so special is that its more loose than compared to Levis.
I always felt Levis was ment for me.. but some how it was
always too tight even when i wore loose fitting.. than i
found Gap.. It was totally out of this world.. it felt very
comfort and its button,, not jeep.. any i been trying to
find another pair but i dont seem to find it.. and my
current ones almost worne out.. looks like i have to
use other brands.. just to hide my lower body.. Well
other than my jeans.. i have 2 t-shirt which i bought
in Nepal costing Rs500 each. The brands Tommy
Hilfier.. but its China made and the quality really sucks
and i dont have the heart to throw it away cause my
1st sis accompanied me to buy it some where at New
Road in Nepal.. So even its bad quality, i still cherish
the moment with my sis. Well i used to miss too many
things.. but as time goes by i realise i was not missing
instead i was simply not thinking.. The brain is so
very stuipid that its goes round and roumd making
ones confused.. and i have to learned to look beyond
the circle of trap.. i realise time will only be the factor
thats going to heal and to hail our life.. Oh todays 26th
June and how time flies. Cant believe i am in such mess.
Dont know if i would be able to solve but it does not
matter cause at least i have tried or thought of it.. no
regret or what so ever. Only time will tell the out come
than again head will spin cause thats part of life. And i
been thinking lately to be able to do somethiong about
the crises in Nepal.. But than again thats a differnt story
maybe i will share it in the future even if i cant do it..
Well back to Malaysia.. i with Goa(actual name Surya
Limbu) went to meet some guys in Jalan Imbi on the 23th
June to collect some document. There were like 6 guys all
older than me. Called them Dai and like all Nepali tradition
had wiksy and lunch with them. And of course to spend
time in Malaysia the only other pass time was to play
Marriage.. Its a game card thats contain 3 deck of 52 cards.
And 21 cards are distributed to each player.. Minimun 3
players and maximum 5. Its kind of a good way to pass
time.. Any way we left and on 24th i got a messae that
one of the guys again invited. not sure why.. i just went
along and found that he wanted to teach him basic in
computer.. He had just bought a new Lap top and he wanted
to learn. well i did not hesitate and taught him the basic.
After which i left around 10 plus in the morning.. The
lap top was sure nice thing to use.. It had Wifi plus
bluetooth.. Although the HD was less.. Any way its good
to owe a lap top.. It kinds of remind i used to owe a few
back than. One of the first was a AST computer back than
may be around 1995.. Its was a windows 3.1 operating
system.. Although i did not really made use of it that much
i learned some basic.. Than came along HP later on with
windows 95 and Windows XP than the Acer Laptop..
Well it was sure good to owe such brains but now it
does not matter and at least i am planning to owe one soon.
Now the times almost 1107am in the morning and i am
feeling a bit colder due to the aircon.. I really want to do
is to go up and raed the paper.. rather than surf cause its
so easy to surf but reality is true.. Web site just so easily
steal information from the papers where Journalist pay
so much effort to cover the story and web just in a few
clicks steals and it int he web.. Its like u cook your lunch
and your room mates finishes it.. Well the computer
wireless died and most of the things i wrote was not
saved.. so with this.. is all that i can post.. now
almost 1700hrs.. ok

Well its been so long i have not written and well many things
are about to change. And its a drastic super fast changes thats
coming my way.. Kind of in rush now..

U41

18 June 2009 around 1630hrs plus, as usual i had boarded U41 bus
from Sugnai Long to come to my work. It was almost empty as usual.
I took my seat at the usual spot at the handicap seat. (As for the interior
seat arrangement, from the enterance of the bus to the exit the passanger
seat is facing each other at the side. From the exit to the back end the
seat is faced front.) The one reason why i take this seat is because the
air-con is cooler at this particular spot, i dont really know the reason
but i observed it. And at the back, it gets hotter cause of the engin and
i dont think the bus is serviced on time. By mid way through the journey
the bus at the back will be like SONA room due to the packed passenger
and its in the late afternoon. And the bus will be so packed that movement
is little among the passenger and more will board even if its packed cause
the waiting for the next bus takes almost half hour or one.. never knows.
Some times i wonder what if there was a causalty.. this scares me.. And
from my previous experience, i gave up my seat to an elderly passenger
and instead my wallet was pick-pocketed. 2 weeks later my phone
followed as well. I never thought i would face such situation. But it was
very frustration.
Well back to my story, as i sat down i cooled myself using my t-shirt
which i was wearing. By doing so i scanned the bus and there was like
less than 10 passenger. I noticed one particular passenger who was seating
at the front seat after the exit door and i was seated at the last from the
entrance. To look at her i had to slightly turn my head and for her she just
need to turn her eye ball.. Actually from her position and mine it was in a
45* angle. She was eating some fried kuay and i observed her. She had a
sweet face, not so pretty and pretty as well.(i mean everyone of us has a
defination of beauty.. thats why they say beauty lies in the eye of the
beholder.) I maen she looked nice. She was wearing a pink t-shirt ithink..
jeans and pink shoe.. nice combination..Hair was shoulder length and neat.
Her eyes not to big not to small, just perfect. I guess her eyes was the
sweetest of all. Pinkish lips, i could tell she was not wearing
makeup like some other girls.. I mean i have no offence but i prefer natural.
From my observation she might be below 25 and above 16years. Normal
figure and fair skin. She had a bag on her lap and some plastic bags of goods
on the floor. As she ate i stole a glimpse of her. Later on she must have
realised and she looked back. I mean not really turn and directly look but
instead she just turned her eye ball. And every now and than i glimpsed
her and she did it back.. Think it was pure innocence.. I kept wanting
to look at her so i stole glimpse after glimpse and so did she. Finally the
bus moved and i tried to take my concentration away from her by looking
in the front or watching the mobile T.V. But i could not and kept stealing.
After some time as i was almost forgetting her, when the bus was filled with
fresh smell of burger. I mean the mayonese aroma was so strong that i turn
back to see who was having the burger. I can say i got hungry too. There
was this 2 girls who were sitting just behind her. I took this opportunity
and looked at them unrap the burger and they ate. In between i stole her
glimpse. It felt wonderful, but she did turn her eye ball for sure. As the
bus was moving i had lots of thoughts going on in my mind like i am a
foreigner and i dont even have one'C' not mentioning 5'C'. With this thought
i thought of my problems and tried to concentrate in other things. But i could
not and i kept stealing glimpse and so did she. At one point, think a Bangla
boarded the bus and he sat directly opposite me. He was neatly dressed
except that one of the button of his shirt was missing and his belly could
be seen as it was a tight fitting. This caused me to laugh, i mean it was a
funny incident. I tried to hide my emotion from him and the back. By now
the bus was getting packed as new passenger boarded from new spots. Her
view was disappearing and i had to look down the passenger legs apart to
see if she was still there. Sometimes when the passenger jerked i got to see
her for a short while. I waited for this and saw her. The train station was
approaching, i was thinking she might alight. I was thinking i might as well
alight and start a conversation. I will pretend to be a HIP and get her
information. But she did not alight. And so begain, i waited for the bus to
jerk and this caused the passenger to jerk and i got to see her view for a while.
This went on and on until i gave up my seat before my destination. I wanted
to look at her. My destination arrived and i half-heartedly moved to the exit.
I looked at her and she was looking at me too.. Those eyes, as i alighted kept
me thinking. I tried to walk a bit fast so as to overpass the bus to get to see
her. But the bus surplus me. I ran across the road desperately but the bus
was gone. And she was gone too. As i walked, i knew i would never see her
again. When i close my eyes, her image appears and especially her eyes. And
i for sure as time passes by her image will disappear from my mind and life
will be normal again. I wish i had done something about it, but i was just too
scared of the outcome and i did not have the confidence. Than again i wish
her the best of life thats comes along her. I also hope i could see her again
but what are the chances. Any way it made my stay here a special one to
remember although the rest was not a good one. This experience just took
my breath away and i just dont know when and how it comes by. It was so
suddenly. Describing it is so difficult thats why i am writing this in the
memory of you..SPECIAL ONE

Well i just took 2 cigreat and my credit is rm4.5 and am puffing and walking
towards my.......

OUR DREAM

I HAD A DREAM. EVERYONE HAS A DREAM. BUT MY

DREAM DASHED. SOME WILL ONLY GET THEIR DREAM.

SO DONT WORRY EVEN IF YOUR DREAM DOES NOT

COME TRUE. INSTEAD YOU ARE ALSO INVOLVED

IN MAKING OTHER PEOPLE DREAM COME TRUE.

MEANING YOUR DREA CAME TRUE IF ONLY YOU

UNDERSTAND LIFE. SO YOU MY FRIEND WE HAVE

TO THINK DIFFERENTLY TO UNDERSTAND

OURSELVES BETTER INSTEAD OF DROWNING IN

SORROW.